I love sleep
Alice and Wonderland dances in my head
Drowsiness is my best friend
I took a journey with Aurora
It has my imagination creeping and crawling to me
Forgetting the pain and stress, while your eyes stay closed for hours
It is time to go under, my soul is tired
It is like being dead, but without commitment or try
My light bulb is at a dim murmur
There is no expressions, only tosses and turns at first, my journey just began
Under my covers, soothing myself with darkness from my eye lids
It is my favorite meditation
I am embracing myself for the next day to come
I am decorating my memories

We all were made with
A different set of                                  Mind

Cruelty ganged up on
My heart because
Of my notions

Screeching temptations
Haunted my existence
Horror shifting links                             is
What it appears as a privilege

Scrapping metal nails pound               my
Joys and push in flames
Strangled images are the                      hardest
Glass silvers that
Damage you forever

Pounding sensations of                         battle
Creeps inside any level
Of humanity left

I used to be scared of other people
But now I am terrified of myself

I used to hide my skin from other's eyes
But now I hide my mind, and dress how I want

I used to never speak out
But now I want to make friends laugh

I used to beg for happiness
But now half accept it, along with a complaint

I used to crave love from anyone
But now I look at the bigger picture- that no one cares

I used to need acceptance
But now I could care less, as long as I smiled today

I used to depend on others for help or guidance
But now I know I only have myself

I used to annoy others with my O-C-D
But now all I do is annoy myself

I like to take risks
Danger arises in my presence
Not thinking as I do the unthinkable
I disobey for being risky
I jump the fence and lose trust in people
I travel my mind and go where it takes me
I look through my eyes deeply and follow
Having courage to break the rules
Being adventurous in a different level
Taking a breath and being brace
Better than a mistake than an what if
Telling myself "Here goes nothing"
Being flexible with believing you can do it
It could end up being an achievement

Melt any time you have left of your day
So you have none for her

Peel away trust and gain excuses

Scramble your words to the wrong direction

Age her with powerful insults

Brush off her innocence

Pour your anger on her always

Toss your cares about her feelings away

Rise your friends over her

Reduce your attention towards her soul

Soak up too much self confidence

Breaking her heart in her recipe for disaster

When brought to you it brings you undue stress
unwelcome guest that turns the soul to red
It comes upon you in your mind's address
a barrier with chains that have been bled

Suffocation that starts a loudly tick
you wrap the condition around your life
you rustle the sheets, and no sleep- lungs kick
and throw away chances-- sharp as a knife

One will claw you, and another will pull
an endless battle-- only you alone
mind is scattered, try to keep a handful
words can not escape, I miss my own tone

At my own hands I sink and fall and drown
surrendering to the trench that keeps me down