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would you rather
get shot
or feel heartbreak all over again?

I for one, would be shot
but no, not for the reasons you think i imply
not at all

if i were to experience heartbreak
and it’s streaming flames lashing out at me
i would already be experience the equivalence of a shot

i’d have many shots at many clubs
trying to numb what’s on the inside

i’d be clawing at anything sharp
to relieve myself of the psychological pain

i’d have myself leaning —
standing on the edge of nothing
finding my feet slowly shifting forward

i’d have my body found on 4th street avenue
surrounded by the many willow trees and passing men
a hole in my heart leading my limbs sprawling out

so if a hole in my heart has the same result,
as the hole in my head
why not take the shorter route to the destination?

so this question's for you:
would you rather
get shot
or feel heartbreak all over again?