put me under your sleeping spell
confine my mind with melatonin
lock me in this insubstantial world of dreams
please
take me away with you
to a place where the sun comes crashing to the edge of the world
and the moon lifts to uncover a hazy blue mist that calms me
put me under your sleeping spell
no need for me to awaken
no need for a prince to take the somnolence from my lips
steady heart beat
weary eyes
god of dreams and queen on rest
take my hand and ****** me into dark unconsciousness
hold me there and let me dream
lying in a patch of soft dandelions
staring at the star filled sky
finally at peace
put me under your sleeping spell
keep me under your sleeping spell.

It's killing me I have to Wait
My hopes and dreams behind a gate, Angry frustrated hopeful, as I Wait for the outcome
Scared to death it will be another dead end, Feet don't fail me, keep walking please
Lungs please give me the strength to breath
Oxygen hold me as if you where arms and make sure I don't fall apart
I can make it, I can do it, Nothing's in my way,  I'm still trying to be okay.
I wanna run I wanna scream, Bury my head in your arms and dream.
Will we make it? Will we last? Thousands of times I think I've asked.
Take me far away from here, cover my eyes and read to me the story of the ones who outlasted love and created something no ones ever known We can be alone at last. Create a new path open your eyes and show me that freedom I've searched for. happiness is at the edge of your lips and my last breath. you'll be the death of me but the only life I've ever lived. you are my chaos and my piece.

My mind is a cage
holding everything I wish I could explain captive.
inside of a hell I created.

the past built your pride
pride is your fault now
walk around
head high
heart closed
eyes open

you've never been so fake
or maybe the right thing to say is real
i'm not sure anymore

before your eyes were the deepest
your heart was the most beautiful
and not just my heart
but my soul craved you

you controlled me
in the most beautiful
terrifying ways

i loved you tragically, yet truly
my soul bound to the words we shared
the tears i shed
the screams i muffled

my soul bound to you
my existences fueled through you
my heart yearned for you

who i thought you where became my universe
my world
my everything

now you remain just another soul
in the vessel of a man i once loved with the purest of loves
of a man who captured my soul
and then so violently
tore it apart.

Doubt
So easy to say.
So hard to get past.
I've always had a little bit of it reflected inwardly because I've never been able to attain the appearance I wanted. I've never been quite thin enough. My hair has never been quite long enough. My skin never quite clear enough. And because of this its caused me to doubt other areas. If I can't get in peak physical shape, what makes me think I can become financially independent?  Get a good job?  Start my own business? If I can't control something as simple as a complexion, hair follicle or calorie, how do I think I can take on the outside world?

It's the doubt that eats you.
It's the doubt that tucks you into your grave with the could haves because you cancelled yourself out.
You're problem is not in your thighs or uneven eyebrows. Your problem is you think they're your problem.

Stop taking yourself out.
You are worthy.
You are so. worth. loving.