Child loves people
Child especially loves animals
Kid has many pets
Kid has many friends
Teenager loves biology
Teenager wants to become a doctor
College student majors in biology
College student wants to heal people
Doctorate student studies hard
Doctorate student wants to change lives
Doctor turns away those with wrong insurance
Doctor watches people die
Doctor makes private companies rich
Doctor feels sad and stupid

As this instant
Melts to time
I am wondering where I am
Before
After
I am taken above the clouds
Then dropped back to the mud
I thought I could hold you forever in this memory
But you are fading with me

The most abused of them all
That bitter taste
The bite of fire
Liquor and beer
The murkey and the clear
One of the coolest
Joe cool
Blow like city breeze
As romanticized as diamonds
Just as ****** - cigs
The Doctors choice (orders?)
Gets you revved up
Shot to the moon and back
With complete concentration
Amphetamine aka Adderall

If I was a child
Barely grown up
Would you resent me for my mistakes
Or learn how to love

When I was a teenager
Failing in school
Did you think I was stupid
Or just unamused

After graduating college
Now a bit older
Are you ashamed I'm unemployed
Or of the world I'm to shoulder

If I was 45
Leading your same life
Would you scold me for my faults
Or praise me that I tried

When I'm a bit older
And my hair turns grey
Will memories of you
Be the best or worst days

Used in medicines
The world over
Sent from the stars
To grow in abundance
Spared of addiction
Absence of toxicity
Breath of life
Thread of reflection
Given to the soil
Tendered to the soul
Flower of clarity
He did bestow

Having
Ultimate
Grief
   well sometimes  Or can mean this
       Hiding
       Ugly
       Guilts