I feel the disease and curse of hate creeping in
I need a release from the pain and hurt
Hatred is but an outlet for helplessness I know
But there must be a reason why I feel this way

When I'm myself
I shock and appal the general populace
With words I move people, they physically push back
I may be slow to anger, but I ain't slack

The current norm is to be a deviant
And I've seen their sick behaviour and mindset
One day they're ******* up to you, flaunting ***
They dry you up, then move onto the next

We don't want violence, so STOP MILITARIZING WORDS
Y'all are a bunch of confused birds, looking for prey
Acting oppressed...
The only one oppressing you is the truth, cause you ain't blessed

Acting oppressed... Try being persecuted
Cause the only thing you're fighting for is yourself
Try fighting for a cause that's greater than your own
That which will scold you when you're doing wrong

Or keep biting the hand that feeds
Since you reject authority, it will now be blind to your needs
And when you're left with only people like you,
Your concrete paradise will truly be a filthy zoo

I used to see you as a shining light
Dazzling at sight, notoriously glorious
I knew I wanted to get closer and closer
Until we stood victorious

Now I see the outline of your body
A silhouette with your back to me
Getting smaller and smaller
Until you fade away

Some call themselves lions
Some call themselves wolves
Some are like rhinos
With long sturdy horns
I am a sheep
I am a deer
When danger tries to creep
I steer clear
I will wait patiently
For the prophecy to come true
When all animals will lie comfortably
Amidst the morning dew
The wolf will eat plants
The lion will eat sod
And all will understand
The glory of God
Then I as the deer
And I as the sheep
With laughter and cheer
Will no longer weep
There will be no fear
Cause with my hooves in the soil
I will gallop above the heap
Of the dead evil souls

I feel so tired, I want to sleep so badly
Question is,
Will I be sleeping, or hiding?

Get away from me
Get out of my head
I'd rather the problem be before my eyes instead

I am sad and sick
Tears to my eyes it brings
No one will speak to me about important things

Surely somewhere out there
There are those who understand
How to live in peace and love, hand in hand

When I was young I used to see ghosts and take fright
I couldn't go into the basement by myself at night
They appeared as faces and bodies before my sight
But not like humans; some would fly at me and bite
Others, insane, would cry and lament their pain.
So I learned to fall asleep to music and TV to help my fear
To stop the voices and visions, to make them disappear.
This went on, year after year
But one day I grew up, and made it my mission
To face and defeat these apparitions.
Yet to my shock and surprise, they grew wise
Instead of frightening me with deformed grins,
They now accuse me of all my sins.

I lie in bed as the shadows creep
Across the wall, as I fall asleep
With closed eyes, I drift away
And let go of the memories of the day

Next thing I know, I'm in a new place
Where angels are happy to see my face
Where my wishes come true and I smile
If only for a little while.

"What have you done"
Is a question I run from
Ever since that fateful crime
I committed on a dime
Then my conscience turned on me
And the darkness covered me
So in shades is where I am
Blackened, *****, little man
What once was a lamp has been put out
Blank minded as I walk about
Protect yourself; look, and see;
Don't become a man like me.

When will compassion come to fashion?
When will life become valuable,
And death be unfashionable?
Images of death should make you short on breath.
But we don't feel their pain,
We look after our own gain.
When will humility excel stupidity?
If you're humble your feet won't stumble.
Certain things should give you the shakes
There is no shortage of mistakes.

My soul is fine, it's my flesh that hurts
Divided again, on the outskirts of pain
My poor flesh... Trying to save it in vain
The discomfort makes me insane
How long must I endure
This fear of dying, when death is the cure
People take advantage of my curse
They will transport me in a hearse,
Then lay out the urn, and set me aflame
But I want to let go of my body and name;
We all must let go; there's no one to blame.

While truth suffocates under a mass of lies,
I struggle to breathe an honest word.
I envision a look
A mad stare which drives me off.

When the voice of greed calls
I remember my liberal ways
To be like the people
To share in their struggle.

I can say and do what I want
So I keep the damage to a minimum.
Is it a phase,
Will I ever snap out?

