I can fake a smile to the unconcerned But feel myself break down when asked I’m so angry I’m driving myself insane I try to distract myself with lists of tasks I watch life progress without me Can’t seem to match the pace No matter how my speed increases There’s no way I’m winning this race I’m treading water, head barely afloat While I watch everyone else coast by Why does nothing I do seem to matter I’m losing my motivation to even try