Ground shaking beneath me
Time crumbles in my hand
The speed of light strikes
And slows my list of chance
I know I am young
The path is way ahead
But there is so much to be done
My dreams, career, and life
Depend on me right now
Yet my “living in the moment”
Is long gone somehow
What am is supposed to do?
Should I have fun and live?
Find a person to spend my time with?
Building a plan for when I quit ?

Hold me
And never let go
I need some warmth
To let my tears flow

Time is flying
People fighting
Till the suns low

Hold me
As the lights dim
Don’t go running
Like they all did

Gave up on romance
Gave up on love
Gave up on everything
That I thought of
Maybe it’s stupid
Maybe it’s tough
But I thought that
It would be us
But I still stare at the stars every night
Hoping one day you will knock on my door
Telling me you saw me
And wanted to know more
So here I am sitting
Just waiting for you
Baby just make my dream come true

I gave you my time
I gave you my heart
I gave you everything
That I thought of
Maybe it’s something
And maybe it’s not
But I thought that
It would be us
Yet I still gaze at the rain drops out of the room
And blush at thought they remind me of you
Holding me closely
Right in your arms
So here I am sitting
Just waiting for you
Baby just make my dream come true

And every time I came closer
You were at the ends of the earth
Our lives kept blocking
And I was tired of the search

So I gave up on romance
I gave up on love
But I still stare at the stars every night

I want to scream at the world
I want to shut all doors
I want to be left alone
I want to break the rules
I want to shatter the glass
I want to yell at my wounds
I want to erase my past

Your idea of life
Will be reflected on your journey
No one has an easy path
But some carry on head high
While others cry at the beginning line
So think positively
No negative possibility
Feed your faith
It is not late
For what is meant for you shall come
In the right time, state, and place

It started in the summer
The day things changed
The unlocking of a heart
To a thing that was unmeant
The rush of tears and ache
Along all the sleepless nights
Wondering what went wrong

I know your out there
Somewhere wondering around
Chatting with your friends
Or maybe sleeping in
I don’t know you yet
Your likes and turn offs
The personality traits you hold on
But I already miss you
I wanna hold you in my arms
Although I have never met you

Diamond rain drops flow
Down the streaming river
Of heartbreak and sorrow
Wondering will this be forever

I am in this space
Where peace and anger roam
A place where I feel wise
But also think too soon
My head keeps on bleeding
In all possible directions
Thinking it will be lost
But in reality still has its connections
My heart feels heavy
Yet rests with ease
Having faith in its creator
Knowing he will please
My body seems to be growing
But time seems to go back
To a place of childlike behavior
With an adult’s act

Getting stuck in the artistic sense
Is very frustrating and draining
You feel like your talent is for rent
Not something you possess
One day it’s all pages filled up
The next day you want to give up
It always seems that the more we feel
Wither it’s happy or sad  
The more we crack our creative shield
Maybe that’s the point of it all
The journey of art
Should pick you up when you fall

Being kind is hard
It can leave you nasty scars
But it’s still worth it
Because that’s who you are

Everyone has that one to laugh with
Sit on the stair case and give a small kiss

Everyone has that one to talk to
Dance with and say “ I love you”

Everyone has that one to go around the world
Explore the cities and play with the birds

Everyone has that one to cry to
Open their heart about what they went through

I see and I learn from them
Wishing I have the one
Wanting their life’s gem

Cause everyone has that one to settle with
Buy a big house and watch their kids

Everyone has that one to goof around
Bantering about the things they found

Everyone has that one to make things right
Drives them crazy and whisper through the night

I see and I learn from them
Wishing I have the one
Wanting their life’a gem
Wondering if it will even happen
And when?

