I have always dreamed to have a kingdom by the sea

Just like how Edgar Allan Poe described his Annabel Lee

But instead, I’m just the only who will live there

No kinsmen, no guard, no lover to pair.



I will bring an enormous clowder for company

Have a large stock of cat stuff, catfoods, and catnips, if there were any

I will make them my servants, my ever trusted ones

For I know their service is ever irrevocable, will never leave me behind.



My kingdom must be unknown by everyone

Nobody will tracked me down, nor visit for a homage

For when I died, I will never make a fuss

I will let my cats grieve, and devour me at rise.

Nawa'y sa paglaho ng unos na namamagitan sa ating mundo
Sana naman iyong mapagtanto
Nasa bawat sandali nang iyong pakikipagbuno
Sa tabi mo'y hindi ako lumisan, nanatiling gabay sa'yo.

Sa aking pinakaunang alaala ako’y

                 nalulunod

                        sumasabay sa pwersa ng agos

       tumatama sa mga hitang walang nakakaramdam sa pangyayari sa ilalim

     tanging nakikita ko lamang ay ang bughaw na katubigan

             at mga bulang pilit kumakawala sa aking bibig.

Tanggap ko na naman

       kung yaon na lamang ang itatagal ng aking munting buhay

                     handa na ako sa aking kasasapitan,

                 nang may mga malaking kamay na inahon akong walang hirap

             patungo sa liwanag na inakalang hindi ko na ulit masisilayan.



Labing siyam na taon na ang lumipas

       biglang tumimo sa utak ang pangyayaring nagpalapit sa kamatayan

                  paano na lang

                           kung yaon ba’y natuloy

                       mababago ba ang buhay nang mga taong

                             nakasalamuha ng mga sumunod na mga panahon?

               Sapagkat isa lamang akong basura

                   na parang muling binalik

                     nang mawaring may pag-asa pa

                        upang muling gamitin

                               at muling maging patapon

                    sa mga matang mapanlait

                              dito sa mapanlinlang

                                   na mundong

                                   patuloy

                                   na umiikot

                                         para

                                                  ipamukha





                                                                       sa akin





                                                               na isa akong







                                                      pinaka





                                          walang







                   kwentang







                                                tao.

I don't know how many times I've told you that I'm fine with it. And I think part of the reason I've reassured you so much is because I'm also reassuring myself. Thing is, I'm lying through my teeth. And, God, it hurts. I am so tired of feeling like I'm second best. I'm tired of broken promises and I'm tired of never coming first. I'm tired of salty streaks running down my cheeks and I'm tired of being so ******* confused. I'm not fine with it. I'm not fine with it. I'm not fine.

When I hear the raindrops falling,
When the birds chirp and sing,
When sunlight streaks through daylight,
All I think of is one thing…

When a song plays on the radio,
My mind begins to tell a tale
Flashbacks come strolling,
The Voyager starts to sail.

It was a fairytale brought to life
And you were my angel in disguise
You made a warm glow inside of me
And cleared my heart from past lies

You splashed color on the canvas
And spread glitter in my eyes
We had planned the future together
But why did we have to bid goodbyes?

You always say I Love You
But now you refuse to care
What had happened to all the promises?
And the crazy love we share?

It had been going so well
‘Till you decided that it’s over
Was I the reason why you changed?
And had to find another lover?

All the memories that we had,
And the feelings still remain
Why had things been so different now?
When could I escape this sadness and pain?

How I miss the golden days,
When all our laughs and smiles were true
When I was still me,
And you were still you.