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Grace E Jan 2021
Hope, you vile monster
You evil snake
Whispering my desires
As if the dawns about to break
I’ve trusted you, hope
I gave you the keys
But hope where were you?
You failed me
Please hope
If you must stay
I beg of you hope
Don’t lead me astray
Grace E Sep 2020
Often times the villain
Was once a victim
Subjected to abuse or neglect
Often in the pursuit of killing their monsters
They become a monster themselves
Grace E Dec 2024
I soberly behold the march of time
And observe its inevitable nature
I see the wrinkles deepening in my mothers eyes
And hear my fathers voice become weaker
I see the sterling hairs shine silvery in my red tresses
I see the fatigue in my husbands muscles from years of hard work
And it makes me sad, at first, for the imposing truth of mortality is evident
But it also fills my heart with profound joy
To have life at all and love so fierce
To hold the hands of my mother and father while they’re still warm
And enjoy the lingering days of my youth while I have it
To fully feel the embrace of my husband and his remaining strength
I swear to burn with life as long as I have it
And to love beyond reasonable comprehension while I still can
My life will not end with a flicker
It will end with a magnificent blaze of heat and unbridled love
Grace E Jun 2021
Your hands are full of violence
Your mind is filled with rage
Your glance is like a hungry lion
Pacing in its cage
Grace E Feb 2020
The universe doesn’t yearn for you.
No, I promise you, it doesn’t.
Not one nebula or kaleidoscopic splash of imploded stardust across the black canvas of space cares for you.
Not one fiery ball of gas suspended by gravity cares.
The universe didn’t do anything for you.
The universe didn’t hear you.
The universe doesn’t know your name.
But, it’s Maker on the other hand...
Grace E Dec 2023
I never loved you
I worshiped the monument
I built of you in my heart
But it wasn’t you
A statue of a man isn’t the man himself
But a chunk of rock, steeped in myth and fantasy
And now I’m tearing the idol down
Grace E Jul 2019
I don’t know where I fell out of love.
I don’t know if I ever fell into it, fully.
I don’t know if I was just comfortable.
I don’t know if it’s just that I knew I’d be taken care of.
I don’t know if I cheated myself out of true love.
Or if this IS true love...
I don’t know how I can be so blithe about it all.
After all the bitterness that has built up and sunk into my heart towards you.
I don’t know when I fell out of love.
Or if I am in love.
Or if I ever was.
Or if I am in indifference veiled with a coat of emotional dependency.
I don’t know if this is love.
I don’t know.
Grace E Aug 2020
He punches her in the mouth,
Then buys her flowers.
True love, no doubt ❤️
Grace E Oct 2021
I hope I am as woven into the tapestry of your thoughts, as you are mine.
I hope you can hear my laughter echoing in your head and makes you smile upon remembrance.
I hope certain smells remind you of me and make you yearn for my presence, crave my company.
I hope you talk about me to your closest confidants and analyze our moments together.
I hope as your falling asleep, my face flashes across your heavy eyes.
I hope I bring hope to you when you’re feeling sad or discouraged.
I hope I am to you, what you are to me.
Hope..
Grace E Jul 2020
I’m closing up my heart for the night
I’m locking the doors,
But please know, I’ll always leave a light on for you
And a spare key hidden under the mat
If you ever are ready to come stay
In the home that is beating your name
With its every thud in my chest
Grace E May 2019
Jasmine oil ran thick and yellow
Down her wrist
She dabbed it on her neck
And it flowed like honey
And smelled like summer
She adorned her fingers in rings
And tied her hair
In extravagant clips
And combs
Her youth radiant
Her pride swelled
Her rich black hair cascading

Then...

She felt the years slip through her fingers like sand in an hour glass
Wasted sand
Wasted time

She spent her youth
Spent her beauty
Spent her health
And stood withered before her mirror
The reflection was strange
The image starring back, foreign
An alien,
The black dye in her hair faded
Her hair frizzled from years of tormenting it
Her face heavy from years of drinking
Her figure altered from excessive party’s and feasting

