I am paperwhite,
                a delicate bird,
                                  thrashing and ensnared.
Paperwhite,
             and bones of feathers;
                                  light and airy.

I fly,
         fly away in the ceaseless night sky.
Snowflakes stick to my face,
                                  my eyelids,
                                               my garments;
That are knit together too big on my frame, draping over
My winged shoulders and shielding me,
like a wall
Protecting a delicate feather from windy skies.
Running, fleeing.
                             Gasping, dying.
Blood starts flowing,
                                and rushes down my forehead,
Thin, the kind of flow that won’t stop.
It flows over my eyes,
                                       down my chiseled face
And pools in my collarbones creating a lake.
I look into the distance;
                                         staring back at me are ashen eyes.
I am homesick for somewhere I’ve never been.
Longing, longing,
                               flying, running.
Running home,
                                              running far.
Reaching with open arms,
                                        Reaching closer.
Reaching out,  
                          breaking the cage keeping me.
A mucky ocean of dirt and sediment,
Clears into an open water,
                                      a clear oasis,
                                                          a path.
Folded like paper, flying like a bird.

woke up next to you, feeling like a ice pop
kissed your vermilion border, gave you my half of the sheets
you whispered in my ear, "no, i want you to be warm"
grabbed your jacket and placed it on my frame
youre so sweet like 2 stevia packets emptied onto a tongue
lemons and oranges couldnt be squeezed as good as your huggies
that one night, in my room, under the blacklight
my jokes were corny but i saw that paperwhite smile glow
along with your hippie acid tripping mushroom posters
remember when we ate out those few times
it made me happy when you enjoyed your food
i liked it when you enjoyed anything
those sparkling eyes your face carried always sunk me in deep
like an anchor approaching the ocean floor on top of hills that are really steep
when you were inside of me, yeah yeah at first it hurt
then it progressed like my grades in junior high
but id like to not see you go now
double negative,i cant not see you anymore
it felt right, you felt left, so you left
just like the leaves depart from december 21st branches
you should be back soon and i'll wait
when you return, could we remake a copy of our last copulation?
in the backseat of your car or mine if i eventually get one
in your bed or even my own
behind the open house party next to that tree
me on top or you on top of me
link your pinky to my pinky and promise that youll stay
just a little longer so we can grow for a bit
so we can be cacoons and become butterflies together
you can be high all the time, in the sky i prefer

woke up next to you, feeling like a ice pop
softly bit your vermilion border, gave you my half of the sheets
you whispered in my ear, "no, i want you to be warm"
grabbed your linen coat and placed it on my medium frame
youre so sweet like 2 stevia packets emptied onto a naked tongue
lemons and oranges couldnt be squeezed as good as your hugs
that one night, in my room, under the blacklight
my jokes were corny but i saw that paperwhite smile glow
along with your hippie acid tripping mushroom posters
remember when we ate out those few times
it made me happy when you enjoyed your food
i liked it when you enjoyed anything
those sparkling eyes your face carried always sunk me in deep
like an anchor approaching the ocean floor on top of hills that are really steep
when you were inside of me, yeah yeah at first it hurt
then it progressed like my grades in junior high
but id like to not see you go now
double negative,i cant not see you anymore
it felt right, you felt left, so you left
just like the leaves depart from december 21st branches
you should be back soon and i'll wait
when you return, could we remake a copy of our last copulation?
in the backseat of your car or mine if i eventually get one
in your bed or even my own
behind the open house party next to that tree
me on top or you on top of me
link your pinky to my pinky and promise that youll stay
just a little longer so we can grow for a bit
so we can be cacoons and become butterflies together
you can be high all the time, in the sky i prefer

The moon is shinning tonight…
“enlighten me”
midnight cries and untold secrets.

Seems that where ever I go… it finds its way back to me
I find myself surround by many people yet i feel as though I’m nonexistent.
every voice is silent
I can see the joy in their eyes…no worries, no pain, they are living
it remains in my deepest thoughts
the ones that awake me every night
the thoughts that torment my mind
this throbbing pain that won’t allow me to function
feels like my head is shrinking along with my thoughts
taking control over my mind
I’m losing it.

The moon is shinning tonight…
“bring light”
diminish dreams and deepest desires.

So the next time your eyes gaze at my direction, look to the moon in my beautiful dark brown eyes
watch closely as the dark clouds suffocate the sunlight
the shattered glass falling from the sky
its raining empty promises, dreams, and hopes.
observe as I swallow the sweet…rich…exquisite taste of heavenly red wine
filling in the empty spaces that were once home
drowning in lips of secrets
I can feel such divine affliction running down my throat
the burning sensation that stimulates the fire escaping my own flesh
as my body is draped in truth that i seek to hide
in this alluring naked skin that will infatuate you and levitate every ounce and inch of your body
and bring an intense high that will change the unknown parts of you that never been touched.
Allow the silhouette of my wildflower captivate your mind and dearing soul
Let my universe and my bearing passion touch the tip of your fingers and show you my care free and spirited soul that means no harm
for at the end of the tunnel there is light, greater love that remains behind lock doors only to be revealed for those who worship such poise and devotedness.

The moon is shinning tonight…
“how lovely it is to let go”
Orchids and paperwhite bulbs.

Rare beauty.
That hides within itself.
Delicate and stunning.
They breed from the same stem that brings strength and resilience.
Luxuriant petals that remain still & angelic.
Together they become one flower of life.

The moon is shining tonight ...
"drown in my sea of divine serenity"
Fear and Trust.

Remain underneath the waves that attempt to pull my peace into a dark place.
Don't reach out to my divine soul, for I can bring light.
Keep still , let yourself sink in waves of chaos.
For your soul is no match to my aura
For my essence is unimaginably breath taking ...
It be a **** for you to taste it and take it.

The moon is shinning tonight …
“a goddess amongst everyone else”
Bless the heart that can only love twice, may you not fall into the wrong hands.