"realiezed" poems
*Lately the pain is driving me a little crazy
but lately I am getting through it faster
Lately the pain is driving me a little crazy
Lately I feel as if you will soon move on
And
Life will soon move on
and I will always think of you
but as time goes by I know you will stop being on my mind constantly
even tho all I want is you
for you to be right by myside
because with you I feel the best
the happiest
Im in love with you
I cant help that ****
I feel for you
but im losing it for you
cause baby as time goes by
Im not feeling like I used to about chu
I still want you I really do
but as time goes on I realized that you aint right for me
you never ****** treated me like you shouldve
you never loved me like you shouldve
been there like you shouldve
but baby lately
im losing those feelings for you
and lately im not thinking so much about chu
lately Ive been getting that money like im supposed to
and lately im alot happier with myself
like i shouldve been along while ago
and lately I realiezed
I can make money without chu
I can be better without chu
I can grind without chu
I can be alot happier wihtout chu
I dont even need you
I dont know what I was thinking
some reason I had it in my head that I needed you
but baby lately
I been feeling like **** you. *
Dec 2, 2016
Dec 2, 2016 at 1:19 PM UTC
They say
"When you grow up, your heart dies."
My heart?
My heart has been dying for a decade.
(Somehow it's still beating)
It wasn't until I found myself
In some strange men's beds,
On the bathroom floor,
So deperate to feel alive,
To feel anything at all,
That I realiezed
I've already grown up.
I've been dead inside for years.
She stole my innocence when I was merely 4 years old.
Along with the bottles my "unconditionnal love" for him was gone too.
All these drugs,
I swore I'd never do.
These cigarettes,
Have broken the last of my rules.
The razors I used to not know what were for
(Let alone, understand how someone could get pushed so far.)
Have all made their marks on me
Literally
I look in the mirror and I hardly recognize the reflection,
And I see all my lonely nights painted upon my skin.
I've been told you can taste my heavy heart on my lips.
Smell the smoke.
Touch the scars.
I've grown into the person I swore I'd never become.
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 7, 2014 at 11:46 PM UTC