You want it
but I don’t
you don’t get it
Because I said so
so go be independent
quit depending on me
I don’t rely on you
so quit believing in ME

I tried
really freaking hard
tongue tied
no reply
Looooong sighhhhh
brain fried
emotions discard
to the side
soul died
problems pryed
whyyyy God whyyyyy
I quit
throw the towel in
straight lit
burned wick
both sides
feelings hide
no room to sit down
heart lied
Im tired
fired up
sirens ruuuuun
I'm done
nine one one
collapsed lungs
life stung, brung
hung subconscious
abnoxious mindset
gifted talent
captive to flesh
I'm not who I am
befriend reflections
selections made
parts played
patterns stayed
when will I feel
okaaaay saaaaay
sooooon pleeeease
hellp deal, steal me
awaaaay, todaaaay
this isn't a game
regain trainwreck
breathing becoming
difficult, hurting
flirting with death
chest caved in
slaved to
past pain
insane within this
membrane...laaaaaame
saaaaame, aaaage old
situations, validations
never appearing promising
pinky swear mixed with glares cares go unnoticed
clouded with distortion
darkness stares
fares piling up
tolls avoided
polls divided
anger subsidized
privatized issues
tissues  by the box full
absorbing alcohol
leaving dryness from
lack of softness
this is a mess
where's bounty
quicker picker upper
pieces shattered
heart splattered
eyeliner upside down
war paint
this kind, this mind
of mine, not for the
faaaaaaaint, aaaaaint
you feeling better
from my ugly treasure
no map necessary
these valuables planted
at my feet, repeat, download
discrete ***** matter
scatter this out, doubt
trapped inside and out
leave this world
in a body bag
blood fills up
the well to hell
your asking to much
for your soul
reeeeetreeeeat, defeeeeeat
no compete clause
floss the debris
these traumatic non-diplomatic, sporadic, hypnotic, anti-value, shattered glass.....moral compass, failure to launch, trigger pulled grenade.....explode
ticking time bomb
threats, let's set this off
battles scatter, wars pour
from the door
knock hard
go away, today now, gone
not not double negative these words fumbling from a fragile brain, train the waves never to leave the bubble, keep them coming, stop running in the hall, tall mental strain, short fuse, trapped abuse, hung from the nooose...traveling by caboooooose looooose the
attituuuuude, duuuuuude
rude , quiet down, riot stuck
no luck , inside voice now, how laaaaaame, taaaaame
yourselfffffff, helllllllllp meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
screeeeeeeeeeeeeam
meeeeeeeeeeeeean
gleeee­eeeeeeeam
but don't shine
bright, light ignite
charcoals refuse
infuse substance abuse
now that's a flame
comfort warms
comfort warns
delay of reaction
two hour delay
recess school's out
I learned all the **** they didn't teach me THE HARD WAY
literally fade the black cascade , fake brovado
middle class movado
bravo , he go round and round, rodeo , big steer, lightyears ahead, bread, loafs of lacked love, feast on these carbs, toast, spread , peanut butter jelly time, slime , lime placed on the rim, keep em coming , I'm fuming at the ears , fears, peers not had, relatable a false illusion to bitter for babysitter to keep an eye on , funded friendship for future fam, **** this is alot of slots to fill up with cots of thoughts sleeping ....laid to rest, r.i.p this minute in 61 seconds it'll be over , can't stop the world from turning but can leave it for good, rocket juice, who's coming with , plastic tubes room temperature placed in a freezer box once but now removed , melting cheer to frowns just look in the mirror ! MAN DOWN

Your name
caught in
crossed thoughts
crosshairs
your face
captured results
my faults
give in
thinking now
thinking how
you were
my everything
and now ....
just a
distant memory
I hold
CLOSE
when I’m
ReMiNdEd
Of you
of us
but now
but how
You’re gone
forever
lost
from my
grasp
of my
fingertips
FREE

Initial-attraction
physical-attraction
emotional-attraction
******-attraction
finan­cial-attraction
any-attraction
leads possibly to
FATAL-ATTRACTION
Why don't we first focus on
MENTAL-HEALTH-attraction?
Heart-broke

Spring mind
Summer soul
Fall heart
Winter eyes

My visions appear cold
as feelings change colors
and start to fall apart
becoming bare...

