Grey feelings is what I feel
No colors at all
Desperately wanting to heal

Believe in yourself
You got nothing to lose
Just hold your head up high
It all depends on you

I took my first step, letting you down with what I did
pushed you far and then I watched you fall

But you took the key, never setting my heart free
You just stood up and left with it all

I know it’s too late
I know there is not a chance

I know it’s not faith
But you just don’t understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

“Just take a sip, from the poison that you did”
Never felt so pathetically small

sent so many letters, hoping things will get better
Thought you would finally answer my call

I know it’s not much
I know there is not a chance

But I still have that rush
And you don’t seem to understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Even after all this time I know we both can
I still think of you I still feel you hand

Even though we’re far apart a thousand miles
I still care for you I still see your smile

Cause I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Day and night
Disappear out of sight
Brown, white, black, and other
Spots, stripes, and plain cover
Run around the house
“Oh! I saw a mouse”
Eyes wide and focused
Trying it’s best not to get noticed
As it’s curious fur brushes the air
And it’s naughty whiskers flare
“It’s time to go to sleep”
“Don’t touch me you freak!”
“Stroke my head and repeat”
“Give me something better to eat”
Indeed they are prestigious creatures

Why is it back??
That feeling of despair
I thought it was gone
Disappeared into thin air

Not everything is ok
Not even close to ok
I didn’t get the thing I wanted the most
And that makes me feel unk
That makes me feel heartbroken and crushed
And a little bit tired
I really wanted this
But it didn’t happen
And what’s worse
Is that I can’t imagine my life without this thing
And that is not ok
But yet deep inside of me
I have a little just a little faith
Ik that god is watching
And he knows that for me it’s not ok
But it will be ok
In fact it is ok right now
At this very second
Bc this thing was not ok for me
Nor I was ok for it
And so god knows
What is ok and what is not
And hence thinking about that
Just the fact that god
Sees, listens, and knows
What is ok for me
And has already written
What is meant to be ok to me
Makes me feel ok

Black and white
Glitter falls
As the angels drop
From the sky above
Glow and rise
Echo calls
Through the colored wind
Clouds start to mend