I like to think that I'm a mixture of a sunflower, a lioness, and a tortoise.
why?
simply because a sunflower is
exuberant,
vibrant in color,
flows softly and carelessly with the wind,
plain and simple,
Intriguing to say the lease.

why a lioness?
because she is Queen of the Sahara desert.
she is loyal,
she is independent and does not fully need to depend on a male,
though when given the right one, she'll go through many lengths to accommodate him.
she is also full in color,  plastered with battle scars to prove that she is of worth
and can handle the meat thrown at her
with nothing but scavengers surrounding her,
tempting her.

why a tortoise?
because they are slow and steady,
live on land with feet as claws, being able to dig into troubles and come out more wise than before.
Also they can retrieve back into their cave for as long and as endless as they want,
solitude is acceptable and perfered.

one is noticeable yet, easily breakable and disposable.
one is lazy, yet keen
one is small, yet can take on the world for three hundred and thirty years.

I'll be forever, and memorable, and radiant.

I heard our song on the radio today
as usual it took my breath away
I thought of us kissing and holding hands
as we drove in your car listening to our favorite band.
I started thinking of all the times I cried in your arms
and you made me feel so complete
I think of the times we laid in bed for hours
as we played with each other's feet.
I thought of the summer when we ran to the beach
watching the waves go up with each step we took
I thought of the nights we would spend under the stars
going over the memories in which we made.
I remembered all the kisses we exchanged
and how they always put a smile on my face
I remembered all the times you held me in your arms
because your arms were my favorite place.
I went back in time to remember the stormy night
when the electricity in our city was out
our house was pitch black so we made love like crazy
without having any doubts.
I thought about the day you first told me you loved me
you had my heart beating like crazy
I thought of the summer you went away for awhile
and how I missed you so badly.

Although these memories I was remembering were great ones
they can't make the bad ones we had disappear
the day I lost you forever
was the day you ever caused me to shed a tear.
I began to remember that cop on my door step
telling me you were in an accident
I freaked out in denial
I didn't want to believe that.
They said you were seriously injured
and that you might not make it to midnight
so I grabbed the keys and drove to the hospital
all the while praying you would be alright.
I can still feel the last breath you took the last time I kissed your lips
I can feel the warmth of your hand disappear
as I thought of all the great things you would miss.
I felt your soul leave your body
as I held you in my arms
you went away so peacefully
and that realization is probably what kept me calm.
Going home to the place we once shared
was the most uncomfortable thing I had to do
I asked God "What happens now?"
how did he expect me to live life without you.
With strength and hope I let you go
and at your funeral I thanked you for your love
I looked at the stars the night you died
and I could have sworn I saw your heart from heaven above.

As our song on the radio ends
I feel tears pour out of my hazel eyes
I relive the pain I felt when I lost you
I hate remembering the day you died
I am just so thankful I could be there with you
I perfered you died in my arms instead of alone in a bed
it ***** that you left so suddenly
it's an image I can't get out of my head.
Everyday I hurt a little less
but that doesn't mean I forgot all we have been through
you will always be the love of my life
not a night goes by where I don't where I don't ask God to tell you
how much I truly love you.