My soul attempts to nurture the darkness, with warmth, feeding needed hope...

My mind a constant source of new life as it decides between the cold and warmth...

I was complete 
until a trigger 
released my 
buried wounds 
I cried, profusely 
like a baby 
Yeah, im still not 
over it 
Man! what a past 
I have endured 
Im not proud 
of these scars 
These triggers 
might just be 
the death of me 
Ill never be healed 
because they may 
never be gone

A crazy night
A crazy fight
Dark place
Dark face
ON
NO LIGHTS
Dazed
Hazed
CONFUSED
Lost
Cost
PAID IN FULL
Thoughts
laid to rest
cots
DAMAGED
put to bed
ALERT, ALERT
All I see is
RED
Ambition
DEAD
Hanging on
by a THREAD
WORDS said
other ones
UNSPOKEN
REGRET
THREATS
Within
AMIDST
Myself
WHO KNOWS
Caught
in a MOMENT
of TIME
STUCK
LUCK GONE
wrong
SONG
THE BEAT OF DEFEAT
My theme song
LOVE DONE
LOVE DRUNK
PUNK
DUNK your SOUL
PAIN
DRAIN
SANE OUT
ABUSED
USED
CUT LOOSE
At sea
LIFE A
SHIPWRECK
TIMEOUT
STOP
DROP
PRIDE
HIDDEN
TRUST is TOUGH
VULNERABILITY
FORBIDDEN
Attempts to forgive
ACCEPTED
BUT NEVER
APPROVED
Living BITTER
QUITTER
KNOT
*******
EMOTIONS
POTIONS
SPAT OUT
YOUR MOUTH
CLEAN UP
MOUTHWASH
DROWN
SOAK
CLEANSE
THE PAST
the PRESENT IS a
GIFT
LIFT YOURSELF
UP
NEVER LOOK DOWN
Ground
SOUND
HEARD
LiStEn
SHOUT
DEFEND
LEND
SEND
OUT
MESSAGES
Set SAIL
BAIL
NEGLECT
REJECT
BOMB
ExPlOdE
Shattered
to pieces
BROKEN
DISMISSED
*******
LIFE SWITCH
ON/OFF
FiNiShEd
LIFT OFF
3....2....1.....
COUNTDOWN
Time ticks
Time takes
Never does it
GIVE
SO LIVE IT UP
**** SERVED
PINCHED NERVES
**** HAPPENS
Don’t TAKE it
PERSONAL
REALITY
NEVER
SOMETHING
DIFFERENT
SCARS
STARS
GUIDED LIGHT
INTERNAL FIGHT
NIGHTS SKY
DARK MIND
REWIND
RE-LIVE
GIVE-IN
GIVE-UP
Back Now
BACK THEN
F👎🏻CKED UP
THUMBS UP
NOSE DOWN
EYES CLOSED
DANGEROUS
YES/NO
CONFIRMED
LIFE IS DANGEROUS  
WITHIN A MIXED MIND
MUTT
VALUES MIXED UP
MORAL COMPASS
STOPPED
NO DIRECTION

There's a world
inside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Mind inside my
God created body
people inside my
God created earth

There's a world
inside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Mind inside my
physically abused body
danger inside my
physically abused earth

There's a world
outside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Body outside my
God created life
people outside my
God created earth

