If I said I wanted to leave you

because I don't want to know

Again, the feeling of being left

Alone, would that make me selfish

Or foolish

You would say it's the latter,

But I say, maybe you are right

These days I live to be a fool another day

Do you see me at all
When I come home stressed
Wishing you could kiss away
the frown on my fore
And hug away the stress
I know you see the hunger in my eyes
If only you'd run me a hot bath
to calm my nerves
and squeeze my hands with a smile
I know you won't, but I wish you could

I know you hear me
When I talk about my fears and worries
If only you do listen with a smile
And let me know you've got my back
Hold my head to your chest as I vent
I know you won't, but I wish you could

You laugh when I laugh
Your voice resonates in songs
and your dance is infectious
You laugh uncontrollably
at my jokes and teasing
And hit me with the pillow
when I'm not looking
I know you want to let go
I know You won't, but I wish you could

You say you believe me
when I say
I love you; I need you
Sade means nothing,
and she really doesn't
You say you trust me
You should be saying
I love you too
But you won't, and I wish you could

Cos when I say I'm stressed,
you think I'm being manipulating
When I express my fears and worries,
you think I'm playing mind games
When I'm happy,
you think it's cos there's another
And when I talk
about my love for you,
you think it's cos
I'm hiding something else
Oftentimes It feels like
you want to let go
Every other time I see the futility
of trying to set you free
You could set yourself free,
but would you?

Do you know how confounded i get
when i hear you say,
Get out of your comfort zone.
As if Comfort zones weren't meant for comforts, so why would I leave them?
Why should I open up my mind to love and it's complications? Why do I have to?
You persist and insist; you say "what are rules if not to be broken"
To which I reply "why make rules only to break them"
We will never agree not even to disagree
Until the day that I fall in love
And you finally get to say
I told you so
I hope I don't get my heart broken and have to say the same to you.

Ever heard of teardrops
That shattered a heart
A story of love
and the pain that accompanies it.

We started like a fire
A Stray from its path
I wasn't sure about our direction
Didn't know it would turn out so

I'm not here for long I told you
But you gave me your heart anyways
And mine came unstuck and
Followed you

In your hands it turned from stone
To ice, to glass
Delicate but beautiful and ready
Just like yours
To be adored; To be broken

Now I'm leaving but not for good
You still have my heart you see

But that didn't stop the tears and
From you they came
In drops of sadness
As I held you close to my heart

Now I'm left to tell the story
of how teardrops
Fell on my now delicate heart
Shattering it.

Ever heard of teardrops
That shattered the heart?
I wish it was fiction
I wish it was fiction.

I think you ruined me for myself

I think you ruined me for everyone

Waking up to your smiles no longer

Now I'm in desperate despair

I think the new one looks like you

Petite, dark hair, lightskinned

But she doesn't laugh the same as

You, doesn't half make me feel

The way you made me too

Maybe the next one will be better

Maybe no one ever will be different

Enough to be you

I know you've ruined me

But I would do it over and again

With you

This is my life in stages
Oftentimes struggling with disbelief
Every other time, scolding away my doubts.
Not really where I want to be
But that's ok, not better
Or worse than I imagined it.
So far, the only things I own,
A pen and a dream
And I'm not so sure of the former

Torn between burning bridges and opening
Hell's doors; Like hunting silhouettes in the mist
Shadows, busy, chasing the light

I find that I take chances first then learn;
an uncanny approach
Much Like skydiving without a parachute then
Learning to fly to survive the fall

Shout-out to my past self
Buried in the hunger of who I'm working
To become; deep within the waves
Of my mind's seas
Like lost treasures even as I'm capsizing
Into a new person
An ocean of endless vast
To house the unending quests
For wealth in lost causes
Waiting to be explored
Ready for lady luck
And the opportunity to sail from her dock

Not sure who you've become or who
You claim to be
Stuck between your shadows
And your unraveling
Begging to be seen by all but
Yourself, life couldn't have been better
Looking in from outside.
Dressed in irony and brass hope
Crowning yourself with filters
Uncrowning your endowments for all to see
Steadily wishing away that part of you
That everyone sees but you
Your heart is all I'll long for
All I'll be looking to spend the eter' with.