Tis sad
To know or not the whys

What difference does it make
Looking back at all the unnecessities

To see and feel so clearly

And just cry

For a true moment awake

You believe so much it all matters
You can change the future with all your nows
Incrementally believing into every one

Whatever such is but a heart hard matter
One where yes you do battle

You do it right on
You do it in the face of obstinate ruses

Of any and every justification
of the little hells we normalize
and try to stay straight with our cultish

Philosophies
Cultural comforts
Reverenant misguidances

Why call this life
When, when clearly

One can see our daily deathly ploys

How fun twas musical chairs
Little children run in dancing circles
Till each is beset with the planned failures

For one and one only*

Shall be on top

While the other
Shall be

The bottom

Tis not so much the Wild Kingdom
*Tis the Wilds of Civilized Being

the most humble thing you can do
is strip somebody down to the
pureness they truly are.

forget the shape of the nose
forget the colour of the eyes
forget the curve of her waist
forget the tattoo on his arm
forget the unnecessities

only this way you will
come to love them whole,
genuinely and exactly as they exist.

I can't get you out of my mind...
And yet I've already left yours...
I just want to be someone a good and mutual love could find
But i always get dropped like your unwanted chores...

Can't you see my smile, behind all of my bleeding
No wonder you find it wild, that it's tears that I am seeping
I've cause my own destruction, though I knew feelings were fatal

and now i'm here dying slowly
in a world so ******* hateful

I didn't ask to like you, no
I wanted to forget you, but instead, now i know

all these little unnecessities that I don't need to, so


here i am dying...alive...heart becoming hollow

Slowly withering, like a plant, gone by the tiniest winds blow