Blonde hair, blue, green eyes.
Standing there all tall and proud.
He says to himself, I made it.
At that moment, he throws his cap up in the air.
His family cheers from the sidelines.

I hope you're doing ok.
I havent heard from you for a while but maybe it's meant to be this way.
In the sense that you moved on without me.
Without telling me that's how it's going to be.
I'm still waiting for a text that may never come.
A phone call that won't go threw.
I hope you're ok because it seemed like you don't want me Anymore and that's fine.
I'm better now.
Only if I could say that without crying

It always hurt seeing them leave.
I watch them grow without me.
Knowing we weren't meant to be.
Scared to admit that I miss them,
Knowing they won't feel the same way.
I watched them move on without me.
I'm glad they are happy but wish they were
Happy with me.
I know we were toxic, but can you please forgive me.

The time of the year that shy kids come to shock everyone.
When monsters can be unrestricted,
Everyone else plays pretend.
No one knowing who is real or fake,
The perfect time to make people regret their choice to come out alone.

I let her in, in return
I got destroyed.
I showed my weakness, all I got
Was fake sorry. My house is filled with
Roses. I told her how that means nothing to me.
She tore my heart in two and watched me fall to the ground.
I trusted her, now all I can say is sorry. Even when I hear I love you,
I’m waiting for the end. It's hard to love someone when everything good is taken.
When I say I love you know I went through hell to get here. Please don’t hurt me again.
I can’t take it.

I don’t want to die
I also don’t want to live in fear of my life.
Everyday hoping not to give in to the devil
Thinking life it's better just to be blindsided.
Where are you?
I was with you from the start now I’m talking to the walls.
Hoping someone will hear my screams
No one ever does.
It's been three years since I last smiled.
Once again where are you?
I never gave up even when I was on the edge.
I guess love isn’t strong enough,
Now I stand on the bridge
Hoping to find met up for once.
Do you want me? I will give you my life.
Please I need you.

Did someone make him this way?
He used to talk about everything,
Now there is only quite.
He could fill a room with joy,
There is only darkness left.
He had confidence,
Now there is a boy standing away from the crowed.
Can I please help you?
I tell him,
His heart will be whole again.
He starts to shine a little more knowing one person listen to his cries.

The sweet girl from her.
The words that couldn’t stop me smiling even if I try.
Wanting to stay up all night talking, Planning all the adventures.
Laughing and blushing from a single text message. Waiting to learn more about what makes her smile on the darkest day. Knowing it’s only been a few days but already having a crush on her.

I never meet you besides my dreams.
I feel like I know you!
The way we talk every night.
She is the reasons for my smiles across the screen.
Please tell me you feel the same way.

Back again
Doing the same thing.
Nothing feels real anymore,
Are we in a book?
When will the happy ending come
Will there be one?
I fear there will be part two.
No one knowing how to act
All the things now disappear.
Toilet paper being used as weapons.
The poor suffer as the rich take it all.

How much louder do her cries have to be to get heard?
Her mouth is getting tired of screaming for help.
Her tears are like the end of a sad movie.
If you looked up the warning signs of sucide
There will be a photo of her.
She try to wipe away the fears but then she would be gone.
She is too weak to fight forever
But too afraid to give up.

When boys take my heart, they leave in a million pieces.
Everyone says be Straight forward, but no one ever takes about this.
When you spend a few months playing with someone’s heart, but no one wants it back.
They all say get over it. He was nothing to you anyway. They don’t understand that I was falling in love with him.
I thought he felt the same way, but no one ever does.
I will still text him every day, hoping he changes his answer.

I hold him tight, knowing I'm safe.
He won't let me go,
Instead of hugging me back tighter.
I look up to his smile brighter than the stars at night.
I wondered if I could pause this moment to make it last longer.
If only he knew how much every little moment means to me.
I would give up anything to relive all the memories for the first time again.

