I write letters to you
that I know you'll never see
but perhaps by one little mistake
one drop of the page
maybe you'll see your name
maybe you'll read the words I could never say.
I wish I would have stayed,
and done the things I knew I should.
Because now you're gone,
God,
do I miss you.
I know you hate me.
I know you don't want to talk to me,
I know I hurt you...

You told me to find someone else to hurt,
but I never wanted to hurt anyone,
especially not you.

You're the one that held me today.
You're the one that helped me with my tears.
You're the one who believed in me.
What happened in such a short time span?
I can't believe I'm missing you so much
and I hope I'll get over this
because I don't want to care anymore
not about anything.

I never meant to make your big green eyes shed tears,
your round face to be rubbed at, trying to hide tear streaks
I never meant for your hands to shake
or your throat to close when you see me
I never meant for your heart to break.

I don't have any other way to say this
and I know you still don't care
but I'm sorry to the ends of the earth
and I'll miss you for days to come
I love you,
and I am so, so, sorry.