There's a world
outside my world
within a world
of many worlds

Body outside my
mentally abused mind
danger outside my
mentally abused earth

WE ARE IN
CONTROL OF OUR
EARTH CREATED MINDS

WE ARE ALL
GIVEN EQUAL LIFE
AND EQUAL EARTH

WE ARE IN
CONTROL OF OUR
EARTH CREATED MINDS

MAKE YOUR WORLD
WORTH HIS TIME
AND BECOME GODLY

Relapse around the corner, real laps around the coroner, I'm tired of running, better yet ill just sit and ponder, what is it i desire, yellowish oranges burns to blue, I cannot keep playing with fire, I'm tired of pretending change is on my mindset, rewind......Revisit goals, revisit hopes, maybe wishes do come true if you really try, I want this disease behind me, the rearview had never looked good but it doesnt mean it can't with time, relapse denied.... What do I have to lose, its all gains ahead, regardleds the outcome: IM GONNA TRY

Mirror, mirror on the floor
shattered to pieces

If only you weren’t so guilty of being so true

Than maybe I wouldn’t of came so unglued

Letting my anger get the best of me from you

Mirror, mirror on the floor
I’m glad you are broken

All the reflections of myself you have projected

Never once have you told a little lie to cheer me up

Nor tried once to make me feel better about myself

Mirror, mirror on the floor look what you have done

This is all a result from your actions not mine

If only you knew how to be a better friend

Then you might still be on the wall but you’re not

Mirror, mirror on the floor you expose me

Time and time again never with sensitive skin

But rather eye for eye for who I really am

If only you knew how it felt to be like me

Mirror, mirror on the floor you now get a taste

For you can see your reflection through my eyes

How does it feel to see yourself broken ?

Finally you get a taste of your own medicine

Fiction
versus
Non

Lie
versus
Truth

Imagination
versus
Reality

Fabricated
versus
Recollection

Innocence
versus
Innocence

Possibly
or
Not

It
all
Depends

On
the
Author

And
their
Mind

Heart
mental-health
Soul

IDENTITY
versus
IDENTIFY

Loves a stranger, captive to anger, danger seems normal.
Since she's been gone
life has become more bitter.
Days are slow, nights are long
the only lyrics I hear are from sad love songs, so unfair.
Bare my life has become without the one to complete me. My better half, my better laugh, my ounce of hope, my only wish that ever came true, GONE!

If only I knew the power of the truth but I fed into the lies. I never realized the complexity of false feelings for myself. I acted and reacted based on what I saw and not what I wanted. If only I could've understood it was always me and never you then maybe... just maybe I could've grown with you. It's to late now for what ifs or what might. We grew apart because I never helped myself before you and I hurt each other. I apologize

I turn 32 on Monday
that is a little under
half of the life expectancy
In America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
and I feel a little on edge
hopes of an early retirement
In America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
social security is running out
but that doesn't scare me
in America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
and I plan on doing
nothing different than
the last 31 years in America

Not likely

I turn 32 on Monday
and I feel lightyears ahead
from 31 or any year before
because I have accepted
WHO I AM, IN LIFE

Not scared

Money comes and goes
just under eight grand this week
I’m still not happy

Time is worth way more
I only work two weeks tops
I’m still not happy

Plenty of money
plenty of time for myself
I’m still not happy

I would spend it all
without a blink of an eye
for one day with her

Money can’t buy love
money cant fix a hurt heart
I hope that time can

I hope that time can
I really hope that time can
I hope that time can

How do bills get passed ?
Dead presidents
make the bills.
LOOK AT THEIR POCKETS!

I cared and I still do, I care and I can no longer. It's not my ******* fault, it's what they created!

Chase paper 
paper chases you 
The more you acquire 
the more that owns you 

Why do we?

Find comfort 
in what we have 
when what we have 
creates discomfort in us

Mushrooms to powder
ziplock bag full
Pour me another handful
lick it from my palms
Rob quit thinking
turn your brain off
Get lost in the night’s sky
from Mother Nature’s
MOON DUST

Fear, hope, politics this politics that, weather, predictions, assumptions, projections and random facts... Good-morning America, Good-morning World!