How she wished
She could turn the hourglass
But it was immovable
Grace E Feb 2020
The saying goes
“I love you to the moon and back”
But, men have walked on the moon
And can walk on it again.
Therefore, I would never set such an easily accomplished boundary as the moon.
I love you infinitely.
Grace E Feb 2019
His left arm
The arm closest to his heart
Was placed beneath my head
Supporting me
His right arm
His dominant arm
Was embracing my torso
Protecting me
I’ve never felt so satisfied
Wrapped tightly
Knotted in his warmth and strength
Nothing can hurt me
Not here
Not in this moment
Not so long as he’s around
“His left arm is under my head and his right arm embraces me. Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and does of the field, do not arouse love until it so desires.” - Song of Solomon 2:6-7
Grace E Aug 2019
We delved into a love
From which we never recovered
Grace E Jan 2019
You’re a shade of brilliant earth
I, a hue of sapphire sea
O, the gravitational pull
A pale pink philosophy
The relentless ebb and flow
that exists between you and me

You’re a refining element
I, here to fufill your wishes
The night brings soft caresses
And chamomile kisses
Rolling in our white sheets
In a passion so delicious
Grace E Oct 2022
The gentle passage of time continues.
Rhythmic seconds that dance by, unnoticed for the most part.
With a consistent and familiar beat.
Tick.. Tock..Tick.. Tock..
I wait for that gentle passage of time
To slowly erode you from my heart
To chip away and wear down
The lingering memory of you.
But I’ve found here, in my time,
A peculiar truth.
True love, cannot be dampened by time.
A flame, that once it’s lit, can only be reduced
To a simmer, but never truly quenched.
And whenever I see you, talk to you, smell your coat.
I find the love I have conceived for you, has only deepened with time.
My respect for you has only doubled.
That is how I know I love you more than I have ever loved any other.
Compared to what I feel for you. All other “loves” where merely a dress rehearsal for the real thing.
And in my full confidence and assurance can say,
I’ve never loved another, in my time.
Grace E Apr 2019
The small ship rocks
The sun beating down
Beaming off the glistening water
A thousand sun sparkles
Break across the surface, dancing.
Below,
Depth.
Who knows what monsters
Or dead mans bones may be concealed yet
Beneath this playful, Pacific surface,
Even so, I pull off my t-shirt
And dive in
There’s no bottom, not for miles down at least
But I splash and flip
Plunge under and back up again
I’ve always had a knack
For going too deeply into things
I should be afraid of.
My friends smile like angels at me
And soon they’re all playing with me
In the deep
Grace E Jun 2021
To say my heart beats faster when you come close
Would be a wild understatement
You make the foundations of my soul quake
You make tremors happen in the part of me that is immaterial
You have the power to move me
A presence that animates me
I’m both frightened of you
And drunk on you
I am utterly enchanted
Sublimely suffocated
Intrinsically intoxicated by you
Grace E Jun 2019
It’s not that I don’t love you
It’s just that, you’re suffocating me..
Listen, I adore your pants off, but please leave me the hell alone for now. Love you. ❤️
Grace E Sep 2020
That’s where you went wrong darling,
You were trying to hide your feelings,
But you looked into my eyes
And splashed around in their blue green pool
I held that gaze and didn’t retract
And I knew exactly who you were in an instant
My energy attached to yours
Two conscious’s connected
I saw an insecure boy
With dreams of becoming a powerful man
I saw a wounded ego
A man who dreamed he’d be loved like a king
Instead, is treated like a pauper by those he made himself vulnerable to
I saw you looking at me
Like I was a new hope for you
I saw you stand up straighter
Your shoulders widened
Your eyes dilated
I saw you look back at me as you started walking away
I know you
I’m in your head
You can hide your feelings from everyone else
But not me, darling, not me.
Grace E Oct 2019
Can a broken heart fully mend?
A shattered soul, fully heal?
Can one learn to not break, but bend?
And let old wounds finally seal?
Can words of torment ever be fully erased?
Tattoos they left in your spirit, made gone?
Can the image they painted of you, debased,
Ever be turned to right, from wrong.
Can forgiveness ever be found?
The years of pain melt away with the sun?
Or is it all too much to take back now?
Is it time to let go? To move on?
Grace E Jan 2019
The two women in his life

One had long black hair

One had long red hair

One he kicked out of the car during an argument

The other was the one kicking him out

One he lived with

One he married

One he left behind

One left him behind

The first was named Jasmin, like the flower or the oil. A name found in gardens and hung over arches

The other named Grace, notes of eternity laced her name. The softness of a ballet dancer intertwined in a single syllable

He should’ve stayed with the flower. I believe she loved him more
Grace E Sep 2020
When Joshua crossed the Jordon River
God told 1 man from each of the 12 tribes to set up 12 stones
A memorial, to remember that God parted the river for them
The same way He parted the Red Sea for Moses when they were exiting Egypt
And Israel feared Joshua, the same way they feared Moses

Jesus stood in a boat with 12 disciples
Afraid for their lives when a mighty storm hit
Jesus arose and rebuked the wind and said to the sea “Peace, be still!” And the wind ceased and there was great calm, and the disciples feared exceedingly, saying to themselves “who can this be, that even the wind and the sea obey Him?”

