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My heart aches
no, it’s not from heartbreak,
i know what you’re thinking —

it’s from missing heartbreak,
its ends, middle grounds and beginnings
and all the love  — sweet, pure bloomed love —
that came with it

It aches, knowing i don’t feel love
no i really don’t remember
how it feels to fall so deep and cry so hard

for a person
because they start talking to someone else
more than they talk to you

tell me,
would you rather experience heartbreak again?
just to feel the love you yearned so very much at the start?
to know that you have fallen so deep — loved so hard, that you dedicate everything
to only one single person

one single person