An eye for an eye
EQUAL
counterparts
TWO
worlds across
ONE
disappointed face
****
spoke the mouth
WORDS
take the place of
ACTIONS
go willingly unheard
IGNORED
even by myself
FACT
in disbelief of the
MAN
I have become
RUN
from the truth
HIDE
eye to eye
LOOK
for the truth
VIEW
the pain and anger
CHANGE
but only if
YOU
decide too

Forever together, forever apart.

Forever desired, forever missed.

       "Nothing is forever, for this life is not eternal but for as long as I live, you will be mortally missed!"

Subtitle: We All Are Broken

My reflection used to be UGLY
I hated it because
it DISGUSTED me 
Back then
when I was 
living a LIE
Try to swallow that pill 
try to stare that 
in the MIRROR
Fear is an 
Understatement
Disappointment 
more accurate 
But Now is different 
because I have changed 
My reflection attracts me 
because now I see GOOD
in many different aspects 
like abstract art 
Morals,, values,, goals,, self-love and respect 
My reflection is like 
looking into a 
KALEIDOSCOPE 
all my imperfections 
perfectly placed 
within my life's spectrum 
flaws now full grown 
transformed into 
BEAUTY FROM PAIN 
I'm proud to say 
I resemble a 
CHANGED MAN

Mother Nature’s wind
Passing freely with power
No rhyme or reason

Various seasons
Multiple temperatures
Only she decides

North, south, east and west
All amidst her control too
From the ground to sky

What lays deep below
Or what floats deep above
Confines her power

However her love
Cannot be prevented ever
For her actions just

Normally the cost
From her violent outbreaks
Is a cause from us


Our own decisions
Leading to neglect and harm
From lack of respect

We take this calm earth
For granted like it’s deserved
Versus a blessing

But we should all know
It can and will get way worse  
.Instead of better

When we don’t listen
To her many calls and signs
Then what to expect

An environment
Feeling abused by its host
What undeserved love

Mother Nature is
Far more deserving of more
From each one of us

Together we can
Individually we can
Every bit helps

Working really hard now, so I can become a *** later .

Alike
but different
Like
opposing pedals on a
Bike
always working together

Alike
but different
Like
opposing handlebars on a
Bike
always directing together

Alike
but different
Like
opposing tires on a
Bike
always traveling together

Without
one or the
Other
the bike would get
Nowhere
just like us if we are selfish

Revisiting old posts 
the audio literally 
speaks volumes to me 
no pun intended 
im just glad 
I finally heard the words 
spoken from a broken soul 
telling me to **** 
all the bad dreams 
so the good ones could 
BECOME REALITY
******

If only the music 
decided never to stop 
then maybe she 
could’ve made it back 

If only the music 
would finally start again 
picking up our love 
from where it got lost 

Then maybe she could 
make it back to me 
or I could be allowed
back into her arms

8 killed , 100's injured 
adults, teenagers & kids 
MURDERED 
Not a crime scene 
by design, but rather a
CONCERT 
Astroworld Concert 
Houston Texas 
LOCATION
Fans rush the gates 
Travis Scott ( hip hop artist )
SICKO-MODE ( a titled song )
Disregard for others 
trampled and walked on
CROWD-SURGING 
8 lives taken
at others actions 
DISREGARD 
An innocent concert 
became a warzone 
DEADLY 
Security was outnumbered 
hundreds to one 
HELPLESS 
Thoughts to their family 
and to their loved ones
R.I.P

If I said it
IT MUST BE TRUE....
If I wrote it
IT MUST BE TRUE....
If I believe it
IT MUST BE TRUE....
WRONG
The only truth behind these statements is the:
”TRUE FEELINGS”
I felt that motivated and fueled the beliefs.
TRUE

Let me turn this brain off
and speak from this
raw heart ........

I genuinely freaking care
about those who I love
enough that I can’t
just give up!

