And the way she said
I'm fine
Was a little to quick
A little too quiet
And a little too often

i just want to dance on your lap
and hear the butterflies flit
and sing in your ear
about how much i want you.
oh dear, i want to kiss your neck
tug on your hair softly
and leave you wanting more.
tiger, i want you to kiss my lips
and taste the love that pours
out of me constantly.
i want you to want me.

i want you to feel my heart,
my hips, my eyes, my lips...
i want you to know me
and my brain, and my curves, and my voice...
i want you to want me.

i need you to need me
like a school needs kids or a
like a flower needs sunlight.
i want you to trust me
like how you trust her
with your 'everlasting love'
i want you to love me
not just in bed, but in our lives.
i want you to show me you care.
show me please dear god just show me

show me.
i'm begging you.

do not expect me to love you like you love me
girls like me do not love

we will never meet your parents
or your friends for that matter
we will never dress up for you, or make a promise

girls like me have loved, lost & are lonely
because of the boy who stole our virginity, and not our heart
because of the girl in our math class who said we were too fat to be pretty
because of our friends who said they'd be there for you but left

so do not expect me to love you like you love me
do not love me at all

I lay in bed


back turned to the world
curled up
hiding from everything
huddled and confused
waiting
sadly enough
for someone
to come and lay
with me
and hold me
just to hold me
love me
just because
you love me
because I'm lost
confused
and lonely
and hell
it's cold
turning your back
to  stop the pain
when it's internal
please hold me
just because