Slip like a 
Fish through my grasp
And I will
Tear out my hair 
Strand by paper thin
Lock 
Until I am left eating 
Raw magnetic tape 
And finding new awe 
In the constellations 
Beneath the firepit
I will 
Button my jacket 
While tasting the cool, bitter
Smoke of memories
Whanging out of my head 
As I do my best to
Keep from tearing a hole in my cabin
And fleeing out into the 
Bitter crisp night.
Know that
It is not for myself
That I commiserate.
You and I,
We were lost at sea too long past
Before the ashen cement had dried.
The prolonged lingering of the heart
You’ve already forgotten.
-2019