Its all about respect
You'll never get it
If you don't give it
And its not some opaque charade
You have to live it

And your ideas
Can be on a level
Higher than others
But it won't really mean so much
If you can't learn to love your brothers

And I know,
I can't make someone else be a better person.
In this world
The only person I'm responsible for
Is myself

Lay down
With the summer slowly rising
And the sun finding horizon
It is only
That the seasons change too quickly

Rest your weary head
My love
Rest
And be assured
That I will love you
With veins that cause the rivers
When the drownings all in vain

Lay down
It was only the longest night
It was only the hardest fight
It is only
That these fleeting dreams escape you

Rest your weary head
My sweet
Rest
And know it true
That I will love you

I breed radical change
In this world
No burden to great
No pain too debilitating
No fear of the death I know is waiting for me
I bring the people together
Under a banner
I fly my flag high
With enemies nearby
Stealthy trained assassins

I breed radical change
In this world
A change we are waiting on
It's all my thoughts
It's just the way I think
Unique, yet similar so you can relate
And we are different
But we're the same
Let me show you what I mean
Let me help you believe

I breed radical change in the world
I bring the change that's needed

The most beautiful thing
About being a revolutionary
Is understanding
No one else sees the way you do
The weight is on you
The fate of the future

And the weight is on you
Yours to carry
Yours to share
If only you can
Show someone else the truth

If only they'll follow you
Instead of following what they're told to
If only
I hate when I expect too much
I'll learn to stop expecting

Eventually

I am not your friend
I am the enemy
Of the end
That you embrace
With open arms
And open palms
With a name drawn
Onto clouds
And carved
Into skin

Its should be as natural as breathing
But, its as painful as bleeding
No suture for these open wounds
No future
To fate we're bound

I am all you have
I am the answer
To the riddles past
Raven and writing desk
Oedipus answered man
Its all I am
With a name and a face
And eyes that can see
Eyes that blink
And a hungry sphinx

It should be as open as the sky
But, its a dark and dysmal cave
Our hearts become arrows
In truth of the scarab
We shoot wide and narrow

The end of which we seek
Will not be peace
Fall on me now
Or follow me not

And from the start
       With a smile
You played the part
       Of a rifle
Aiming for my heart
How many bullets I don't understand
And in the end
       With a silence
A dagger sent
         To violence
Aiming for my skin
How many times again must I bleed

Before I believe
Nothings gonna change my world
Nothings all it ever was

A rifle in incapable hands
And a grave with no tombstone
For the innocent

If right now was forever
I'll be forever left without
Wondering what it's like
To be loved

The way that I love you

I doesn't matter
If you go away
And I never see you again
All that matters
Is that I'm here for you
Right now

When you need me
Today
Let tomorrow bring
What it may

As the voice
I have to speak loudest
I have to say
RIGHT NOW!!!!
There is no other time
And wise men speak patience
The I Ching speaks patience
Even losing speaks patience
But the truth is
Its now
Or never

Angel wings
Angel wings
A statue high above the city
The squalor
A river in January

And out on the beaches
The people are dancing
And in the favelas
They're dying

Last resort
Last resort
Last bus to copacabana

And out on the beaches
The people are dancing
And in the favelas
They're dying

You weren't alone when you got the news
Modern medicines waiting room blues
A stethascope doesn't know the way your heart beats
And science never found a reason why

Suffer begin

Voice in the night
When words are unspoken
Hands from the sky
Are ripping me open

Suffer begin

You're in room nine the third door on the left
You've been through the test and never know to expect
Sputum cytology, x-rays, and biopsy
You've never needed lungs to breathe

Suffer begin

Words in the night
About a body that's broken
Hands from the sky
Are ripping me open

He is a friend of mine
Suffer begin

A riptide
Pull me under and send me away
A million miles of water
And I'm drowning

And the worst part is
I was so caught up in all my pain
I was so selfish
I couldn't see that you were hurting too

