I should have taken all the warnings,
I should have foreseen this mourning,
I thought i could have trusted you,
But now I'm lusting for you.
Your just causing me to be blue.
I thought you were different from the rest,
I thought you had shown some interest.
I guess i was wrong and now your gone.
I don't know what i had done,
I don't understand this green monster I've become.
I don't want to live life like this,
I would just like to be bliss.
Be genuinely happy for once,
Instead I'm making myself the dunce.
Complaining over what never was,
Thinking that i am always the cause.
Wandering if it was me, i wish i could see,
Could see the monster I've turned into.
I wish you could see what I've been through,
All the mountains and valleys I've overcome.
If only you had added it up, taken the sum,
Looked deep into the real me,
Saw what i was trying to do, what i want to be.
I wanted one meager chance,
You had me hypnotized, in a trance,
You had me from our first glance.
The way i had made you smile,
The way you had seen past my vile,
The way i could make you laugh,
But now all i see now is a wrath.
Anger engulfing every square inch,
I feel as though I'm in a pinch.
Time is not on my side for long,
I only wish i could stay strong,
These feeling are probably false,
They are probably all in my mind, a lost clause,
A darkness inside of me grows,
It is filled with my sorrow and woes.
If only the light would shine through,
If only i could stop being blue,
I want my angel to shine bright,
I dont want the darkness in flight.
All i ask is to find some blissness,
To complete the pursuit of happiness.
Is that really so much to ask,
All i want if to complete my endless task
