I saw a picture of you today.
The first time in a year
my brain developed a clear image of your face
not having to work with just recollections and memories.
A ton of weight being thrown on my chest
That's exactly what it was like,
Trying to push the breath out of my lungs.
Tears came, but I did not move.
I did not make a sound.
I have turned you into such an imaginative thought,
That the reminder of you being a real person shocked me.
I saw your hair on the screen and immediately smelled it.
I saw your hands and remembered the way you cradling my face in them felt.
Every scar I've worked so hard to forget
Flooded my brain all at once.
You and I loved in a different life.
Today I realize we’ve both died and began new ones.
I have loved someone else in between me and you, how crazy is that.
Kinda makes you wanna laugh doesn’t it
How absurd that fact seems.
You are apart of my childhood,
And childhood has just ended for me.
You really are just a recollection of mine.
A memory.