Please hold me tight and don’t let go.
I love him so much, but sadly it’s a horror movie.
He says I love you one second but doesn’t mean the next.
I scream, and he smiles.
I run, and he follows.
I wish this were all nightmare
Instead, it’s my reality.
I love him, but now I don’t.
One day I thought he would be my last.
Now I’m praying for the day he leaves.
All my friends think he the angel here to save me.
He’s just the devil waiting for me to give up.

Hold me tight; please don’t ever let me go.
Tell me stories while I fall asleep on you.
Let me love you until my love runs out.
There may only be a few moments while were together until it’s time to leave again.
I will cherish every second of every minute spent together.
Let me love you until your heart can’t take it anymore.

The last boy with the girl who never notices herself.
Until the boy opened her eyes to a new world.
He made her feel worth everything,
She ever had that growing up.
They were friends since the start,
Now their feelings are changing.
The once-lost boy finds himself in her eyes.
He finally found a home that won't go away.

How I send a text
Hi......
oh crap was that too loud.
Heyyyyy that is why too many y’s.
How about a simple hello, but that sounds way to formal.
Ok this should work.... just say I think you are cute.
Sent
Ohhh no she has seen it but no replay... it must mine she doesn’t like me.
It’s all over it was fake anyway!
I should of seen this coming!
Wait
She is typing
She said I think you are cute too!

I can’t keep living this way,
In fear of missing you.
I want to laugh at the past,
All I do is cry instead.
I hope one day we meet again,
It may be sooner nowadays.
My world is dark, my smile is blank.
Why did no one tell me depression was my fate.

If you leave my life, tell me goodbye.
I will convince myself it wasn't all a lie.
If you leave, I'll understand one day.
I will be thankful for everything you taught me after the tears dry up.
Before you leave, tell me that love is real.
Tell me; I will be o.k in the end.
Promise don't leave without saying anything; it's better than wondering why it all disappeared.

If I was a book,
My pages would be filled with empty words.
I would be placed on the highest shelves.
In the middle of all the sections,
Not fitting in perfectly anywhere.
If I was a book
I would confuse everyone that picks me up,
Until someone gives me a chance.
If I was a book,
I hope you would choose me every night,
Read me until you fall asleep.

I get closer to the end,
I see the monsters calling me in.
I say no and stand my ground, how long will this be.
When will I give in? It’s disguise as free will and laughs.
It's hidden behind good times and no regret.
The truth is saddening family members and goodbye notes.
It’s crying friends and new stories.
Attention wannabe hide lies and rumors
The monsters seem nice, why not say hi?

I now know I will never be enough.
I wish I was his ex.
He must have been really in love.
Watch me spread my wings,
He will regret this soon.
No, he won’t
I’m not this high school sweet hurt,
Not the one that makes him smile.
He wanted a rebound and I was easy to get too.
Thinking we would get married only to watch him leave in a minute.
I hope his ex understands he never fell out of love.
He tried to move on but his heart stayed.

I lost it all.
My heart was torn from the dark cloud.
My mind, twisted the most until everything was gone again.
Begging to stay,  but each day gets harder.
I lost it all.
The happiness that my body needs to survive.
I lost the smile but kept the pain.
One day this will be a story but right now I'm living in a dream.
Not sure if I will make it to the end.

I was his everything, or that’s what he said.
He liked other girls, but I didn’t want to believe it.
I held on too long, so he knew that I wouldn’t let go.
I wanted us to be the end game, but all he wanted it to was a fling.
This was a year ago. Why can’t I let go?
I hold wondering if he will come to me
He ever has, but I still wait in shallow and petty.

Her voice was as soft as cotton candy on a summer day.
Her body was like a river Beauty that never stop comings.
Her hair was smooth as lather chair.
My love for her only grow stronger each day.
I thought I couldn’t find my princess but all it took was waiting for the right one.
She is my world,
My happiness.

