my hair is falling out more--
i don't quite understand why. 
could it be the food I've been eating--
or lack thereof. 
am i pulling too hard on my ponytails--
or yanking too tightly while twisting my braids. 
can it be the stress of my final days of school--
or all the assignments still marked in red. 
possibly the ache in my heart for him--
or the rage simmering in my chest. 
maybe it's simply symptoms of ***
or just my mind pressing buttons at random. 
would it be because of my anxiety flowing over--
or the jitters from my morning cup of coffee. 
funny if I've been tearing at my scalp in my sleep--
or clawing the demons from my dreams.