God parts seas, and God calms storms.
First account is from Joshua 4, second account is from Mark 4. Was reading my Bible and was amazed at the similarities of these two stories, 12 tribes, 12 disciples, one God who moves or calms insurmountable obstacles on their behalf. Love it.
Grace E Aug 2022
I can’t be bought
Can’t be bribed
Keep your cash
Give me your life
I don’t want your power
Keep your empire too
I don’t want your money
I just want you
Grace E Aug 2019
Of course I’m tired, but
I don’t stop when I’m tired
I stop when I’m done
This mantra has been applied to many different situations in my life, from dealing with depression, to cleaning my house. It’s not over till it’s over.
Grace E Jul 2020
I am indebted to you sir
Thank you I must
For reminding me
Of the feeling of trust
So long I’ve pretended
To be stronger than I am
A force to be reckoned with
That is in need of no man
But you’ve changed my heart
You’ve made me see
To be vulnerable is beautiful
And it sets us free
You alone rekindled the maiden
That is within me
So thank you so much
For helping me see
Grace E Aug 2020
Her eyes sparkled so,
Like sapphires set in pearl cases
Sunshine bouncing off the ocean
Reflecting her exquisite taste
Her dialect was diamonds
Refinement, her vocabulary
Her goal was gold
Her native tongue was luxury
She could outshine the sun
At least that’s what they say
Mystery girl dripping in jewels
Could dazzle the darkest day
Grace E Jul 2020
In the underworld
Beneath bellowing breadths
In weighty waters
In disorienting depths

Thats where she lurks
Completely unseen
The siren
With a seductive gleam
This is for all the girls, who aren’t “shady” per-say, just a little “underworldy” we are the true mermaids ❤️
Grace E Mar 2019
There are layers of the human soul
That exist
That we are not even aware we have
But
Endure a deep trauma
Loose a loved one
Say goodbye to something highly valued and greatly treasured
And
You will discover those layers
You will discover a strength
So profound
You almost wish you didn’t have it.
A strength you come to despise
A resilience that becomes a nuisance
Because as much as you want to
Call it quits, throw in the towel
You can’t because you simply KNOW
You are too strong to give up now
Grace E Oct 2019
It isn’t love.
And it never was.
It was a lesson.
But not love.
Grace E Sep 2019
Let yourself cry.
Let yourself feel the painful emotions..
Let your heart detoxify itself.
It hurts, but it WILL help you.
It will aid you in the process of letting go.
Grace E Mar 2019
The truth is like a lion
You don’t need to defend it
You simply, let it out of its cage
And it’ll handle business just fine
Grace E Mar 2019
Control,
It wasn’t hard letting go of you.
It was hard letting go of the person,
I thought I was when I was with you.
Grace E Sep 2021
A profound gratitude is conceived in my heart as I gaze at the dusty pictures hung on my wall
The eyes illuminated within those frames gazing back at me.
Bygone years and yesterday’s laced with laughter, tears, memories. Some joyful and some bitter, but all filled with beauty and a deep grace.
Mountains loom in one photo
The Eiffel Tower dazzles in the next
The Roman colosseum beneath that one
The heavenly blue roofs of Greece under that one
And on and on and on
I never would’ve believed it,
As a young wild child, living in a trailer park, barely surviving in the hidden muddy parts of a country filled with the stink of cows
That God would open my world so vastly and allow me to travel beyond what I ever even imagined, and He blesses me still, and even more, with the promise of eternity with Him.
Truly, like Jesus said He came to give “life and life more abundantly.”
And I am truly thankful…
Grace E Jun 2020
I used to be afraid of wolves
Until I realized I am a lion
Grace E Mar 2019
She’s hungry & patient
A deadly combination
Slinking low, undetected
Hidden in her station
She’s locked you in
Presence unannounced
Step by cautious step
She’s ready for the pounce
She is a warrior, a hunter
With refined, lethal finesse
Don’t be fooled by her kitten eyes
The girl’s a lioness
Grace E Sep 2020
She asked me to tone it down
But that’s just not in the cards
I only get to live this life once
So I’m gonna live it large
“Small” is not a word I like to use
“Shrinking” or “serious” I don’t dig
I lean into the dazzling life that’s worth living
And it’s worth living big
Grace E Sep 2020
Look up lonely soul.
The world’s still full of light.
The stars still shine for you,
Even in the blackest night.
Grace E Oct 2020
he saw each glimpse of magic in her eyes
he traced every dream winding behind her eyelids with his pupils
unable to pull his eyes from hers
he found himself utterly lost in her mind
with no intentions of finding his way out any time soon
Grace E Jul 2020
I wish I would’ve savored that final hug
Just a little bit longer
Grace E Feb 2020
Is it worth ruining your life for a morsel of love?
Probably.
Even little crumbs of love are satisfying to a person who is starving for it.
Grace E Oct 2020
The term “love wins” is true,
Though gravely misused.
The worldly kind of love,
Which is often the attached definition to this term, never truly wins.
This love, which is ****** in nature,
Only leaves it’s participants more empty, and loveless than before.
****** love, when abused and mishandled, taken outside of its intended context, leaves you more empty, drained, used, and void of TRUE love than before you engaged in it.
You will never feel completely fulfilled with only ****** love, and how sad, to base your entire identity on how you like to have ***. How empty a life, to march under a flag of your selfish, ****** preference, rather than something truly meaningful.

