I once found myself standing in the middle, daggers being thrown from left and right. I took each one straight in the gut, trying to save your heart and defend my own; I stood alone.

In the midst of the shade thrown over like gray sticking permanent, I learned how to stay in my light by walking away from the gray in the middle. The gray does not own me. It never did.

Those daggers were meant for me, but really only launched from a place of someone else’s self-induced pity turned to pain. Well, let it rain. I will stand soaked in whatever pours my way, smiling and unaffected by a version of me told from the mouths of someone who never knew me but thrives on stories told like gospel, hands up, praising rumors as if speaking in tongues, ear to ear, makes it true. I feel for you.

I feel for me more. I found peace in my pieces, grace in the chaos I never asked for and calm in the storm I have always been. I dug through my pain, kept the pieces I created with my own hands and threw the ones away that was not mine to carry.

There will always be people who paint a picture of you with colors that don’t hold true and that’s okay. Let them carry the weight of those colors in their own heart, while you stay true to you.

You, with your beautiful colors, your mosaic pieces, your heart... made whole with its grace, with its peace, with undying honesty. You, with your gracious soul, your unmovable loyalty, be a masterpiece that never tries to defend its own colors to anyone who never saw the pain in your pieces, but only heard about it and couldn’t wait to smear it thick in gray, save it for a rainy day, and try to shine like you always have.

Don’t ever apologize for a version of you written by someone else. Be you and know, nobody can shake your grace or your peace from the roots of you. Your heart.. it is a masterpiece.

I’m having nightmares in the daylight
An awakened mind is a curse
Eyes closed cause my sight’s better in darkness
But I’m scared to put those visions into free verse.

Like I’m lost somewhere in purgatory
All these demons with angelic faces
Got me late for my date with fate
struggling to stay in God’s good graces

This heart has known so much pain
But a soldier’s war is never over
Got me feeling like Constantine
always looking for death over my shoulder.

I had a choice and I swallowed the red pill
Chased the white rabbit out of the Matrix
But now I’m feeling more like Cypher
Wanting to make a deal with the agents

Because truth is a bitter pill to swallow
and they say that ignorance is bliss
but the breadcrumb trail leads to freedom
and I know there must be more to life than this.

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Touch me with your mind,
  In places, your hands could never reach

Close Your Eyes

Baby your love got me going crazy for you
Wanting you every minute of my day
Knowing you want me too
And one day we will find a way
To one day be in each other's arms
I promise to always protect you from harm

For you are my moon and sun
I will always love you
We will forever have fun
For my love is true
I will always and forever have faith in you
For our hearts are forever in tune

The miles between us is heart aching for me
But with your words, I can thrive
For we are meant to be
And with your love, I can survive
Praying the star to give you my kisses
For until you are in my arms I am truly missing

Baby close your eyes I will be there
Telling you how much I love you
Close your eyes I will be there
Holding you with a warm embrace
Close your eyes I will be there
Kissing your heavenly lips

Even though I can't be where you are
In my heart, you will forever stay
For in my heart you are not very far
I promise to show you my love in
different ways
Just promise me to always to be true
Because I will forever love you

I have no reasons to lie
Or to be untrue to you
For if I did I would die
Baby, you make me feel brand new
Let the stars shine bright tonight
While in your dreams I hold you tight

Forever with you, I will stand by your side
Forever fighting for you
So one day I may be your bride
For I love no one but you
My love belongs to only you my love
So tonight I send my love on the wings
of the doves

Baby close your eyes I will be there
Telling you how much I love you
Close your eyes I will be there
Holding you with a warm embrace
Close your eyes I will be there
Kissing your heavenly lips

For you baby, I will go through hell to get you
If I had to give up heaven for you
I would for heaven is where ever you are
For no place is too far
I love you forever
I am always and forever yours

Lie there on my bed and don’t make a sound. Don’t make a single move as my fingers slowly ****** your skin. I can sense the fire building inside of you as each touch of my hands make you sigh. I lay soft strokes on the tips of your ******* and I hear you gasp as I run little circles on your *******. Feel that single finger down the side of your neck, and then down between your *******? That is just to tease you, as I know you want them to be touched again.

Feel another finger up and down each of your sides and toward the spot just below your navel. Go ahead and arch that back of yours as you anticipate my finger moving down to your flower. I will not go there just yet, as I want you to beg me to go there and I know it won’t be long before you do.

Do you want me to touch you down there? Let me hear you let out that soft “Yes. Please.” I move my hand further down and as I reached your special place I want you to let out a moan. Then I will move a single finger inside of you and when I touch your button both your body and your breath will **** and then you will let out that sweet sigh of yours to let me know you feel me. I start with one finger and then two inside of you. My thumb starts rubbing on your button and it won’t be long until your ****** will come for me. As it hits I feel your juices begin to flow onto my fingers. I move a single finger to my mouth and I taste your sweet flavor before moving it back down to enjoy more of your sweetness

I can tell you are trying to remain in control of your reactions, but resistance is futile at my hands little one. I am taking all of that away from you and taking control, so you may as well surrender now and just enjoy the feelings. You are becoming undone by my masterful hands and I can feel you giving in to it all. Lay there and enjoy everything that is being done to you. Spread those legs wider as each moment passes and go ahead and grab that pillow if you must and squeeze it hard into your chest as you feel yourself being taken to another wave at my hands.

As I finish with my work on your body, I move my head between your legs. Look me in the eyes as I do this and I let me see that you have given in. Tell me you need to feel me inside of you now. As you do, I slowly insert my tongue and your body takes me inside and your arms come up around my back. You pull me into you completely and let out a gasp. Now start moving that body with my every lick into you. Let me feel you surrender. Let me know you are mine as our bodies come together over and over in our lust. We become one in this perfect moment and nothing else exists. Just the two of us and our passion. Just the feeling of my tongue entering you and filling you as you have never felt before, touching nerves that have never been touched and your heart giving in to me now and forever as you surrender everything that you are to me.

As we reach our ****** together our bodies share these wonderful few moments as one soul and one love. You give me your most precious gift and I take it with pleasure and respect for you. As we still move together with each final twist of my tongue, each kiss we share comes straight from our hearts. You have become mine this night and you will be mine now and forever.

"Our Endless Love" began with just one little kiss,
A sweet, innocent, 'n gentle, unthreatening first kiss,
Like the first flowers pushing their tender stems above the ground.
Could this be the beginning, of innocence in love found?
The gentle cradling, of my hand in yours,
Showed me the gentle touch and the beginning of true love.
Just as those young flowers slowly reached,
For the orange glow of the sun,
We took our time 'n nurtured the unique feelings that now had begun.
Just as the growing flowers began to bud,
So thus was our rapture being guided from above.
As the buds of the flowers started to bloom into a beautiful bouquet,
So does the beginning of "Our Endless Love" begin today,
As we put one another's desires and dreams before our own,
Now set into perpetual motion, our two hearts beat, but now as one.
Long ago a friendship had started, then turned to romance,
That was set afire,
All the longing we felt, our souls intertwined,
As our love began to soar even higher.
Our love showering down with Heavenly Stardust from the Milky Way,
Oh, how our love deepens, with the opening of each new day.
Overwhelming completeness we do feel,
Just the way two lovers should,
Just one sweet innocent kiss turned into "Our Endless Love",
Just as our hearts knew it would.
Oh, how mighty a sweet, innocent, 'n gentle unthreatening first kiss.