Who is backwards?
Is it enough to say "I had a share in life"
To have a share in a better world?
Yet we've all sinned.

Through inaction I have sinned,
But I am licking my wounds
Hoping for a healthier mind
Waiting for when I'm better.

Pain caused by misunderstanding
It's what I gained from mishandling my life.
When fear turns my stomach and I feel hot,
I try to imagine I'm someone I'm not.

Pain makes me lose control and twitch.
Is there a soul who can get me out of this ditch?
I've tried fighting, I've bloodied my fists;
I tried biting my tongue, but the pain persists.

I look to God, asking for help with this,
Meanwhile he acts like he doesn't exist.
My world consists of an impassable wall,
When I sleep, I'm curled up into a ball.

I'm too insane to work or sing.
I want for nothing, cause I hate everything.
All I can do is patiently endure,
Like Jesus said, and resist the accuser.

I saw you going down the wide path,
The path that leads to destruction and hell.
I tried to stop you, I tried to save you
But good deeds and evil mix like
Water and oil.

I try to understand
I try to wrap my head around
What happened when I fell face down
Into the ground.
You're supposed to trust in something
Don't wanna lose more sleep
If only I could trust in something
But my scars are fresh and deep
I tried to trust in something
I am but a sheep
I brought all the trust I could bring
And got ****** over an edge so steep.
Yet as much as I try, as much as I creep around,
I still can't understand why my face hit the ground.

I found myself in an unfamiliar place
I was fiending for love, then I saw her face
She was pretty and fair, with blonde hair
Pretty to the sight, she was wearing white that day.

I saw another strange thing:
A human with armour, flying without wings.
I tried to chase after him  into the sky,
But I could not keep up, and before I could sigh
He transformed me into a statue, and I fell from up high.

I then saw the two anomalies conversing with each other;
The man came to me and said brother,
This girl wants a *******, what do you say?
I said, while there is still time, let sin have its day.

He said, do you want to lose your soul?
Do you want to go down to the hole?
As we were speaking, a third person appeared;
The man gave his attention to him,
And they neared to converse.
They spoke as if in verse, then one said to the other, enough;
They turned away from me and flew off.

So I went to the woman, and we found a bed;
As I was about to go into her, she turned red.
Her hair fell off, she grew horns and a tail;
At the sight of her I grew dizzy and pale.
i shrieked and my knees grew weak,
And I could smell her - she started to reek.

Then I woke up, and started to think
About the folly of lust, and what it brings;
The sin of fornication is one we should avoid,
It’s something I’m learning with my time in the void.

You gave me signs,
But my heart was busy tasting spirits and wines.
You gave me warning after warning,
But I was looking elsewhere each morning.
Then you took her from me,
Yet still I didn’t see
My anger, my apathy, the hypocrisy.
You’ve taken my wife
You took my other half
You’ll take my life
It’s all I have.
Take my soul,
Slaughter me like a calf,
And swallow me whole.
I tried my best,
Yet failed the test.
Purify my heart,
And grant me some rest.
For it will take time
To heal this injured heart of mine.

Don’t ask what to buy to brighten a room
Just change your mindset to lighten the gloom.
It’s a choice to trust and lust
After things that will turn to dust.

An object fought for will be forsaken,
A thing sought after will be taken away.
Look how it goes to waste,
Losing its smell, losing its taste.

Search your soul;
Have you noticed those pinned to the floor?
The things they bought have come to life,
Cutting and slashing their hope like a knife.

Walls can shrink,
And ghosts dwell in places you wouldn’t think.
Remember those ghosts, which things couldn't save;
For what they loved most, has become their grave.

Sick outside and in
I have red bumps on my skin
Off to loony bin

As the great light shines on,
I see my path, and glorify the sun.
And as I go about my own way,
I look up, and praise the day.
When its my turn to die,
I’ll give thanks for the sky.

As the great light shines on,
I can dance and laugh and have fun.
For a moment I forget my hearts decay,
And the fact that I can’t stay.
For there will come a time when I say goodbye,
Yet I’ll always be thankful for the sky.

