I stay up all night
Again
Thinking nothing
But sad thoughts
I thought
Of
One thing
In particular
I don't want to repeat
I tried as hard
As I could
Not to cry
But I did
And I could not stop

My dearest,
Not even the strongest angel
could promise you
such hardest things.

I can't promise you
I would not cry
I can't promise you
I would stay strong
till the end
because
even the strongest brick
falls back as dusts
like the sand on your feet.

We've both been bad
We've both made mistakes;
mistakes that sometimes
we couldn't take back.

Though you know
the seemingly loud thunders
could break my walls
and trigger my little box
of fear,
You've been there for me
holding me tight
and told me to stay strong.

"because I love you"
I never seem
to remember the words
that come after.
but
it is never your fault.
*It never was