Allyssa Knight

Allyssa Knight Jun 2016

Sincere.

Looking into the eyes of the man who hurt me I found what wasn't said.
You were content with your actions,
so I was content with my decision.
You put me in the back of the class, I put you front row in mine.
You abused your privileges of having me so now you're stripped from them.
Last night was a turning point, I realized that you choose what you feel. Your emotions do not conquer you, you conquer your emotions! And I choose my happiness over you, you've hurt me enough.

Allyssa Knight Jun 2016

Love cut short.

Lost in my own made up reality of us, I forgot that you're just a boy.
You don't deserve the honey from my comb.
The breakfast in bed.
The dinner followed by foreplay and passionate ***..
You don't deserve it.
I never thought out of a million people it would be you.
You were the moon that lit up my sea of naked flowing water,
dark
rushing
stop
slow
breath down my back, love me till I realized that you love me the same way I love you.
You lied to me and you kept lying.
I trusted you with my heart, mind, body and soul.
Isn't that enough?
You're so incompetent.
But as those waves settle and the storm dissipates,
The clouds move and you're revealed. Not your representative but your actual being.
Your intentions and true feelings are revealed.
I feel dead.
This was the end of the road for the love we shared, I still love you.
But, this tragedy has turned me cold and I'll never love the same way again.
I pray that the next man I meet won't resemble a boy and will be the man that I need.

Allyssa Knight Dec 2015

Old school

Love is like the 90's..
Filled with real connection.
I wish I was born in the 90's..
Back then love was impatient,
Love was
Adoring and meaningful,
Love was ..
real
I miss the feeling of genuine love
and to be g,
I don't even think I've actually experienced it.
But the music...
The music is what tells it all..
In this generation, everyone is afraid to love.
To us
To them
Love is indeed a title more than a feeling.
You don't fall in love suddenly in a day and you sure as hell don't fall out of it the next.
........................
Our definition of love is not a true one at all.
We just give "love" to receive "love" to feel
loved..
Yet we find our definition of real love in all of the wrong places.
Through ***, through smoking, drinking..
But in reality.. Thats not how we want to be loved.
That's not how we intended to be loved
To be
cherished
We're lost..
And we're going to make the next generation even more confused than we are.
We ****** up, I don't know how or when we did.. But we ****** up.
*Bad

Allyssa Knight Nov 2015

confirmation.

I've come to peace with the fact I can't have you.
You were my little case of love,
You inscribed your name in my walls.
An as I lay my head to rest,
I only think of you.
Holding me as you did that night making this jawn a emotional mess.
You were the storm while I was the silence before.
I was not heard.
You continued to be
young
wild
And
free
You will never be mine and I will never be yours.
Indefinitely you are blind.
Open your third eye and see me!
I can not see for you, realize that it is me who you are looking for!
Or maybe...
It is me who is blind.
Maybe I'm just as forgettable as the ordinary girl strolling by you on your worst day.
But even familiar faces appear in dreams.
You will never settle for this queen that awaits you to be her king.
So ******* really,
I should of never added you to my body count and allowed you into my heart and mind.

Nov 2015

sarrahvxlxr

You Are Not a Home for Someone Who Has No Place to Live

i. Someday you will be a language someone will care to learn. But will he understand? You will make him realize that words can be so beautiful they can fracture jaws. He will lay with you under the stars, and that’s the first moment he will know that he once was a star himself. You will look him in the eyes and you too will begin to realize that they really are unfathomable galaxies. But then you will begin to wonder, where is he? This is the crust of everything I am fond of, not the core of who he really is. You will feel betrayed.

ii. He didn’t know you trained yourself to not fear anything because you are the fear, as what a Batman movie has taught you when you were young.

iii. One day you will begin to taste like regret to him. On closed doors he will blame himself for being attracted to a firestorm. Why didn’t I step back? He will ask himself. When everybody’s watching, he will make it seem like he’s the one being invited to get burned.

iv. He will run away from your arms, but he will always look back confident that you are behind him. But you are not a hurricane, and you were not made to run after someone. You are somewhat the thunder that he mistook for a firestorm.

v. I do not think anyone deserves you.

Allyssa Knight Oct 2015

Truth is.

I'd rather soak in a hot bathtub surrounded by candles with blueberry tea
than to fall in love just to fall back out.
Truth is
I don't love to be loved, I love to fix
but all that results in is me losing bits of me.
Truth is
I'm selfish.
I want you to give me all of you but I don't want to give you any of me.
Truth is
I'm lost in a world that is nothing but hatred and envy. I don't know who I am and I don't know what I want.
Truth is
Every time I think I have it together..
I lose my grip on reality.
Truth is
The good never last to long once you get comfortable.
Truth is.
I'm just another lost person lost in my head of unclear thoughts.
But the bad thing is,
my thoughts are always active.

Oct 2015

Dougie Simps

"Monster"

I'm becoming a monster
I'm becoming a monster!

Clawed my way out the gutter
My rage is what allows me to conquer!

I'm becoming a monster.

I'm becoming a tyrant
RUN, RUN, RUN

old feelings and brains that are mindless
Love that grew old and moments that were timeless

I'M A MONSTER!

scripted in my own story to **** and defeat
destroy and watch the innocent decease.

I'm...I'm not a monster.

I am a victim

a victim to what every woman I have ever been with...
now perceives me as.

every friend that's ever judge me

every family member that's looked at me strange

deranged... yet, I was just misunderstood

or... am I a monster? I think not

(I transform)

Yet, the blood rushes through my veins
as I think of you in pain...
It's like a sudden high for me
to see your heart gasping for air and your mind trapped in chains
You're so vain. You're so weak!
my lips tingle and hands cringe when you speak.
You were an angel to me 8 months a go...now you're a demon who like the devil, reaps...what is it you seek?
INNOCENTS!
what is it you say... FINISH HIM.
Now you're scared...and you should be...

The tables have turned
I'm the monster now.
I will expose you!
it's your demising moment...I seek.

(transforms back)

I lost it...Control...Hope...Sanity...

Myself and now...

You.

but you were already lost

You were already gone.
My transformation was caused by you.

I'm not a monster...I'm a creation of your twisted dark fantasy,
of your poison.

**Because really...
The monster...
Is you.

Feel so good to be back and writing like the old me again. I hope ya can follow along and get the trickery in this piece. #Monster PLEASE SHARE THIS

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