Reflecting light, my body’s beaming
Too bad I talk with little meaning.
My testimony’s hard to bear
Say the truth I do not dare.
For inside my rotten core
Guilt and shame, forevermore.
I humble myself, get eaten up,
I pride myself, get beaten down.
I cannot smile, cannot frown,
Cannot swim, cannot drown.
Cannot live, cannot die
When I talk, I always sigh.
Luckily this world is temporary
I don’t belong, that’s plain to see
How I long to go home...

Take my strength, take my pride
Take my home when you need to hide
Take my heart, take my soul
You need to eat, swallow me whole

Now you’re gone, and left me bare
I lost my strength, and tore at my hair
Then I felt you did not care
But the truth is you were never there

The burden of love is this
It won’t fill your heart with bliss
Or am I loving wrong,
Because I love my enemies?
They drag my heart across the floor
As my feet run to and fro
While my bones shake to the core
Can’t save myself, what’s more
I ask myself what have I done
I am like a setting sun
I failed once, with everyone
Now I offer myself for free
I’ll listen kindly but they don’t see
My own power frightens me
I’m more enlightened than they’ll ever be

The scientist thought he was smart and clever
Until he got a runny nose
He couldn’t even cure the common cold

****** got applause
Jesus got the cross

There are two wolves inside you
Only one is good
Feed the good wolf

Don’t try to save the whole world, that’s dumb
Just look after yourself and your loved ones, ***

I rode the waves, got caught up in the moment
In those days, I felt like I was flying through space
Without a care, I did things most wouldn’t dare
But then the waves receded, left me flopping  on the shore
And shaken to the core, when I realized I did things I abhor
I have nothing more to say
The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away

I run because I can’t stand being near you
If I run faster, it might dry my tears
But I’ll never get back the years I’ve wasted on you

A lack of understanding, a loss of faith
I hate myself, I vow to never be the same
Since you left, I'm not having fun
I'm under attack, from what I've done

So now I feel lust, it won't go away
I want *** so bad, every day
At night I dream of it, in the morning I forget
And try my best to be celibate

I want love, but not really
Can't stop using habitually
My time's running out, the clock's ticking
I waste my days on what's addicting

I've lost it all before, but now I've lost my mind
I hate all women, even if they're kind
I lost my place on earth, I've lost my grace,
but really I've fallen from high up in space.

Someone help me, for I am lost
Save me, O God, in whom I trust
The task is great, but if there's a cure
Take away my thoughts impure

Still the mind, be silent for once
Bind the thoughts, they've run their course
Slam the door, on the inner voice
For peace's sake, your must make this choice.
Calm the waters within you, and then you will find
There's a force outside you, that's loving and kind
Its presence is true, its power sublime
let it wash away the cobwebs and grime.

As my heart plummets, I feel its weight
Oh my stomach... it's not what I ate
I'm in a trance, can you relate?
Give me a chance, let me reiterate

If I deigned to inform you, if I were to say
I'll die alone; would you then pray
Or would you be inconvenienced for a day?
Let me say it a different way

I walk in the dark, bruises and  bumps
Without any talk, my body jumps
As my heart pumps, I'm falling fast
Until the thump, which I feel last

When I lie, I cover my head;
I lie face-down, and wish I was dead.
Curiosity killed the cat, it wasn't sought;
In my belly it went, without a thought.
You say I’m fat, I say I’m not.
Your interest in me, it makes me hot.
I say I am, you say I’m not.
You say I’m poor, what I have I bought.
If you think I’m bad, to single me out,
Consider this person who flouts about.

I cover my eyes when I walk the street;
I scribble notes, then toss the sheet.
My lustful heart, it can't be true;
If you take me in, I’ll nurture you.
I walk around, searching for warmth;
Please let me in, out of the storm.
My road leads to you, out here it’s cold;
I’m feeling blue; I’ll do as I’m told.
My liver’s battered, I’ve lost my soul.
My heart is shattered, my stomach’s a hole.
I’ll work for food, I’ll clean your clothes.
I’ll wash your dishes, I’ll clean your kitchen;
and If you hit me again, I’ll stop my *******.