I would know
When her voice comes wailing through these bitter broken streets
The street lights are bleeding
Pleading forgiveness
May I never have another fear of the banshee
I may never
I only
When my lonely heart finds salvation in some bitter broken blue
Beating all the broken dreams to bed
I only go as far as my heart allows
And I dream it
When all questions go answered
Still I do
Even so much long and longer than my hopes gave up on you
Give no reservations
Give everything
And watch my fingers break
In some perilous forsaken dawn
The sun may always rise

Starlight bouncing of a river
A celestial stage
In a lovers auditorium
We see the reflection as a symbol
As a part of something bigger
We see the reflection as ourselves

And its love
Its a honeymoon
Its a fleeting feeling of forever
Its an illusion

But on the horizon
Storms are raging
Wind is blowing
In our direction
And we know before too long

Thunder and lightning

Lightning bouncing off a river
The cynic in me
Is unbound and free
Its not enough light to guide me home
And that river is perilous
And im tired of swimming

And its sink or swim
I can swim no more
Let me reach the shore
Before I drown

I turn around
And you aren't there
But I don't care
Maybe your on a different shore
Maybe your on the ocean floor

This river chewed you up and spit you out

There is a jaggle of masonry here, on a small hill
Above the gray-mouthed Pacific, cottages and a thick-walled tower, all made of rough sea rock
And Portland cement. I imagine, fifty years from now,
A mist-gray figure moping about this place in mad moonlight, examining the mortar-joints, pawing the
Parasite ivy: "Does the place stand? How did it take that last earthquake?" Then someone comes
From the house-door, taking a poodle for his bedtime walk. The dog snarls and retreats; the man
Stands rigid, saying "Who are you? What are you doing here?" "Nothing to hurt you," it answers, "I am just looking
At the walls that I built. I see that you have played hell
With the trees that I planted." "There has to be room for people," he answers. "My God," he says, "That still!"

other planets
other worlds
different galaxies
new worlds of fascination
deeper meaning
oceans on moons
with seasons unseen by the eyes of man
alien homes in outerspace
terrestrial but foreign and familiar
Beyond the realm of the known
but waiting so I can find it
and bring my love to it



An­d
I am a rocketship
flying in through the void
The darkest dark ever known
stuck in between galaxies
where no sun will rise
And no light will shine
I am a rocketship

Mind never stops
A rock tumbler filled with thoughts
Becoming polished jewels

We can like
Or we can love
Its just our heart
Its just god
I want our time to feel the way we need
The sun makes poems
The moon makes inside dreams
I die in ice
I live in fire
I wish the trees could read the stars in the night

It takes romance to understand

A long lost look
Or a smile that lives forever
For this writing to end
This blue book finds darkness
Thoughts on our tounges which mean were alone
Happy to hate the poet
The future is our music
Our feelings on paper
Can never be hands to hold
Our hearts beating exist and are alive

It takes romance to understand

Pride and vanity
The rooster crows
But if it try to fly to the heavens
It will fail

Its ambitions and goals
Are inappropriate
It should know it can crow to the heavens
But it can't fly there

To change this world
You're going to have to play
By its rules

I've run the good race
My faith is running low
Running out of time
Also-ran but then forgotten

I guess I have nothing left to say
So I'll repeat what I've said before
So you can hear me anyways
I've run out of things to believe in

I know
I see
And maybe you don't understand I do
I feel your pain

Problems
And mistakes
Seem to become ghosts that haunt and follow
Relentlessly

If you want to run away
I understand
If that's what you need to do
I never could stop you
If you need to run away
From the pain
Find a way to get away
And be at peace again

If you really know that here
There is nothing left
Just bitter memories
And places as time, and me

If you want to run away


I'll run with you

and now i dont sleep
now i see things
not clearly,
as everything near me
tinted by the color of your loss,
we pray and dream but we're lost
and even further now that you're gone

how am i supposed to see,
when sorrow hangs a shadow over me?
i know a name,
i dont forget,
i know regret,
i know the pain

and now he sleeps
with angels,
jocelyn
would you open up your loving arms?
keep us from all harm,
protection from the storm
and even further now that you're gone

dont be sad anymore
please
dont be sad anymore

Its the world I love
That I don't know

Its the time

Its the teeth of the wicked
Its the hopes of the holy

Its my eyes

Glaring

I can not find a way to **** myself slowly
That I am comfortable with

Its years

Years

Its only what it always was
Its only finding out

Its my becoming

The thing I fear the most......

