-JCM-: Poems

Nov 2020 · 81

Keep

-JCM- Nov 2020

Keep

Cleanse me of obsessions
Tear off my limbs
I’m falling off
From holding on

-JCM-

Apr 2020 · 93

Warm

-JCM- Apr 2020

Warm

I'm cold as ice
But soft as snow
In her warm glow
I melt away

-JCM-

Sep 2019 · 235

Top 40

-JCM- Sep 2019

Top 40

I hold on
A little too strong
Like a ****** pop song
You're in my head for too long

-JCM-

May 2019 · 1.2k

Thirst

-JCM- May 2019

Thirst

First kiss
New bliss
I never knew thirst
Till we disengaged
Till we reconnect
My lips are the Mojave in summer

-JCM-

Apr 2019 · 365

Jail

-JCM- Apr 2019

Jail

If I say your name enough times
Will you finally expel from my mind
If I stay silent like a mime
Can my head keep quiet of you
If I go blind
Can I stop picturing you
When I close my eyes
My brain is jailed
It’s the biggest crime
I’m your prisoner

-JCM-

Apr 2019 · 217

Sent

-JCM- Apr 2019

Sent

I delete every message sent
Won’t let a built up thread
Fill me with dread
When left on read

-JCM-

Apr 2019 · 297

Exagerado (This is not a game)

-JCM- Apr 2019

Exagerado (This is not a game)

Me llamas el exagerado
Se lo que siento
No es un juego
Mi muñeca

-JCM-

You say I exaggerate
I know what I feel
Its not a game
My doll

Apr 2019 · 720

Me

-JCM- Apr 2019

Me

My voice is soft and timid
My words are strong and bold
I dress in bright colors
Emit a glow
Never see how dark my mind goes
The sweeter I am
The more pain I'm in

-JCM-

Apr 2019 · 329

If only

-JCM- Apr 2019

If only

I think I'm invisible
I look in the mirror
I'm still there
If only I could be you
Then I could forget I exist too

-JCM-

Apr 2019 · 293

Internal pain

-JCM- Apr 2019

Internal pain

Can I fall without breaking
Got scars that are hidden
Fighting a war that can’t be seen
To speak it is forbidden
Will I ever win
Stop the pain within

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Mar 2019 · 227

La Razón

-JCM- Mar 2019

La Razón

La rosa mas hermosa
Creciendo en el jardín de mi corazón
Con tu sonrisa
Disminuyes toda razón
Toda la razón de mi sufrimiento

-JCM-

The reason
The most beautiful rose
Growing in the garden of my heart
With your smile
You diminish all reason
All reason for my suffering

Mar 2019 · 178

Magician

-JCM- Mar 2019

Magician

Do that trick again
Locked into your stare
Make me disappear
Vanishing act
Who summoned who
Were we ever real

-JCM-

Mar 2019 · 120

Tired

-JCM- Mar 2019

Tired

I’m tired
Tired of feeling
Tired of lying
Endless I’m okays
Everything’s fine
Wishing
Hoping
Hating
Loving
Tired of it all
Erase me
Im tired

-JCM-

Mar 2019 · 558

Superbloom

-JCM- Mar 2019

Superbloom

Been crying for too long
A heart covered in soil
My fondness grows
I bloom for you

-JCM-

Mar 2019 · 254

The One

-JCM- Mar 2019

The One

I wanna be the one
The one that breaks through
With walls so high
Bulldozed love
I’ll knock em down
Break through to you
Build you up
Make you feel new
Never feel blue
If you let me get through to you
The one

-JCM-

Mar 2019 · 125

¿I am who?

-JCM- Mar 2019

¿I am who?

Everyone knows how I feel
Except me
I speak words but they aren't mine
Slipping through deaf ears
Waving at blind eyes
Whose real
I don't know

-JCM-

Feb 2019 · 173

Anxiety

-JCM- Feb 2019

Anxiety

Living in memories of moments
That never happened
A slave to the past
That can’t be changed
A prisoner to a future
That hasn’t been written
Can I feel the gift of presence
I’m losing
Giving it away

-JCM-

Feb 2019 · 187

Enough

-JCM- Feb 2019

Enough

You weigh heavy on my mind
Keeps my head anchored to my pillow
I'm able to sleep enough
The hope of a tomorrow with you
Is enough to keep me getting out of bed