Love
Love has no limits and not hate.
Don’t stand there and tell me you love it when you don’t even know her.
What’s her favorite color?
What makes her happy on a Cloudy day?
I watch her grow each day learning new things.
One day I hope she takes my last name.
I watched her cry over you.
She has only smiled because of me.
She laughed at my stories.
I cried to see you leave her again.
I may be her best friend, but one day I will be her whole life.
Love is making sure she is happy and cooking her favorite things.
I never once told her to change because she is fantastic just this way.

My heart is healed, but my mind is shouting for help.
I look at everything like it’s a war, and the price is my life.
Wanting to be an adult but scared like a little kid.
Maybe it will get better, but what if perhaps it isn’t good enough.
I wish I was stronger.
Strong enough to live by my self, not needing help to survive.

I can’t look anymore,
All I see is mistakes of letting her go.
She wanted me to fight ,
I gave up after the first glare.
I didn’t want to be broken so I destroyed her instead.
She loved me but I didn’t want my feelings on the line.
Now I want her back.
Now I cry and she glows.

It’s my body
I tighten my breast to my chest with a thin rubber layer.
I stuff socks in my pants to pass the gender norms.
I listen that I’m not boy enough to pass but not girly sufficient to use the lady restroom.
My Brain is confused between making me happy or making my family ok.
I don’t want to hurt anyone, but I can’t live like this anymore.
I would instead run then stay another day as a woman.
My body is made for me.
My body is known to me.
My body is the only mine.

I’m sorry
I’m sorry I can’t be the perfect daughter because I’m not a girl.
I want to make you happy, but I’m slowly dying.
My mind keeps putting up a fight
I keep getting weaker.
I don’t want to fight with my self anymore
Why can’t I just shut up??
I want it to stop!
I want to be happy with our feeling scared!
But I can’t and I won’t
This is my new life.
I’m sorry for Changing, but I need to live.

I’m sorry
It's the losing words,
I give up and don’t want to fight.
I can’t take seeing mad faces so I lay myself down to get walked over.
After a while, I got used to it.
I learned how to hide my emotions
Behind a locked door that will never open.
Try all you got and see that it will never move
Not even an inch.
If I hit the floor, I can't go lower.

I talk, but no one listens.
I’m living for the future me.
The one that isn’t here yet,
If you see this, then we made it.
I did this all for you,
You deserve to have a chance.
I’m sorry that I got you this far
And nothing changed.
Promise me that it will be better.
Promise me that it was worth the wait.
Worth the suffering, crying, and blood loss.
The losing of friends and family.
Worth the game, we all play.

I had a locket meant for you.
Now it sits on the floor covered in tears.
I remember the first I love to the last goodbye.
The I will stay forever turning into quite whispers.
Texting everyday to passing in the halls like nothing ever happen.
I though I knew what love was but now I’m begging for that word back.

Is this love?
Fearing for the dark spot
Getting used to screaming sounding like music.
Hoping one day all of this will be gone.
He said he loved me.
Isn’t that enough?
The words are covered in lost love.
I love you, is turning into an empty lie
This is no dream just too tired to start over.
Wishing for the past to come back.

I need your smile that makes people brighter.
I need to hear your voice at least ten more times.
I need you at my wedding to tell the most random jokes.
I want you to be there for me when I get my next hear break. Or when I meet my forever person.
I need you to look at me one more time and tell me how you are feeling.
I need you not to go.
It’d too soon, and there is doing much more for you.
I need you to tell me that your life matters because it does.
So please don’t go.

Listen
Please
I promise to be fast.
Your life is in danger, so follow me.
The love of your life is the monster.
He hides behind a wall of sadness
So far, he won’t be seen.
Text, go ahead!
He won’t respond
You think he is busy, haha.
If he loved you, he would respond.
He is locked away in his mind.
But you still want to go back.
Ok
I tried to warn you.

I'm sorry I can't help it.
I fall too fast,
Too scared of rejection.
I wish I knew how to control my feelings about her.
My mind is racing,
Not knowing what will come next.
I'm fine, just being friends.
Tell me you won't leave.

