in june i begin again

my eyes feel thick in my head

and my guts are buzzing

i just want to go to bed

Warm maroon flowing through me like fuel

It’s just blood but it feels like love

And it burns

I dedicate it to my friends,

I dedicate it to my future, and my death

I will continue to feel so fully

Even after the world I now know comes to an end

It is all I am

And all that I will always be

arrows piercing a snowbank

and staining the stars red

painful; like all the words

that neither of us said

soon the metal will rust

and the blood will crust over

the snow will melt away

but the hearts of steel embedded in the mud

will remain

i am so much

my wings unfurl and spread

these thoughts swirl too fast in my head

to process

the factory of blood pumping in my chest

takes care of the rest

green thickens and fills

outside my window the world stands still

i am soaring

resting on a rainbow

the days forget to flow

watering the seeds

that will become your wings

because for you

time is too slow

so make it your own