Stars aligned
Shining bright
Crystal snow
City glow
Slow pace
Beautiful face
Red roses
Looking flawless
Warm covers
Watching lovers
Butterflies tingle
Scents linger
Candles flicker
This can’t get better

I feel grey
It’s just one of those days
Not white or black
Not happy or sad
Just grey

The drops of rain
Covering the streets
The smell of coffee
Warming the air
The slowing of thoughts
Bringing the peace
The sound of the car engine
Lurking in your chair
The shades of dark blue
Settle with ease
The emptiness of noise
Which is so rare
The state of happiness
That I can’t leave

Learn to be alone
Learn to be happy
Learn to be satisfied
Learn to be you
Don’t waste your time
Thinking about how and who?

The more I look into your eyes
The crazier I get
Realizing I will never
Be the person to fit
All these dreams and fantasies
You have already set
What should I do
Knowing your the person I will never get

Words of wisdom were once said to me
“Mind your own business”

Might seem a bit tacky
Might sound a bit rude

But inner peace is only found
When you focus on your own world.

I got options A,B, and C
But what should I choose?

I still can’t clearly see
Which option is a win or lose

My future is on the line
And I must do what is must

But for the first time
I just feel lost…

A small romantic gesture
Is all you need

To block out the world
And watch people leave

Listening to the hollow whispers
And that one song that makes you blush

You feel the beating drums in your ears
You feel the sudden rush

You try to look away
But you keep your gaze

As if roses were blooming in their eyes
And you can’t break the pace

A small romantic gesture
They make

Can make you feel
Like you haven’t walked for days

A sweet scent of vanilla and musk
Fills the entire room

You don’t know if this is it
Or is it too soon

Mistakes and wrecks were done before
A heart can only bear much

So how is it still so weak and tender
To a single romantic touch ?

One person’s sadness
Is another person’s happiness

One person’s want
Is another person’s need

One person’s reality
Is another person’s dream

Do you see me ?
No you can’t
Do you see me
For who I am
Or do you see
What you want me to be
A person you desire
That’s not me

I lost myself
Pondering in my thoughts
What it is
And what’s not

I miss you
Although I haven’t meet you
I need you
Although I haven’t seen you
I love you
Although I haven’t known you

I am not sad
I am not sad about the lies you told me
I am not sad about the ways you fooled me
I am not sad about the fact you left me
I am disappointed
I am disappointed at the memories we made
I am disappointed at the time I have waste
I am disappointed at the person you became

Sun goes down
Stars shine bright
Galaxies spread
Through the night

Hold my hand
Bring me close
Music starts
Playing the notes

As we dance
Under the moon
Floating in space
Gently in June

Clouds and hues
Cover our feet
Hearts listen
To the beat

Calmness builds up
Eyes are close
Glowing ember
Starts to grow

Lost in time
You are the one
Said the three words
That I said to none

Sometimes I take the ease
And turn it into a battle field

Ignoring the blessings I got
Just wanting what I want

Building walls up high
Between my happiness and I

Keep thinking about tomorrow
Daggers filled with grieve and sorrow

Why can’t I just turn my head around
And enjoy life for what it is now

Magical spirits of the night
Take me to the raising light
Where no human has a sight
And all things glow bright

A burden in my heart
Has prevented me from speaking
As my words can cut through diamond
And still is not enough
To express the heavy burden
That is in my heart

Love is blind
Love is pain
Love is intensely
Both beautiful and strange

Do I have regrets?
It always starts with a yes
And ends with a no
For the things I wish have happened
We’re not meant to be
And the things I wished to never
We’re absolutely crucial
To form, grow, and stand
The beautiful person I am

Speaking is a sign of weakness
Silence is a sign of weakness

Running is a sign of weakness
Staying is a sign of weakness

Love is a sign of weakness
Hate is a sign of weakness

Quitting is a sign of weakness
Pursuing is a sign of weakness

People will always try to define you as weak
Whenever they want, whenever they seek

So do what feels right and fine
And ignore their “signs”

Sometimes I am on the verge
On the verge to cry
On the verge to break
On the verge to die
For all I really want
Is someone by my side

A candy corner filled with treats
All eating and all laughing
As I came closer in delight
Of all the sweets I can get
An old woman reached down
To get the box of treats she fed
But came back up as a witch
With grey strikes on her hair
A gloomy wrinkly face
And darkness cursed in the air
She took what was in her hand
And instantly she stabbed
As I woke up with my hip in pain
This nightmare has left me faint

