It fills me with apathy.
for a love that cannot be.
A reality we must force ourselves to see.
And a choice we must make to live happily.

Despite this strife that plagues our life.
Its time to sit down and lose this fight.
Cause we’re out of ways to make that plight.
I will forever feel that love when I look onto your eyes but must know that its not right.

So this is what I will do,
pick up the pieces of my heart that were broken and smashed a million times by you.
Let the pieces take their time to fall into place,
so once again I have a base,
from which to stand from which to dive,
so I can feel alive and re learn to thrive.
I don’t wanna know what it feels like that final time you go.
Casue I imagine it being the lowest of low.
I guess that’s why im still holding on,
to that little part of you that makes me feel strong.
And gives me some reason to carry on,
for the hope that we might one day be together.
In a realm beyond forever,
I cant settle right now for ‘never’ and yet the latter is too far away,
it scares me to know the opposite has to be the way
I will be creating my experience in this day to day,
meanial existence.

We always know the right from wrong, though mind and heart sing separate songs.
Im deciding to cut the pain and conflict, walking away from my soft hearts district.
For its there in my mind, thats where I'l predict,
the future of my own destiny's beat.
People come and affect you, and in effect, infect you.
With their sorrows and joys, their hopes and their ploys;
and plots and their feelings.
Id rather avoid their meanial dealings.
Everyone is worth it, Im not dissing the public;
But in life if you want it, you gotta know whose worth it.
One mans food is anothers poison,
It works the same with regards to a person.
You can hate 'em or love 'em, but in some way you become them.
They can better you or break you, complete you or worsen,
the **** that you got going on already.
Theres only a few that will keep your head steady.
Those ones, i will keep and distractions must go.
Even the good kind coz those are the ones that i know,
will lift you up, get you psyched up and hyped up on life;
till the time comes. . . when you fall from that height.
Live, show love but never feel it ,too long.
Think, show wisdom but never teach it ,too long
Laugh, show happiness but never believe it, too long.
Cry, but show Nothing, dont bereave it too long.
The sun will shine and still, time will go on;
and no one but you will feel the feelings gone.
So you sulk and infect all those that surround you,
and you hunch and neglect You, your emotions will drown you.
When you reflect, what you'll find is a shell of what used to be.
So rip out those heart strings and be like me, Care Free.