So I apologize
I can’t just
turn it
off!

It’s  my weakness
among many
others

I’m working on it
and trying to
become
better

I was given the gift to relate
I truly can preach
But not based on beliefs
I truly can reach
I was given the gift to feel
I truly can touch
But not based on religion
I truly can love
If only I could accept my call
If only I could save you all
But not because I have to
I truly can accommodate all

You can drink my past beer
you can eat my last cookie
You can take my last dollar
you can make my last bill
BUT PLEASE DON’T
TOUCH MY *******
WOMAN
She’s all mine, Yeah
she’s supposed to be

My love
Not like most
Just ask the waiter
Or the host
The bartender
My best friend
Because those
That seek me
Usually tip the most
Top shelf

Sins fill the air with temptations lust as it brushes against us all from the dust within the wind

Whispers go unnoticed by some why others are not quite as blessed to be able to not give in

Different upbringings, past situations, multiple variables all could be to name or blame

However the measure we all at some point realize we can change and rearrange ourself

Prayers answered for those who find the call sooner than later, better late than never though

Times hands forever moving in a direction that works equally against us all and our efforts

Face the demons, find the answers and break free from past patterns and catch time

For if you don’t it’s a guarantee eventually it’ll catch you wether you are ready or not to go

We can look at ourselves as we project or we can project the reflection we want to look at

When love for self is achieved the soul is relieved and all else slowly falls into place naturally

Morals are raised, values are introduced, faith is praised as we become our best self

I used to envy others that were born to a life with a strong foundation and support

That was before I could realize the beauty in pain and the strength in myself to change

Never ever will I take mental health for granted nor a good moral compass leading the way

Every battle, every fight, every obstacle I have overcome a true victory in my journey of life

I have learned you can’t earn the reward if the effort behind the sword isn’t genuine desire

I tried before to win the war but slowly realized you cannot conquer all the demons at once

Little by little with each battle I pick apart one flaw at a time hoping to become a better man

Childhood trauma is still known but no longer present bitterly blinding my faiths eyes

My past relationships all on good terms my mother and step-dad forever forgiven

Slowly building & strengthening our entire families wealth with  unconditional love

Something I’m realizing I have been missing and enjoy dearly to be able to be a part of

Faith forever missing with periodic acquaintances here and there throughout 31 years

Never to long to make a difference but moving forward I must be more committed

This coming Sunday will mark the first day that my son and I will try a new church of God

With hopes it will be a good fit based on other friends that currently go and invited us

However if not then we will keep trying other ones until we can call one our home too

The final straw among all of the calls I will try to defeat I think will be easier with faith

To break free from the chains of alcohol and although I have slowed down a little bit

I realize it’s had such a bad impact on my decisions from the past that I’m resentful to it

I’m hoping through my journey of faith it will help defend my choice to not cave in

Goals are made, plans in place, options outweighed so these changes can last

A smile on my face, a confident spirit, a cleared mind and hopeful heart I remain

For these changes and battles are not just for myself but also my loved ones and future love

My desire for a relationship is way more important than to remain the same guy I am

My sole motivation as I cannot stand to be alone but not because I’m not happy

But rather I want to express the love I have to offer by providing someone else with happiness

Nothing will be forced nor will be sought until I have overcame all my weaknesses

Every-time I have the urge to drink rather than give in I will reply with a new inked poem

Every-time the wind of sin brushes my skin I will not listen but rather write what I stand for

For I know what I desire and the fire from within has never been burning so hot with passion

By accomplishing these two flaws it will naturally call to my third and last imperfection

My ability to forget about the better for others when instant gratification calls out my name

This is a tough battle because I know I am a good father and my son never goes without

However a better life  I could provide for him and be a better example for him to witness

These aren’t easy adjustments to have to notice when you care so much about self image

These are not easy talks to have with yourself but most definitely necessary to grow