-JCM-

Feb 2019 · 279

Cloud

-JCM- Feb 2019

Cloud

I'm a rolling cloud in the sky
The words I rain
Are to help you grow
My perfect storm
I'd weather it all with you

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 484

Premonition

-JCM- Jan 2019

Premonition

Relieving peace
Triggers memories of discord
Dreamlike wave
Stirred on by pain
Feeling hollow
An agony that swallows
Waking up in a new day
Will the hurt always be this way
Can I live without feeling guilt
Of a premonition that spilled

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 337

Again

-JCM- Jan 2019

Again

I'll give up again
Hoping against hope
I've reached the end of the rope
I'll hang around for a while
Thinking of a smile
Till I reconcile
I'll pull myself up
Till I give up again

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 371

Echo

-JCM- Jan 2019

Echo

In dark rooms
My figure emits
Familiar shapes
Erie shadows
Sound of my voice
Carries a known tone
Haunting notes
A glance in the mirror
Freezes my stare
A reflection of me
An echo of you

-JCM-

When you lose a parent they never really die. We are an echo of them.

Jan 2019 · 361

Dry

-JCM- Jan 2019

Dry

June gloom
Summer night
Warm breeze
Dry kiss
Busted lip
Sweet pain
Lust pours
Cleanses like rain
Relieved suffering
Flows down the drain
You are my rain cloud
Drenched over me
I’m drowned in you

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 280

Every time is like the first time

-JCM- Jan 2019

Every time is like the first time

Your silhouette
Casts a shadow I feel comfort in
I've memorized every line
Know every curve
Every time I see you
Its like the first time
I never get enough

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 249

Fear of missing out

-JCM- Jan 2019

Fear of missing out

Undiscovered bliss
Softly knocking on the door
So easy to miss
The handle isn't locked
You won't open
Won't let it in
For fear of missing out
On a dream that isn't real
Contriving illusions
Living in disillusions

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 398

Meditation (to my conscious)

-JCM- Jan 2019

Meditation (to my conscious)

I am the tunnel
You are the light
Don’t lead with spite
Guide me through tonight
We'll make it in time

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 234

Dreaming in pastel

-JCM- Jan 2019

Dreaming in pastel

You bloomed through a dream last night
A pastel flower in a muted garden
I seek you often
But you hide
I'd rather die
Than know
Together we will never grow

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 205

Damnation

-JCM- Jan 2019

Damnation

Falling for you
Was my fall from grace
Don’t want salvation
She devil
Smallest glimpse of skin
Tempting me to sin
On my knees
Give in to my pleas
I won’t repent
I’ll wear you like a halo around my head
Be my damnation

-JCM-

Jan 2019 · 268

Just because

-JCM- Jan 2019

Just because

You say it so easily
It scares me
Takes two to tango
I'm too shy to dance
If I say it
It will cease to be
Just because I don't say it
Doesn't mean I don't feel it

-JCM-

I love you too.

Jan 2019 · 476

Beads of wax

-JCM- Jan 2019

Beads of wax

I felt like the brightest light
Burning everything within sight
Touch and go
My glow is my might
Now I'm fading
Dripping slow
I'm beads of warm wax
Turning cold and hard
I am a candle
Blown out too soon
Do wishes ever come true?

-JCM-

I woke up and went to the gym at 4 this morning, I enjoyed my morning coffee after that. I felt nice but I'm coming down from it now.

Dec 2018 · 541

Victoria

-JCM- Dec 2018

Victoria

Sea of oranges
I travel you in the dark
The light reveals too much
Drove through the groves
Somewhere darker than my mind
I’ve gone too far
I lose myself to you
Victoria Avenue

-JCM-

Victoria is a long road sourounded by orange groves that I love to drive though at night.

Dec 2018 · 1.3k

Lunch break

-JCM- Dec 2018

Lunch break

1 hour a day
5 days a week
It's all I had
It's all I needed
It's all it took
For me to fall in love
(with you)

-JCM-

Falling for a coworker? It happens. When they quit and left they took part of me with them and took the reason I looked forward coming into work.

Dec 2018 · 237

My father's sun

-JCM- Dec 2018

My father's sun

The older I grow
The more I learn
The more I know
The more I understand
Drowning for a feeling
Crushes me more
Than it did before

-JCM-

My father had a heart attack due to complications of alcoholism when I was 18. I had to perform CPR on him on our living room floor. I failed. This is why the thought of drinking never appeals to me. I hope you can understand why I say "no thanks" when offered a drink.

