Rental down payments-
Moving van-
Rental debt:
  N-
  L-
Debt to parents: 25,000
Mac-external hardrive
iPad -accessory  
iphone-
     Oloclip-Lense
     Selfie light -phone case
     Selfie stick
     Heavy duty case
Mattress/ Boxspring/ Frame
Cat stuff
Dresser
Lights (Plants/ Photography)
Sound proofing
Microphones
Headset-beats
Garageband
Mic ****
Photography camera
Lenses
Vlog camera
Sewing machine
Patterns
Cactus
Backdrops/green screen

Bring your own juice.
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How is someone supposed to put into
words that they feel/ have been made (self)-aware(somehow) there personality adapts (naturally)?
to the people they are around and even beginning
to mimic the interacting persons emotions and personality traits
to create a, sociable personality.
because depression has taken a dramatic toll on their personality and they know longer know how to
Be there own person:
I often forget about the things i actually enjoy doing
because I'm not surrounded by people that enjoy doing the same things.
I love to write
I love to read
I like to play the guitar
I like to create art
and
I love making people happy!
So what could possibly be wrong?
Why do I loose my sense of self when I'm with others?

It is not our own blood doing this
It is the way his head ***** to the side
And the temptation
Making you
Imagine a better way to make your life
Not so sorrowful
The glimpse of light starts
Flowers bloom around your eyes
And make way to your heart

I am done trying to satisfy you and it feels so good to get you off my back.
I tried to cary you for three years occasionally dropping you to see if you'd react but you were clinging on to me for dear life and while trying to save yourself you were drowning me along the way.
I used to believe that I was comfortable drowning and that it became apart of my human nature that we all ocassionally felt helpless and incapable of standing on our own two feet but the entire time it was you making me feel like I needed a life vest although I already knew how to swim.
Even when the time came to let you go for good to fend for yourself against the waves you still tried to save yourself and tried dragging me down further but I finally held my breath and untied the block you tied to my ankles. Im not gonna lie I did this to you too but I let you think you were free then got scared because you made me feel like I was sinking without you.
But I finally solved the puzzle to my happiness and it doesnt involve you.
thanks for wasting three years of my time.

I'm beginning to wonder if the sensation in my fingers will ever return.
maybe its like writers block.
perhaps only temporary...
but some people can have writers block for years, maybe even a lifetime.

Bilateral broken wrists.
What the **** does that mean?
Day 1:
I woke up in the hospital, my only concern was my precious forty dollar jeans.
"Aaliyah your back is broken."
Day 3:
Post surgery, heavily anesthetized
"Mom I want to be on American Idol."
*starts to sing in the recovery room"
Day 12:
I woke up and couldn't feel my right arm
Oh right they numbed my radial nerve!
It only lasts a few hours the said
Day 13:
My arm was still numb.

Lets, not fail to  mention that I also have my t12 removed and replace somewhere in the middle of all this.
I have several fractures in my lumbar.

Day 14:
I finally went home.

Four weeks later.
I cant feel my fingers.

Red, When I get so High that My eyes **** at producing water.
Orange, The fruit I am most picky about but can't eat at school cause this one girl might dye.
Yellow, What the **** sun. stop being so bright cause I'm literally trying to be a vampire and you're not helping besides the fact the you blind me.
Green, I dyed my eye brows green for no apparent reason Other than the one word know as Impulse.
Blue. Why can't grass be blue? I have allergies to grass So I will never truly be able to enjoy laying in grass with out feeling like I'm dying.
Purple, Used to be my favorite color in Middle school Not that I didn't change it every 5 seconds.
Can I go somewhere really far away and be alone all the time?
I really don't like socializing but I like to listen to really emo Indie music and do hipster grunge things.
Wow I cant seem to focus on one thought. Kay thanks for Reading my trash.
AG
11:43am

My thoughts have become more convoluted then they used to be.
Broken, tossed over, and raw is how you left me.
Open like a flesh wound, spilling with ideas.
Suddenly I've began to forget what I was doing on this site.
Now I can't seem to get my thoughts out in an organized manner.
You're convoluted and ****.
A mystery machine that can't sleep for more than 10 minutes
It's 11:24 in the morning and haven't slept for 24 hours
because thoughts of you keep grazing through my mind.
I wore your shirt today.
I cuddle your teddy bear last night.
am I losing it?
I think I've already managed to lose my mind.
My eye brows are green.
Not for any reason, and not that this information pertains to any real relevance but I have managed to not be able to process anything realistically due to the lack of sleep your caused me.
Trash.
My hair falls tangled over my shoulders.
Eyes sinking into my skull.
I look like I'm dead.
My mania is gone and I'm Drowning again.
This is **** and I'm sorry For wasting another link on this site with my ****** writing.
AG
11:31am