Others looking in might think how can someone be so messed up and lost in life

I said the same thing to myself for the last 20 years as I tried to hide a guy I wasn’t proud of

There are without a doubt others to that I feel for knowing how hard these changes are

You all as my witness I will prove it can be done giving all others hope from a bad

CHILDHOOD

A room on wheels
with my storage platform bed
and my solar powered devices

A party on wheels
with a roof rack that holds 4 camping chairs, table
and a trunk with a propane grille, charcoal grille and fire pit

A room on wheels
with my built in closet that keeps all my work clothes  wrinkle free and organized  and two drawers for my fold-ups

A party on wheels with my 6 remote controlled led lights , laptop with built in WiFi to stream movies and play games

This is my work car and many nights on long trips it has been my sleeping quarters and many nights it has provided a night full of camaraderie

My co workers and I sit around a fire in comfortable chairs as we cookout on my two grilles  from food we all chipped in to provide

At first glance people think I’m crazy but once they get to participate in the environment they can’t believe the fun

I average 28 miles per gallon , I can shower at any Planet Fitness, Flying J or Pilot truck stop as well as stay the night for free in their well lit parking lots

I have screens that go over the outside of the windows like a glove covering the open windows for airflow without the bugs being able to get in

I have a solar powered fan that mounts above my head as well as one that mounts up front to create steady airflow

Underneath the storage bed houses anything and everything a road trip could desire as well as necessities for survival

The glovebox a small hidden pantry for protein packed snacks and healthy alternatives

My workout items hang on the exterior of the closet wall behind my headrest: resistant bands , hand grips and my protein powder tumbler all with designated hooks

I love my small resort on wheels. As it has provided some lifelong memories and always gets a stray smile from others that know not of it’s powers

But the most important reason I love my Cruze is it has provided a really neat father son project and one that shapes a young mans mind and lets him realize anything you think truly can become possible

Regardless of what others think or say because everyone that told us we were crazy has enjoyed a spot around the fire and a well grilled meal

They say “ you know what this is pretty cool after-all, I just didn’t think it would be possible.

The best part is within 10 minutes and 4 fasteners the front seat can be put back in  to it’s original working position

However we designed it so a passenger can still be buckled up while it remains a car camper

Now if only school would get out soon so we can begin our planned adventures for this summer

Open book
look
But don’t touch
read
what is my body
telling
you to do to
me

WRONG
try again, look closer
focus
otherwise you’ll mess this
up
I’m not playing games
fun
take this serious

Right
my body language
bad
because you are sick
disgusted
but I knew you had to
see
this for yourself

Gone
leave right now
don’t
come back ever
again
my body hates
you
as you can see

The narcissist inside still resides but I refuse to allow that side be known again

The decision was born from many incisions born causing the worst kind of pain

The monster is still inside but I finally found a way to tame him and prevent him

FROM COMING OUT

Verse I need not to rehearse 
There's no recourse for myself 
For these words serve purpose 
These words of mine, R Grove ⬆️

Verse I need not to rehearse 
There's no forecast for myself 
For these walls build themself
These walls of mine, R Coming ⬇️

Heard! I hope you too
For I finally listened
For these wars need to be WON

Large cold drops nonstop land on the tops of their heads, the dogs awake with tails that shake to hit the front door, only to be stopped midstep just before their paws hit the wet doorsteps, when will it stop their eyes ask as they anxiously wait to go outside, light shades of green that fade to various tans and browns that line the paved roads on both sides have desperately needed this rain...
Spring is here as the sounds of the big cold drops landing on all the tops of all earthbound is heard for all willing to listen, a tall tale of the warm weather to come and the dark bright greens to yellow shades soon to take over along with Summer.

I'm a stranger to the best version of me but I think he will look familiar, when I see him.