Dec 2018 · 192

Insomnia

-JCM- Dec 2018

Insomnia

You are a dream
I don’t sleep enough
Sandman don’t know my home

-JCM-

Dec 2018 · 505

Ribbons

-JCM- Dec 2018

Ribbons

I loved you
It didn’t even transpire
Tantalizing desire
Wrapped up
Warped in
Couldn’t tell
Couldn’t read
What was written all over me
Couldn’t dare
I was fastened into you
Like the ribbons in your hair

-JCM-

Dec 2018 · 227

Sometimes

-JCM- Dec 2018

Sometimes

Sometimes I wish everyone I miss were dead
It's peace of mind
When they are resting in peace
Instead they live on
Somewhere else
Not looking back
I am an expired lease
I hate them
I miss them

-JCM-

Dec 2018 · 277

You are a song stuck in my head

-JCM- Dec 2018

You are a song stuck in my head

My affection is a song
You are the melody
Harmonize with me
Don’t play deaf
I see your feet tapping to the tune
You are the reason I croon

-JCM-

Dec 2018 · 203

11:11

-JCM- Dec 2018

11:11

Looking at the night sky
When shooting stars
Glare in my eyes
I don’t want to wish anymore
When an 11:11 appears on the clock
Let it be another meaningless moment
That passes me by

-JCM-

Nov 2018 · 194

Concussed

-JCM- Nov 2018

Concussed

Technicolor sphere
Take me far from here
Concussed
Dazed
You're my latest craze
Losing track of days
I'm floating
Between worlds
Touch and I will burst
My minds become a hearse
Lay all my thoughts to rest

-JCM-

Nov 2018 · 401

Wonder

-JCM- Nov 2018

Wonder

I wonder
If you wonder about me
It could never be
No point to this misery

-JCM-

Nov 2018 · 621

Balboa

-JCM- Nov 2018

Balboa

Salted air
Blowing through chestnut hair
Sitting near on the pier
Glowing honey eyes
Reflecting the sun
Goosebumps on pale thighs
Inside of me silent cries
The need to keep you warm
The coldness drew in
You froze me out
A shadow of me remains on balboa

-JCM-

Nov 2018 · 284

Honey

-JCM- Nov 2018

Honey

Her voice calling me honey
Stings harder than a million bees
Saying I'm sweet
There's no better treat
"You're so ******* cute"
Hits my heart like a ******* nuke
She only exists in a land too far
My hopes only lie on a shooting star

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Oct 2018 · 852

*Admiring you in spanish*

-JCM- Oct 2018

*Admiring you in spanish*

Estrella brillante
Bailando en el espacio
De mi mente vacío
Ojitos lindos
Galaxias oscuros
Me llevan a otro mundo
De que solo puedo soñar
Al conocerte aprenderé
Que no tengo que morir
Para conocer cielo

-JCM-

Bright little star
Dancing into the space
Of my empty mind
Pretty eyes
Dark galaxies
Take me to another world
I could only dream of
To meet you
I’d learn
I don’t have to die
To know heaven

Oct 2018 · 784

Fall(ing 4 u)

-JCM- Oct 2018

Fall(ing 4 u)

Its always autumn in my head
Wrapped in sweaters and cardigans
Comforting threads
To when my heartaches again
Harvesting wishes in my brain
I fall so easily

-JCM-

Oct 2018 · 395

"No one will come from me"

-JCM- Oct 2018

"No one will come from me"

If I ever have children, I hope they never have an affinity for Morrissey.

Aug 2018 · 3.9k

Tangled up

-JCM- Aug 2018

Tangled up

Red Lips
Soft and delicate
Like the petals of a rose
Kisses sweeter than honey
Let me bee in your garden
Help you grow
Explore your meadows
Getting lost
I want to be tangled
In your vines
Giving caution
To your thorns
But I have some too

-JCM-

#love #crush #admire #desire #lust

Aug 2018 · 217

Fan fiction

-JCM- Aug 2018

Fan fiction

Won't audition
I'm my own star
When the credits fade
At the end of the reel
I'm still real
I'm not your silver screen
Stop projecting

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