You called to me
As my way of release.
But it's backfired,
And now the thing keeping me here
Has turned against me.
How am I to love something
If it fights with me daily?
What is the point of dedication anymore?
What is loyalty?

Love is a sharpie
Some days it draws good things,
Some days it draws bad ones.
The lines can be thick or thin,
Or long or short.
If you leave the cap off, it'll dry out.
Or sometimes they just explode.
But usually they work just fine,
Although they do smell funny.
You can do many things with a sharpie. Even though it says "permanent",
It'll usually wash off.
Some times, you gotta rub it real hard to get it to come off,
And even then,
Not all of it does.

You got me to rest after a week and a half.
I'm not really sure how,
You left my mind at ease
And I walked away from the pain.

It's 2 am and I'm awake again.
The sound of your voice is all I need.
It's 2 am and I'm falling back under.
Just thinking about you pleases me.

0230 rolls by, and then 0300,
I'm still hearing your voice.
I know I can rest easy with you.
Its 0500 now and you've set me free.

You, sir,
You are a wizard
You are just a puppy,
Lost in the woods

I can guide you,
Help you and hold you,
You can cry out to me in times of need.
Could this be what I think it is?

Is this real?
What's the matter?
Are you alive?
ARE YOU OKAY?

..... Don't lie.
I know you're not.
That is why I am here,
To help you up when you fall down.

But that bond will only hold so long,
It'll only last as long as you want it there.
If you push me away and hide the truth,
I'll leave you in the forest.

Sometimes its just difficult
Droppin bombs
Actin tough
Its all a joke

I scream I cry
I just wanna lose it
Get away from the pain
Poppin pain killers like candy just to dull the blade

**** my pistol
Let it rip
Tear me open
Rip me to shreds

I tell myself it won't hurt
Feelin that blade burn into my skin
**** your feelings **** what you say
***** you can't judge, you're not perfect

My senses fade into one
I no longer feel the pain
My body is numb the **** you say don't matter
You **** yourself over every day you try judging me

Cause I know who I am
I know what I can do
*****, you know nothing
**You ain't the perfect little ******* think you are

The night was young,
The scene was set.
Dinner was made,
We were off to a great night.

You looked stunning,
With your tan boots and **** hat,
Your cologne smelled wonderful,
And your eyes shone bright.

We started off awkward,
Like most dates go.
But as we warmed up,
The fire inside us ignited.

You held me close to you,
I rested my head on your chest and hugged you tight.
Your scent filled my soul.
Everything was perfect, nothing else mattered.

And then, as we swayed together,
You began to sing.
We continued to dance,
And the whole world disappeared.

I feel safe in your arms.
Nothing can get to me,
No one can hurt me.
That was the moment I realized,

I love you.

If I could set the clocks back awhile
To our last day together, I would
I'd play out all the events up til
The moment you died, and I'd cry
I'd go back, to the day before,
And ground myself so I couldn't leave the house
Maybe them you'd still be alive,
With no one to pester you about some **** movie
But I didn't, and we went
I can't even remember what the hell we went to watch
I know it was good, we had a good time,
Then we left
You held the door open for me on our way out,
I glared at you for being a man, as usual
And I looked back out on the street
And then I froze..
A man, in his car... staring.
I saw him shove a mag in his gun and **** it back.
The rest... it's all a blur.
I can still hear the 5 shots he popped off
Two hitting you in the chest,
One in my neck,
And the other two missed.
What a lousy shot.
People were yelling, I was screaming.
You were on the ground and so was I.
I didn't know if I could move but I tried anyways.
You were trying to say something to me..
I couldn't understand you.
I crawled to you and put your head in my lap.
I could hear you struggle to breathe.
Someone was screaming into a phone for an ambulance
But I knew it wasn't for you. It was too late.
The last thing I ever heard from you was, "Love you, boo bear."

And then it was over.

A fawn, without a mother,
Grew himself up, with his brother

Taught himself how to do it all,
His pride lost in his father,

Accidents happen, and he lost his mom,
Divorce and arguments detonated the bomb,

The loving female figure in his world,
Laying on her deathbed in his care,

I know I can't replace them, or change him,
The love I feel is never-ending

We may fight,
We may cry,
But never will we give up

Universal fit,
For a special kind of girl,
In a "one size fits all" world.
Can she make it?

She sees things that others don't.
She can tell when you're angry,
Or when you haven't slept.
Sleep is for the weak.

She wakes up tired and sore every morning,
From crying and fighting daemons in her sleep.
Why can't you reach out, into her high-strung mind,
"Help me." Is what she's dying to tell you.

Talk to her for five minutes,
You'll peel back another layer.
Step inside my mind,
But please do not turn your back.

Am I playing on the right head?
How do I sound?
If I keep playing,
Will I keep going?


"Help me," she cries out silently.