A dimly lit night
Locked up inside
With no one in sight
In love with someone
Who's just out of sight
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
I must endure
What I feel inside
No hugs
No comfort
Only depression
And hurt
No one to kiss
No one to hold
No one to love
Until I grow old
Why can't I die
Bottle it up
Time up and get high

I saw you today,
... we chatted
exchanged meaningless small talk.
I don't know why
I still get butterflies
       you're too short
           losing your hair
and a little chubby around the middle.
Yet you take my breath away.
      I am lost in your gaze.
          mesmerized by your smile.
Your touch sends chills
     to every nerve ending in my body.
I just want to taste you.
     hold you
         wrap myself around you
for hours on end...

where boys become men
and men become memories
...freedom's cost