Victim to myself
victim to them too
victim to her as well
Culprit to myself
culprit to them too
culprit to her as well
Good vs bad, bad vs good
Without one, the other
would not exist
The majority of life
is learning how to
COEXIST

PLEASE Forgive me
but NEVER Forget me
............LEAVE

If you ever stopped
DRINKING

Long enough you could start
THINKING

Even if it was just for a few
MINUTES

Imagine the difference in our
RELATIONSHIP

But no, that’s to much to
ASK

You’re just a self-centered
*******

And can’t think about anyone
ELSE

Well I refuse to accept this
BEHAVIOR

I’m done being your punching
BAG

Mentally, emotionally and
SOCIALLY

Maybe for once you will
SEE

How your drinking is way out of
CONTROL

But either way, it doesn’t matter
ANYMORE

Because I’m breaking up with
YOU

Never will I ever allow someone
TO

Control me the way that you
HAVE

Never will I take the backseat
AGAIN

To a drug from someone I
LOVE

Never
AGAIN

Get lost in the thoughts

and

find yourself amidst the

madness

Never take the insecurities for

granted

For without them it could be

worse

Look at others but don't

compare

It's not a competition but

rather

a comparison in an effort to

study

Your reflection has the only

eyes

that matter and until then

everyone

else is just a distraction

truthfully

It starts within amidst the

feelings

dissect the past and all the

decisions

Decipher between the forced

ones

versus the ones you would've

made

Relate the difference to your

morals

not the morals of the others

donated

Never feel guilty at the hands

of

the ones that helped create

the

Madness but rather

sympathize

realize NOW you have the

POWER

To CREATE CHANGE

REARRANGE

YOURSELF to fit the BUILD

DESIRED

FIGHT for the RIGHT to FEEL

BETTER

EARN the SECURITY and

HEALTH

YOU DESERVED all along

BELONG

to the VALUES YOU want to

BATTLE

the desires and temptations

UNWANTED

DEVISE a PLAN and BECOME

the

MAN or WOMAN better yet

PERSON

YOU WANT TO

OVERCOME

The same concert 
that went deadly wrong 
made headlines 
with little to no more 
information than yesterdays 
update from the same incident two days before 
Next up Aaron Rogers 
NFL superstar lied about being vaccinated 
or did he ? He replied I'm immunized in the interview when they asked him a personal question, in front of the whole world. Will he be fined or will Greenbay Packers too and if so how much? or will he be suspended even after he recovers from his positive Covid test, Same questions yet still with no answers on a topic i could really careless. This segment is going on a week 
The Democrats this, the Republicans this, will bills get passed , Biden this, Biden that, his party lost in Virginia but the winner never claimed ties to Trump blah blah blah 
A week ago NFL superstar runningback Henry Ruggs III drove his mid-engine corvette 156 mph and crashed into a young girl in a Rav4 killing her and her dog, they literally burned to death as she was stuck inside the car, a doorman tried to pry her out as all he heard was screams. Headline story every morning with updates on the case and charges he will face
An old shooting, a new shooting, updates on Covid but all these things have one thing in common 
FEAR 
This is why i refuse to watch news, i just cant start a good day off with trauma, fear and guilt.

Your King is backed in the far corner sensing his death is near, as my pawn makes it to the final black square and says "give me my castle back"
As soon as its returned you take a hesitant step back, my Queen moves abruptly in confidence and looks you in the eyes saying "Checkmate" dear

Dancing With The Scars
all eyes on stage 
as heartbreak sweeps me 
off my feet 
The judges score cards are in:
Disappointment
False-Hope and 
YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH 
Dancing With The Scars 
Here I go again 
I'm back up from the ground 
on my feet again 
Not feeling to confident 
but there's always 
NEXT ROUND

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When emotions want to be explained
When pain wants to be heard
When insecurities desire to feel strong
When stress begs to release itself
When anger tries to build up
When happiness tries to hide
When fear attempts to rise
When love continues to show its flaws
When death takes another loved one
When loneliness feels like home
I WRITE