You better stop *******, and get back in the kitchen.
Use your tongue, lickin you’ll clean my toilet bowl.
I own your soul; I own your life and all your holes
and all your curves; don’t get on my nerves.
When I spit, you’ll open your mouth;
get on my couch, let’s go for a joyride.
Open wide, and in it slides;
I’ll take you out, there’s nowhere to hide.
you are mine; get in line.
I’m going out, when I get back
I’d better see you at work, not in slack.
When I get back, we’ll go somewhere
Anywhere, there’s no one who dares to confront me.

You say there’s no one to confront you, I’ll take you out
I’ll slide it in, the cracks in the pavement will swallow your blood.
And then I’ll dance in a trance
I prance on fools like you, your blood makes me drool.
Your blood makes me wet, a warm sweat.
I’m always watching, you're sought out;
from your own ******, you won’t be bought out.
Your last breath, I’ll breathe it in;
You’ll pay with your death, for your heinous sin.
I don’t fear jail; I want to see you wail;
violence is my calling, I’ll watch you fall.
I’ll write you a song, then chill with my ****.
Cause when I'm gone, I'll know I’ve done no wrong!

No, you won’t do it!
I’ve taken your knife and threw it!
Can’t you see I’m alone,
that I have no one else, cool it!
I remember the story of how you were born;
The day I let you out of my sight I abhor.
I adore you; you will be mine.
I’ll whip you in shape if you fall out of line.
What a dumb thought of a crime, forget it;
I’ll make you some food and you’ll eat it.
I’ve made your bed, and turned on your tv
By tomorrow morning you will clearly see
that you are mine and were made for me.

He was made for you, but what about me?
Your youngest son? Hello? Look mommy!
I’m doing well in school, I make good grades
I watch you all day, so don’t forget about me!
My friends in school all love me,
Hey! Look! I made a drawing!
And dad let me borrow his playstation 3!
Wanna watch some TV? I like cooking
I’ll clean after I eat, are you looking?
****! When you tucked me in last night,
did you think about how much I fight?
I hate you, you’re no good to me
You are a *****, a no good ******
Now cook me some **** food, I’m hungry.

I pray all day, I’ve so much to say;
I close my eyes, to think of a way.
When I reflect, I'm with my sect
Then I go home, where I’m left unchecked.
The other day I tripped, and the crow cawed;
the tree shook, yet the daylight was broad.
I sleep face-down, or curled like a hook;
What I have I took, when no one looked.
Show me a sign god, don’t give me that look.
When I read a book, I see nothing; I’m blind!
I may be dying, but you're unkind!
I am fish bait, that's walked off the shelf;
For the end I'll wait no longer; I’ll do it myself!

A boy appeared, so bright and pure
He thought forever he'd endure
A girl adored his charming grace
She knew his ways, he knew his place

He wanted to give her a piece of his heart
Hoping she'd give him hers so they'd never part.
But he knew not how to say no;
Infatuated and unguided, he gave her his soul.

She took his soul, like food on a plate;
She swallowed it whole, alone she ate.
And when he came to see her face,
she turned away, and left the place.

After that a part of him slowed,
not knowing why, so slightly it showed.
His graceful light was being robbed from him,
A part he thought would never fade.

Not wanting to be seen, he no longer walked the land
His knees became weak, he could hardly stand
His face so pale, and weight he gained
He turned to alcohol to help his pain

But then the darkness began to fade
He didn't know he was dreaming, that he'd awake
He knew he must not choose such a fate
Chapter closed, he'll have to wait

When a person stumbles, the catch their fall;
if a person is fallen, can they get up at all?

What do we get
What do we earn
When you forget
What did you learn

Our services spurned
You left us to shake
Left us to burn
Left us to break

If I had a wish
I would not be a warrior
My friends sleep with fish,
Food for the walrus

To love someone who flirted with you
without feel a thing
To love someone who deserted you
after taking everything
To love someone who hurt you
and left you on the floor
Takes more strength than anything
I've ever done before.