"actaully" poems
I remember I was scared to death
the first time I had a girl alone with me
I remember thinking
do I just pull it out and present it
Or do I wait for her to ask to see it
or do I just sit here and talk untill she says "are we gonna do this"
Or do I go "are we gonna do this"
instead we watched like 2 hours of random tv, talked, I showed my Tattoos
she Showed me ones that she will be getting someday on her body.
And then it Happened the sign
The flip of the hair
The little Flutter of the eyes
I knew I had to make my move
So I said "I've been looking at you since I first saw you and wondered what'd be like to kiss you"
she says "well are you gonna keep wondering or do it"
We begin to make out in the back of my head im praying she doesnt start using tounge
because im horrible at french kissing. Luckily it didn't happen
As I begin to rub her back I unsnap her braw with one hand
which I never did before that.
The shirt came off smoothly and I looked at a set of amazing little perky *******
I tasted her flesh surrounding this tender area
and took my shirt off
revealing my skrany tatted up body.
She began to push down on me and soon as was on my back and she was Hovered over me.
I remember thinking to myself THIS IS AWESOME.
just as she thought she was in controll I flipped her over brushed my hands down her hips.
AND IT HAPPENED the moment you know your getting laid (my brother told me this before)
The slight arch of her back just enough for me to remove her pants in a swift motion.
The rest is history
or should I say Herstory.
I remember the next day going to school
and later on seeing her at parties
and eventually I never seen her again
somehow or another she just vanished
to this day I dont Know where she is
but **** can I remember everything about that night
her outfit down to her ear rings
what song I had playing (Tupac How do You Want It)
the nervous tick I do with my thumb nails clicking them haha.
she asked me if This was my first time ( I replied yes)
She told me that I was her first also (not like first)
but first time actaully being made love too.
she said I knew exactly what to do
and that she never had a man actaully take his time with her.
I brushed her hair back
and whispered in her ear ( in all the seas and all the lakes I found mermaid by mistake)
my little way of saying she was speacil.
I've never found another mermaid is what im getting at
and honestly after all the girls past present a future
I'll never have another night like that
so if your out there Aubrey
this writings for you
Feb 5, 2013
Feb 5, 2013 at 12:51 AM UTC
blood red romance
take me away
the razor hath slain
blood did stain
dripping emotions
seeping out of skin
old scars broken
new ones begin
if you look close
you can see
the dark mark on my jeans
hides blood underneath
put down pile up
makes me feel ****** up
i realize i messed up
and thats when i cut up
mental relief
that feels so sweet
the pressure is off
for a little cost
just a sharp razor
that i keep close
the mini rush i feel
cannot be matched
my mental stability
is not what it seems
casue it feels so good
having blood ooze in streams
hiding the pain
thats actaully inside
let my have my metal
so i can go and hide
Sep 5, 2012
Sep 5, 2012 at 11:22 PM UTC
You know what's depressing?
The way she treats people,
The things she says.
Not a care in the world,
no consideration for feelings.
"Depressing" is her reply,
to people pouring their hearts out.
People who she claims to love,
and actaully love her back.
She knocks us down,
makes us feel like nothing.
Then she creeps back around,
back into our lives.
As if nothing ever happened,
as if everythings alright.
She used to be so great,
I saw barely any flaws.
This person who i used to call my favorite,
no longer my favorite at all.
I wish things went back to the way,
the way they used to be.
I can no longer forgive you,
your actions upset me.
"Depressing".
Sep 2, 2013
Sep 2, 2013 at 9:56 PM UTC
i saw him on a- actaully i dont know when i saw him first. probably late on the second or third day. we missed each other the first day. but i know, when i saw him, he stole away my breath. its such a cliche thing, but just this once i can say im not lying. i watched him on his bike. wide shoulders tan. snapback placed perciaously on his head. i spent the next two days staring at him. watching him leave his campsite each time and watching him return each time for reasons unknown by me. then she came, the third night. we went to the playground. i didnt expect anything to come out of it. but he was there. and my brother, oh wonderful brother, was friends with him. my heart welled. i talked to him for hours that night. i went to bed happy; happier than i've been in awhile. i had talked to him. the campground boy. the boy who stole away my breath. the next day, he came to the field right after us. i know why now; he wanted to get away from his family, i understand where hes coming from. unfortunately. but we spent the day together. then we went in the pool. this is the time my heart sank into the middle of the earth and hasnt come back yet. she flirted. and the worst part, he flirted back. my heart sank even more that night. i watched from the sidelines as they messed around with each other. him finding excuses to touch her. her giggling her boy-attracting giggle. ******* giggle. i went to bed that night, heart sank, never coming back. i will probably never see him again, but i can tell i will probably never be able to let him go fully. he was special. my age. different than the boys i know from school. i just know i will never forget his face, i will try not too. he was the last thing i saw as the car left the campground
Jul 7, 2013
Jul 7, 2013 at 7:58 PM UTC
I wonder what it was like to be the first humans
I wonder what it was like to see the world so clean, wild,and free.
before skyscrapers and cars
before lights and freight trains.
I bet the first humans listened better
and understood more.
Now we have a robot(siri) conversating with us telling us what to do.
When before we listened to the wind and the stars to tell us our way.
The first humans made there way without a GPS and we get lost in our own
city streets now.
The first humans traveled on foot, drank water from streaming river bends,
and ate whatever they could hunt up on the way.
That life would be great
too be able to be the first person to name a bird or a snake
OH and what a sight it would be to watch the world as it grows
and forms like seeing The Grand Canyon when water was actaully all the way to the top of it.
Or seeing the Pyramids Form.
I think that If I was the first human
we would be in a hell of alot better situation then we are now.
The first human could've made the decision for peace and not war
the first person we had was a bad seed
he made the wrong decision that day
and look what that decision has led too
Billions of years
of living with one person
mistake.
Jun 14, 2013
Jun 14, 2013 at 1:11 PM UTC
On the spectrum of energies
I am actaully a positive charge
Where you see negativity
I'm not willing to starve
Where you bow down
And forfeit your voice
I am really loud!
I have no choice
But to be the big mouth
Liberal in the crowd
...........
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 6:52 AM UTC