How can I salamander in a river
Can I salamander
Hanging with salamanders
At the **** based farm
Salamanders are crazy
Cardboard carborators
A salamander band
Playing bad great music
Satanic salamanders
Soup and blind melons
Salamanders

Repentance is salvation.
Or I can explain it another way
A butcher becomes a Buddha
The moment he drops his cleaver

It took a thousand years to feel like me
Blood as I’m laying on the floor
Lives are forever changed
And I saw a dancing woman
As I saw you
I flew over the hills
As I saw you

It was loss

It was losing everything to know this love
There was no flower to hold
It was the flood waters rising
And I feel this way
It was cruel intentioned lighting
And I feel this way

The waters of the flood
God willing the creek won’t  rise
But as is does
I accept it as it is
As punishment for sins
As a way to wash me clean
And the water rises over the rooftops

It was repentance  

It was religious vision led me to you
Death and resurrection
I give my life away
And I saw a the wings of angels
As I saw you
And I found a way to Heaven
As I saw you

It was salvation

I know how to die
When my eyes can see no skies
And my mind forgets tomorrow
There is no fortress I can run to
Only a grave in a cemetery
Neglected and left to decay
The day is not my friend
And not my teacher
The day is a wolf
And the wolf is hungry
The star of the morning
Samuel
I know how to die
When the fires cannot be warmth
And my skin is shadows ashes
There is no home I can find
Only a strange land
Where the sun refuses to shine
The night will have no moon
Only crying darkness
The night is a demon from hell
Grasping claw-handed for my skin
The star of morning
Samuel

When reason becomes unreasonable
I tear at the edge of the sky
And **** myself
To cancel my scars

Its so much bigger
So much
It is a massacre of the mind
And the way to reach the stars

My middling heart

I call your name

Knowing you could never save me

I dream a cemetery
Shadows and silhouettes taking the hand
And guiding the traveler to a grave
No morning comes with flowers
No hymns are sung
No prayer begun
I dream an empty planet
I'm afraid of the clouds where she might be
Lost in darkened hopeless sight
Where no sun is shining now
No stars
No horizon
I dream the birds are crying
A lingering pall and hidden tears
Wings are broken
Nest abandoned
And me
I dream a yellow field
Once with planted seeds
A scarecrow menace lurking
No warning
Only wind
The crow has gone away

I know who you are
You showed me your scars

It makes me see
From the dirt grows the tree
And I wish on the star
That you are made from
So I live to love
I touch satin skin
While I pray to a god
And listen to ghosts

I'm with the birds
I wish on numbers
I want too much
To ever need

It makes me see
The science of spirit
While I visualize
She spreads before me
As I live to love
And I love to hold
I talk to god
And empty voids

If you see me
Run
I'm broken
Never to be fixed

By my very nature      s     O   c
Rawness of it,           S     C    R    P
I am in tune,          o      r        p   i
But out of control.      o     I
                                              O
I hope you see it as a skill,
And not a sickness

I can love you more
If only you love me

Oh, the flow
The rising tide
And deep below

The magic was penniless
A family man
A ride on course
A seahorse

Oh, the ebb
Receding sea
And ocean floor

The love was palpable
Singing mermaids
With no remorse
A seahorse

Oh, the waves
The way they crash
And batter at my shore

The cruel nautical nightmare
Of sharks and sinking ships
Still held a dream inside
A seahorse

Why go looking
For god
When In the unlikeliest places
God will find
You

Why is the third chance
Still referred to as a second chance?
I guess it really doesn't matter

I just know I want one

I'm seeing too many shadows
I'm seeing too many ghost
I'm seeing too many demons
I'm not seeing enough hope

