the cold waves follow
in the wake of the warmth of the wind
and I, numb and wrestless
release
the warmth that once held me, gently
knowing that it never could be, for me
fearing that what I hold, will bury me
and the knowing
will bear my thoughts endlessly
beneath the sea.

i am the sweeping grey
i am the cool mercurial rays
i am the fleeting warmth
before your shiver
the endless shades of silver
i am the gently listing fingers
of the over burdened sky

i am the rumbling locus
of depth and density
the softly meandering incorporeality
i am the dissipating shade
and almost
silence.

it,
within me
sings
the door
the beckoning

i'm afraid
to look inside

i may just find
no thing alive

by consequence
by design

by my burdens
i'm defined

by my curses
i'm refined

my consequence
my design

look deep
       question
     and almost
         free
             that
secret eternity

illustrious soul
you are
a breathe of life
in my stillness

i long to hear my name
upon your lips
as a whisper
a seance
a summons

from soliloquy
my spirit

you are a beacon
in the darkness
shaping ghosts
into silhouettes

thus I am
inherently
apparently
and I fear
your nearness
for your radiance
by its nature
would banish me

your demons
it seems,
are your children,
your dreams.
(the meaning you see in things).
they have always been here.
needing you.
fearing you.
hearing you.

they are the yearning truth,
heed them and hold them and know them.
feed and compose and unfold them.
remember?
before the never they were golden

            a universe was inverted.
            they, were themselves, reborn.
            however, now, contorted

ever endless severings dwell in their untellings.
wanting for forgetting.
but beckoning an ending
for the shadows they are shedding

with your most tender thoughts,
touch them and love them and listen.
with your greatest truth listen.
with your compassion, affect them.
with your acceptance, perfect them.

never felt
so
alive
as when
i let
my body
lead
my mind

let the animals
lead
they
deserve to
no one can
do
what they do