I hate that I love you.
I didn’t ask to want to live,
now I don’t want to go.
I hear your voice and it makes
Me cry.
I never felt happy before this.
They see though my fake feelings
It’s  nothing but truths.
I love the moments I spend with him,
I hate that I want to live

I need her,
she is fine without me.
I miss her,
She doesn't know I'm here.
I want her,
She wants the other guy.
I like her,
She doesn't notice me.

I had to loose my other half to find my soulmate.
The break up was the hardest but the person I found was all worth it.
I didn’t like the pain now I have the world.
I gave up many months of laughs to fill it with forever memories.
He didn’t like my notes now she is begging for more.
He was afraid of emotion she is giving me all her love.
I gave up my world to gain my soulmate.
He was right I’m heart break closer to my forever home.

He loved me too until he found Someone else.
All he did was talk about her smile how it could light up the world.
How he wishes he could touch her body.
Acting like I wasn’t a foot way.
Wondering why I wasn’t good enough.
Why doesn’t he want this love anymore?
Why does he want me anymore.

I miss you.
I want to turn turn backwards to say hi one more time.
Why did you leave me after months of saying you would stay.
Was everything else lies or do you really mean what you said?
If that's true then do I feel like I part of my heart is gone after all of this.
I wish you said goodbye.

Give me time
I’m not over you.
This all just happen, stop asking me to be friends.
All I can say is give me a break.
I see you can move on. I loved you.
I guess you never did.
It’s been a year
I guess I’m just an old movie playing in the back of your mind.
Repaying on your bad days
But forgetting me on the good.
I wish this could change.
I can’t
I just can’t.

I found my other half,
The one that makes me fall deeper in love after every call.
It only takes a text to make me break apart in smiles.
They don’t know how hard I'm dying to meet them again.
It's a different type of love that makes your heart flutter.
Or your mind races, waiting for your phone to ring.
I found them again, and I'm not losing them this time.

Fires Burning late at night.
People talking and showing their true colors to each other.
The flirty boys and girls kissing and hoping no one sees but everyone notices.
It finally hit 2am,
Time to take all the confused people back home before any notices all the drinks are gone.
Come again they all say,
But no one remembers any of these nights.

Leave
Stop coming back
I said goodbye and I meant it .
I can’t stand seeing you without crying.
All the memories are still with me.
I try to kick them out but it’s stuck on replay.
I listen to the text messages when I sleep,
I guess I just wanted you to stay
I close my eyes and hope it this was all a nightmare.
I wake up and he’s not next to me.

Please go away anxiety
I don't want to hear how terrible I am.
It's not like I even care; I already know those things.
He forced it down my throat like old soup waiting for
Me to shallow the words.
If I throw it up, he will say it all over again until I lye in defeat
He laughs while I cry on the bed getting everything wet.
Knowing I won't fight back to scared for conflict and fights.

Please be careful.
I'm similar to legos.
Takes days to put together,
Only seconds break.
If I break, odds are you won't stay to help build me up again.
So instead, you will leave my broken body lying on the floor, saying I'm not worth your time.
I'm similar to a lego set; you want me until they see how long it will be until I'm fixed.

Let me go.
It's time for me to leave.
Please don't look back on us.
It wasn't meant to be after all the "I love you" and " we will be together forever"
Let me go.
Don't waste tears on me, I'm not worth it.
Try to remember the memories that I didn't ruin.
Let me go.
Leave flowers when you pass by.
Don't hold on to the pass for too long.
It's not worth the space in your memories
Let me go,
I promise it's time.

If I say goodbye would that be good enough for you?
Would you finally let me free or keeping holding be back?
I need to start over but you won't let me go.
I know we been though a lot but I finally feel ready to start something new.
If you let me go I promise it will be for the better.
I held on to the memories realizing it was all in my head.
That you didn't care about me has much as I did.
If I finally say goodbye would you let me be free of this fake love.