there's no such thing as a uninjured soldier

We all come back with some type of scar

Whether it's physical are mental

it's not always so obvious to see right where they are

our job is not for the faint-hearted

there were decisions that were made

some stories would never be shared

just know that history was changed

while fancy speeches are given and politeness is practice

those who are in power look to us to have an eye on the factions

those who operate in the Shadows are always aware

that there are only a few

that standing inbetween success and

failure knowing the odds and still

choosing to be there

What If everything was obtainable

will that sharpen my focus

on what's worth grabbing

our would it dull my senses so

I'm  lullbyed
  
Into  mediocrity

What has history taught

If everything is obtainable

Will it lose its savor and  luster

I needed to explore the core of me

then and only then will the truth come out

I was the girl  in the mirror

the one they whispered about

I knelt beside the pools of selfishness and pain

disappointments resentment
anger

the view was all the same

pictures of my life

that played over and over again

Draining my river of happiness the steam is growing thin

I know what I have to do is to go  further down

I have learned I can't love you if I don't love myself

or else we will both drown.

the absence of life is felt
all around

the absence of the life she knew

fell like sand  being poured out of the ground

will she wake up from her slumber

will she ever look around

will He revive those dry bones

when His voice calls

will she hear the sound

As I climbed it got darker and

darker and I was afraid

As I  climbed it got darker and
darker

I wanted to turn back
around again

As I climbed the space narrowed

I had to take off things that were carried on my back

As I climbed I blindly trusted

As I climbed believing and not believing searching for a sign

As I climbed seeking the Light, the Truth and balance

As I climb

When I was a child the Lord
spoke to me

He said, he would bless me to find you

then he'd will bless me to find me

Growing up I knew my destiny

that he had that special someone out there preserved

waiting just for me

everything that I went through was meant to be

Every step it lead too, what  is now  my family

Looking into you eyes

I know that it was meant to be

not only when I found you

also God used you to heal me

i.

branches of black night
the rain taps on the roof
everything is unguarded
a bird breaking open the sky like
a dark tear.

ii.

our love, rooted to
the earth, scattering
bright oceans
tender as a star.


iii.

dance of love
limbs wild and joyful
lull of a kiss.

iv.

ocean breaking, each wave,
flowing back to its watery song,
flooding and flowing,
flooding and flowing.