I want a book to fall into.
I want to be a part of someone else's torment
A head congested with negativity and a distracting certainty of that which I cannot know for sure
Is in itself a truth
I want to tumble into pages
Fall between the words and hang on to a question by the tip of Q's tail
Conquer U, E, S, T, I, like monkey bars
And slide myself through "O" down the rabbit hole
Taking me far away to a land unlike this one
Where a distressed and questioning mind are put at ease
Where rabbits have pocket watches, cats grin, teacakes make you taller and smaller
And boys still want you
Forget the "N" because that would mean we've reached the end of an unanswerable question
One I'm tired of asking.
I wrote this poem when I was going through a really rough time in my life (with a guy, of course). I was anxious and feeling claustrophobic in my own skin. I wanted to do anything to escape what I was feeling and I just remember wanting so desperately to be a part of someone else’s story so that I would stop plaguing myself with these paralyzing questions that I didn’t have the capacity to answer.