I remember that silver ore
Unrefined but intermittently beautiful
Just a hope for the future
A heart beat amongst the blood
And the teeth and the scars
That had left their marks on me

  I remember seeing you and smiling
Odes to the dawn, and dance, and the seeds
All my hopes for the future
Just a lantern in a darkened barn
And the viscera, the platelets and cells
That had made their home in me  

I remember feeling
But oh well
Feeling one by one
Fingertips and hips and lips
And diamond veins
Deep underneath the surface

I remember the waning moon
Becoming new with the dreams of tomorrow
Just vain imagination
And the blood
I remember the blood was flowing
I cannot forget

I remember that silver ore
Unrefined but intermittently beautiful
Just a hope for the future
A heart beat amongst the blood
And the teeth and the scars
That had left their marks on me

  I remember seeing you and smiling
Odes to the dawn, and dance, and the seeds
All my hopes for the future
Just a lantern in a darkened barn
And the viscera, the platelets and cells
That had made their home in me  

I remember feeling
But oh well
Feeling one by one
Fingertips and hips and lips
And diamond veins
Deep underneath the surface

I remember the waning moon
Becoming new with the dreams of tomorrow
Just vain imagination
And the blood
I remember the blood was flowing
I cannot forget

I remember that silver ore
Unrefined but intermittently beautiful
Just a hope for the future
A heart beat amongst the blood
And the teeth and the scars
That had left their marks on me

  I remember seeing you and smiling
Odes to the dawn, and dance, and the seeds
All my hopes for the future
Just a lantern in a darkened barn
And the viscera, the platelets and cells
That had made their home in me  

I remember feeling
But oh well
Feeling one by one
Fingertips and hips and lips
And diamond veins
Deep underneath the surface

I remember the waning moon
Becoming new with the dreams of tomorrow
Just vain imagination
And the blood
I remember the blood was flowing
I cannot forget

Seeing you

******* IT
I just keep moving
Trying my best to keep my head up
Seems like the world is only keeping me down
Seems like
The more that I try
The more happiness eludes me
Like I'm pushing as hard as its pulling away
Seems like
A kick in the teeth
Every time I try to smile
Seems like a cavity
When I never ate the candy

Seems to me
That I believe in a higher power
That really hates me
A fatalistic point of view
Seems to be
Its bitter pain and disappointment
Brittle skin and fragile mind
And fire

Luckily
This is only the way it seems
Its just a phase
I'm going through

Guess I have to let it be
Or let of be the end of me
A new day for my self destruction
And no one saves me from myself

I seem happy
I've got a new joke to make
A new girl to love
A new day to make my way
I seem happy
Which is good
I wouldn't want anyone to know
What I am really going through
I seem happy


Semblance-the outward appearance or apparent form of something, especially when the reality is different.

I was seven
Sitting in a sandbox
Playing with words

And a kid would scream
"Tag, you're it"
And I would bleed
Because I was

I was drunk
Delivering my daily diatribe
About symbolism, and feeling, and energy, and

Love

And the cop would pull me over
Because I was driving in two lanes
Talking to a ghost
Who couldn't understand

I told him
"I've been waiting for you,
And I didn't even know it"

Mr authority who I deplore
Was inspired by the poet
He let me go
Just like I did before


And later I thought
How senseless it really was
To be sensible

I was seven
Sitting in a sandbox
Playing with words

And a kid would scream
"Tag, you're it"
And I would bleed
Because I was

I was drunk
Delivering my daily diatribe
About symbolism, and feeling, and energy, and

Love

And the cop would pull me over
Because I was driving in two lanes
Talking to a ghost
Who couldn't understand

I told him
"I've been waiting for you,
And I didn't even know it"

Mr authority who I deplore
Was inspired by the poet
He let me go
Just like I did before


And later I thought
How senseless it really was
To be sensible

As the most serious person
You ever met
I laugh and I joke
To hide the depth of complexity
That riddles my mind
The answer to the riddle too hard to find
As the most serious person
You ever met
I do everything I can
To hide the pain and sorrow
That fills up my soul
And despite who I really am
To you I am someone else