I move you move
I settle you settle
I nod you nod
When I sleep you disappear

And I wonder
When I cry do you feel the my pain
I see your anger
I see your sloppiness
I see your confidence

At time I wish you can get up
Get up before me
Get up and give me your hand
Get up and lift me up

You are always here
Yet you never acted unless I do
You depend on me
I depend on myself

I need you because you need me
I see you because you follow me
Now I am you
Without pain
Emotion
Feeling
I am but empty

Thanks for being visible yet
You keep all to yourself
I see you and you see me
That is all that matters

Love oh! Love
When the heart wanted but you
You gave yourself but half
Heart demanded full
And you decided to leave

Why did you leave
When the heart was in need
In need but only you
Not much but your heart
Your warm loving heart

Nothing else mattered but your heart
Loving soothing heart of mine
In you
I never wanted to share it
The heart that only belonged but to me

Eyes are for the face
never of the heart
But my heart had eyes
Eyes only for you

Feeling you touching my heart
Was heaven
Nothing else mattered but
But the moments and time
with you…

My heart want you
You only it cries
Can you see
My heart has eyes…
Eyes of the heart for only you

angels beautiful angels
I never knew but you are real
angel without wings

heart is warm
kind thoughts all the time
no finger is lifted
this comes natural

I am favored
indeed Gods love I see
I see it in you
you are sent, not from heaven but earth
to shower me with light

when dark seems to cover
your light appears
when I have forgotten his ways
seeing you I know he lives

in me he exists
I smile
peace follows you
peace I have when you are here
indeed you are an angel
you come with light

you light my path is yet to be
smooth is all I see
you are sent
yes for me
you are an angel

Down the road
I walk pass by the nature
endless roads, sunset
lake, birds flying
showing me how to pause
& to enjoy the
fleeting moments
of life
endless happiness
all by my side
I look here & there
to share the joy
of nature's love
but found none.

Understood

That nature & me are one
enjoying being whole again
healing me with all its power
like baby on its womb
caressing me with all the winds
and showering its love
over-brimming!

I do not want to be too comfortable
what I feel inside is the calmness that comes with it
I refuse to let it absorbs me
this never commits
it scares me how my heart melts
I want to turn the tables
I want to run away but it caught me
my heart agrees when I do not agree
my heart fails me yet again

I do not understand his ways
I cannot predict his moves
I do not think I even approve his ways
I do not think it is his ways

The phone call brings more questions
Call that got me looking back to my thinking
Can this be the universe shifting things for me

When the struggle continues
And there is no peace
The call rings and on the other end it is the voice

I do not want to hear this voice
I do not want to see this being
But here we are
The universe possibilities made it possible

You are favoured
why is that I do not know
Even my heart worships you
I want to deny it that privilege
but it dishonour me
My own heart beats for someone else
My heart beats but for me

I feel betrayed
My heart is smiling
My thoughts are at peace
My emotions are calm

How can this happen
The universe made possible but for me
Oh! Why is she the chosen one
My struggles means nothing
Nothing that I agree to sacrifices
To sacrifice what I thought will bring me happiness

So I am back in your books
Seeing me in your books makes you happy
Your happiness is a struggle to me
While you are happy I am dying inside

No one understands
No one sees this
No one hears my cry

I have made the sacrifice
Sacrifices for my own happiness
I do not know how long my heart will last
But as long as it last you are happy

I want to wake up
I want this to be a dream
The dream that will never creeps in sleep no more
I will never know
As I do not know now