You were incredibly unfair, unjust, and rude to me.
Especially when I needed you the most.
But still I agreed
Still
I apologized
Still through every hurt you gave me I begged for you to stay
With big dreams
Of working on ourselves
And still bettering each other
Still you continued to show me
How very little I meant to you
Still I apologized
Still I stayed
You dropped off completely when you knew
Abandonment
Was a fear
Discarded everything
And then told me I was too much
Still I agreed
Still I apologized
I never asked to be like this...
The one time I give you your energy back you say
'You expect me to ever want to talk to you again after you said you want nothing to do with me?'
Those weren't my words
Still I agreed
Still I apologized
Still I hoped that it would make you miss me
But those were
'Big assumptions'
I put real effort into us
And expected none in return
Still I apologized
You stabbed me over and over
And didn't expect me to say
Oh.. that's uncomfortable
But I did
Then
Still I apologized
I see what my truth is
Why am I still clinging to you
Why do I still apologize
When you can't even look at me anymore.

There's something about you

That blows my mind so completely.

I want to stand on the edge of a cliff

And shout my love for you to the stars

You saved me yesterday
When the rolling clouds were dark

The wind, like a hurricane,
Was whipping through my heart

It was beating just as loud as the thunder over head
All i felt was dread

The ground shook with emotion
While i tried to hold it in

But my mind felt like exploding from the pain that i was in

Then you, stranger, walked on by
And took me by surprise

Grabbed my hand, pulled me up,  looked into my eyes

All you said was 'hi'
And i felt that could breathe

My heart, though it stayed racing
Stopped pounding in my sleep

Angry clouds above me
Started to evaporate

The walls that surrounded me
Began to dissipate

And though the world was shining
Once again renewed

I couldn't take my eyes off of the beauty that was you

Are you a dream or are you real
Cuz thats exactly how i feel
When i
Talk to you

Never seen a face before
That makes me feel so unsure
Just like
You

I swear that you're glowing
But you act so unknowing
How do you
Do that?

You seem so insecure
But I'm not sure what for
You are
Beautiful
Beautiful

Your mind blows fresh air into mine
And brings joy back to life
I need
You

If i close my eyes
Will i be on the other side
Of this
Dream

Are you real or
Just a
Dream

The bright summer sun warms my skin

instead of energy, it puts me to sleep

Gone are the days, id run and play

And the joy i wish i could keep
  
  The smell in the air is nostalgic

Of a memory just out of reach

Not sure if its real or i dreamt it

But its of one i can no longer see
  
  Is the laughter from my past a real sound?

Or something id wished i had heard?

Memories fade so much with time

And recalling them seems so absurd

   You havent been here for a while

These memories keep coming in waves

Feeling so lost yet familiar

Something i cant get back or replace

I'd scream

If I weren't

Empty


But I'm

Mumbling

Through this line

I'm sorry, I don't get it
Had my head down for a minute
So just quit it

I think my heart stopped
For like five
And suddenly I've
Been revived

I'm still
Dead
And I'm terrified
That I can't remember
The last time I cried

Hey

I'd scream if I weren't empty
But I'm mumbling

I'm Mumbling

Through this line