It's been a while so I'll let nicotine spin my head
Turned the heat off because I like it cool around my blanket
And I'll pretend every word we shared was  unsaid
At least I tried but as for now I'll force myself to forget
Staring myself in the mirror wondering is this reality
Flashbacks to how it was make me grit my teeth
I'll brush them and go about and find another reason to be cheesing
But I guess I'll imagine a world with myself which you will never see
Then I'll reflect how no one has ever been there
I have my boys so it will balance out so I believe that what's missing is fair
For now I'll puff some more out because I couldn't regret or care!