Love wins, yes He does. love wins, because Jesus Christ, who was love in flesh, won, when He died on the cross and paid for the sin of the entire world. Including the ****** sin mentioned above. Love wins, when you ask Him into your heart, and believe in Him as your savior, the one who made the weighty payment for your soul, so you could spend forever in the presence of God, where the Bible says, there is “fullness of joy and pleasure forevermore.” Don’t chase fleeting pleasure, that lasts only for a moments at a ****** ******. Choose pleasure that nourishes your soul, gives life to you spirit, opens your eyes to perceive the kingdom of God. Choose that. Choose Jesus. Choose love.
Love wins.
Grace E Dec 2023
Behind a glittering mask
I play my music
For your pleasure
Titillating your ears
Tickling your fancies
Provoking hunger
I am brilliant, shining
Overwhelmingly disarming  
Captivating
I wave my hand
Composing symphonies
Of carnality
Dance for me
Like a puppet
Tugging you down down deeper
Into distracting delights
I caress your flesh
Inflaming desires
Ignite you into fevered frenzies
Emotions are my clay
You need release
You deserve this
You have plenty of time
No one will know
And you play along
And now…
You’re….
Unsatisfied.
And my mask shatters
Smashing into sparkling dust
Rising into smoke that chokes you
Behind it all, a scheme
A slight of hand
My luster, a ruse
You’re mine now
And we’re both guilty
Of the same thing
So in love with ourself
We worshiped ourself
And hell suits us both so well

thanks for spending your free will with me
Grace E Jul 2019
Some wish to be the sun,
Dazzling in white flames
Brimming with power
An unrelenting force of nature.
But I wish only to the moon,
The quiet moon looking upon lovers
Grazing on each other’s lips like green pastures
Beaming through a window of one who is pierced by the night,
How I long to shine in the darkness
Grace E Jan 2023
My soul writhes within me
As if trying to escape my flesh
My mind heaves
And creativity fills the womb of my imagination
Bursting from darkness like the dawn
I dance in colors
Drink in stars
My heart is a waterfall of joy
Like heaven on earth
Grace E Oct 2019
I guess he says he loves me.
I have a hard time believing only words.
It’s easy to get lost in wishes.
It’s easy to waltz with hope for too long.
Praying for a connection, not just an attachment.
Praying for even a morsel of my thoughts to be heard and not disregarded and disrespected to the highest degree.
I’m losing touch with reality.
And dancing in the pretty fantasy that maybe this is love.
Maybe I’m not wasting my time.
Maybe I’m not bleeding inside for no reason.
Maybe we can go to the sunshine.
But it seems impossible, when we are swallowed up and drowning in ever darkening waters.
Maybe this is love.
Maybe...
But I don’t know yet.
Grace E Sep 2019
My heart is not easily won.
So believe me when I say I love you,
I mean it with every fiber of my being.
Grace E May 2021
He was a lonely planet
Orbiting some distant star
Set on an isolated course
Full of duty and deadlines

And she was an unforeseen meteorite
Who slammed into his world
And left a crater in his heart
She was the icy space rock he needed
Grace E Jun 2023
Beautifully obsessed
Dancing on the fine line
Between visionary and delusional
Insanity and ingenious
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