How do you plug up the ocean                                                            ­         once the flood gates are opened                                                           ­            How do you reverse the hands of time                                                         once you've already crossed the  line                                             Accomplished liar, mendacious mind                                                  Devil and demon both combined                                                         Somehow it finally caught up                                                                  or  maybe  I've finally had enough                                          Angry outbursts in attempts to control me                                            instead of talking and trying to hold me                                                      You  did this and you **** well know it                                                 That bridge is burned and that's the matches you're holdin'                         You couldn't get out of your own way                                                     That's  cause and effect that you're learning today

I am stagnant, in slow motion                                                           ­        knee  deep in a blow painting of emotion                                                         There are chaotic thoughts abound                                                           ­my  minds  become a battleground

She was as fragile as a bird                                                             ­       broken  wing, song unheard                                                          ­    Mosaic pieces held  by scars                                                          she  was  once a shining star                                                             ­        She had a fine and delicate soul                                                             ­   leaving her open and vulnerable                                                       ­          She needed someone to understand                                                       ­      be  her protector and a gentleman                                                       Someone who  would shield her from pain                                         who  could teach her to love again                                                             Until  that day she will forever be                                                               ­    a  fragile bird in captivity

Just to add insult to injury                                                           ­                        you're taking her where you took me                                                          telling everyone she is your girl                                                             ­     trying to shake up my broken world                                                            ­ Are you happy it's hurting me?                                                              ­         Does she know she'll be the next to be                                                                just another on the list you made                                                                       of those you use and degrade                                                          ­                   If it didn't look like jealousy,                                                        ­                    I'd forewarn her of your tendencies                                                       ­        She is just a pawn in your game                                                             ­  another victim with a different name                                                                  I hope she sees you for who you really are                                      before  you add her heart to your jar

Sometimes the beauty in the world makes me want to cry                                                                                                                   I  wear  my  heart  on  my sleeve, and I don't know why                                                              ­                                     There  are  times I have cried singing children's lullabies                                                        ­                                             I  have  to  get tougher,  I know, I  wish I could, I  try                                                           ­                                                My  heart breaks  for  everyone  else  but  not  for me                                                               ­                                                             I  put  the  brakes  on  any  lame  self-pitying parties                                                          ­                                                     But  my love could open and part the seas                                                             ­                                                    It  clears a wide path that has set others free

Fall is here, leaves are changing                                                     mountains  on fire under the sunlight                                                         ­  As  I walk, I start praying                                                          ­       thanking  God for this beautiful sight                                                       The  cold crisp air is all around me                                                               ­    as I button my coat up tight                                                            ­                 I  am a  young child all over again                                              kicking  leaves  with adolescent delight

I gave you love that you didn't deserve                                                          ­   and you gave me nothing in return                                                            Like  a fool, I chose to believe                                                          ­     that  someday you, too would love me                                                  No  pressure here, I was always waiting                                                  doubting  the truth ,that you weren't full of hatred                                 You  said I made your life more comfortable                                             I  say you, made my life more miserable                                                   Like  a  dog, I stayed loyal to you                                                                 did  things no woman should be asked to                                                   I  have been your lifelong slave                                                               shackled to someone who never gave                                                         I  have been doing the impossible task                                                             ­     that has taken everything I have                                                             ­   I've  been tethered  and  bound by vows                                                      that  you have broken before, then and now                                              My  love and hate are equally felt                                                             ­ I play the hand that I 've been dealt                                                           My biggest hope and my only prayer                                                           ­  Is that this all ends sooner than later