I want what they have
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what they have
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what they have

And as they all looked back at me and exhaled
I want what she has
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what she has
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what she has

And at that I slowly rested my eyes and said
Maybe I don’t want what they have
Maybe I don’t feel so bad
The part of what makes me glad
Is right where I stand
And not having what they have

Life is hard
It has never been easy
But the greater the hardship
The greater the reward
If the door closes
The gates will open
If the rain sheds
The flowers will bloom
And we are just like the sun
It goes down and comes right back up

It’s like a race against time
“Should I quit the fight?”
“Or should I hold tight?”

Open endings in movies are always amusing
Some people decide that it’s a happy ending
The guy gets the girl
They save the world
They are still alive
They still thrive

While others decide it’s more of a dramatic ending
The guy doesn’t get the girl
Sacrifices are made to save the world
This person is dead
And the story comes to an end

Maybe our endings just reflect what we expect for ourselves?

Patience is always the key
It is what we need to receive
It is to get what’s meant to be
Not through rush
But by patience and trust

Picture the brightest light
Reflecting the crescent moon
Under the gleaming night
Hearing the sweet calm tunes
Holding the stars very tight
And making the haze swoon

I am changing
I am growing
I am learning
I am knowing
I am doing my best
To be my best

I am resting
I am working
I am focused
I am earning
I am doing my constant
To be my constant

I am scared
I am effecting
I am worried
I am reflecting
I am doing my understanding
To be my understanding

I am either fire or ice
There is no in between
I am either below zero
Or a flame you can see

Grey feelings is what I feel
No colors at all
Desperately wanting to heal

Believe in yourself
You got nothing to lose
Just hold your head up high
It all depends on you

I took my first step, letting you down with what I did
pushed you far and then I watched you fall

But you took the key, never setting my heart free
You just stood up and left with it all

I know it’s too late
I know there is not a chance

I know it’s not faith
But you just don’t understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

“Just take a sip, from the poison that you did”
Never felt so pathetically small

sent so many letters, hoping things will get better
Thought you would finally answer my call

I know it’s not much
I know there is not a chance

But I still have that rush
And you don’t seem to understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Even after all this time I know we both can
I still think of you I still feel you hand

Even though we’re far apart a thousand miles
I still care for you I still see your smile

Cause I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Day and night
Disappear out of sight
Brown, white, black, and other
Spots, stripes, and plain cover
Run around the house
“Oh! I saw a mouse”
Eyes wide and focused
Trying it’s best not to get noticed
As it’s curious fur brushes the air
And it’s naughty whiskers flare
“It’s time to go to sleep”
“Don’t touch me you freak!”
“Stroke my head and repeat”
“Give me something better to eat”
Indeed they are prestigious creatures

Why is it back??
That feeling of despair
I thought it was gone
Disappeared into thin air

Not everything is ok
Not even close to ok
I didn’t get the thing I wanted the most
And that makes me feel unk
That makes me feel heartbroken and crushed
And a little bit tired
I really wanted this
But it didn’t happen
And what’s worse
Is that I can’t imagine my life without this thing
And that is not ok
But yet deep inside of me
I have a little just a little faith
Ik that god is watching
And he knows that for me it’s not ok
But it will be ok
In fact it is ok right now
At this very second
Bc this thing was not ok for me
Nor I was ok for it
And so god knows
What is ok and what is not
And hence thinking about that
Just the fact that god
Sees, listens, and knows
What is ok for me
And has already written
What is meant to be ok to me
Makes me feel ok

Black and white
Glitter falls
As the angels drop
From the sky above
Glow and rise
Echo calls
Through the colored wind
Clouds start to mend

You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the pain I felt
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the secrets I held
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the heart I killed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I have seen
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I dreamed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I bleed
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my rage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my cage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my ache
You are not patient
Oh if only you were aware
If only you just listened and cared
You will ask “ how do you bare?”