include

using namespace std;

int main()
{
cout << "As humans\n Are we run by\n Emotions?\n Or are we\n Programmed?" << endl;
cin.ignore();
return 0;
}

Sitting alone
In my room all day
Not by choice
Forced by a fever
I feel a familiar sensation
I am a coiled spring
I need to run
So badly
But alas, I also need to heal.

The chill seeps in
Freezing my bones
Slurring my speech
Extinguishing the heat that fills
My body
Slowly removing me
From it

The cold is always reaching for
An embrace
But it only may embrace anything
Anyone
For a little while
Until clinging to something
Pushes the one being clung on to
Away
Forever.

I run from love
I run to love.
I run from hate
Yet I accept it all the same.
Love is always good
And hate is always bad.
Wouldn't you agree?
Love is complete joy and acceptance
Willing to sacrifice yourself
And that's not even necessarily your life.
Jumping in front of a bullet isn't easy
But it's easier than changing your schedule
At times.
Hate is always bad
So why is it acceptable to hate
The people who've hated the most?
We can't learn from mistakes
Or just move on without acknowledging them?
Well, I'm a firm believer
That cookie dough is always good.
Except when it makes you sick.
Tastes like salmonella.
But cookie dough is still always good.
Except when it makes you fat.
But
Cookie dough is still always good.
Except when you don't get any cookies.
Cookie dough tastes better anyway.

Become part of the mindless masses
Be secure in your lack of identity
And then wake up when you are brave enough to be insulted

What if we're all
Pretending
To be something
Nobody
Wants to be?
We're all pretending it's
Okay to be like this
Because we think we're the only ones
Pretending
And that everyone is okay
With this pretense.
But what if nobody is okay with it?
And we're stuck
Pretending.

Sitting under a tree
Next to you
Not for long
But
There is few things
That I have enjoyed
More.

Conditional love
Is not love at all.
It is a contract.
A contract saying that you will
Act a certain way
If the other person acts the right way.
And if that contract is violated
Your "love" would be
Void.
Love is a promise.
A promise that you will not stop
Caring for the other person
No matter what happens
What they say
Or do
That you may not like.
You love them anyway.
If you love someone
You will stay by their side
Through thick and thin
Through all trials and tribulations
That life may throw at you.

At least, that's what I think.

For you
I think I would do
Anything.
Because of this one
Tiny little thing.
I don't know what it is
But I like it.
Love
When I think about
You
I don't care about
Anything
Else.
All I want is to
Hold you
Kiss you
Fall asleep to you
Wake up to you.
Even things
I don't like
I would do
If it meant I could see you
Even for a moment.
Cause I'm
Crazy
For you.
And honestly
I like it.

Was a single tear
Really all I could spare?
I feel like ****
I'm a ******* *******
Only one?!
What is my problem.
Sitting on my high ******* horse
Feeling glad that I don't judge others
Like some christians
When I do it anyway.
Feeling bad
And all I can bring
Is ONE tear...
****.

Why do you
Tell me to shut up
When I tell you
That you're cute?
Because I mean...
It makes you get
Even cuter.

I see the cycle
And well, it is terrible
When will this crap end?

We all have words
We enjoy.
Some of mine?
I'm glad you asked.
Gothic
Shadowy
Scythe
Cross
Slash
Deep
Tattered
Gouge
Stit­ch
Terrifying
Love
Fear
Unknown
Unnamed
Tear
Hide
Blood
Churning
­Agony
Hatch
Eternal
Internal
Unending
I don't necessarily like
The connotations of
These words.
But I like them.
What are your favorites?

So many days
Are they numbered?
Of course
Is the obvious answer
But is it that simple?
I'm curious how the days were
Before time
Before creation
The eternity
Before eternity
No gadgets
To measure time
No light
No darkness
Nothing
Feelings?
Nope
Senses?
Nope
ANYTHING?!
No.
How were days then?
How can we measure a day
Split into smaller numbers
Seems smaller
Yet larger
We can't move through time
Because we first need to move through a second
But to move through a second
We need to move through a half-second
And to move through a half-second
Well
You know.
But somehow we do.
It's impossible
According to logic
So how do we do it?
Time is relative
So in a time without anything
We have an eternity all at once
Forever
In our minds
Within a second
Infinitely old
Yet infinitely young
Infinitely mature
With no maturity
Our feeble human minds cannot fathom eternity
Or can we?
You tell me.
I have time.
...
An eternity, in fact.

I've thought
I understand
I hope
I'm right

It's not to be taken lightly

Let us have some
Deep conversation
What shall we talk about?
There is so much
To choose from.
Shall we ponder our own existence?
Shall we consider the intricacies of life?
Shall we prophesy the future?
Shall we discuss the past?
There is any number of
Things to talk about.
Take your pick.

You asked
A while ago
For deep conversations?
Right?
Well
I delivered
Somewhat.

Oh dear,
There seems to be some deer
Looking at me with a queer sneer
And wiggling their rear.

I will stand defiant
I will fight
I will never accept
A world that encourages
Celebrates
My self-destruction.

This world
I am not of it.
That is my decision.

Canoodling is to
Kiss and cuddle amorously
...
I looked it up.

We drive up to our house.
Now mom's house
And you sigh
You get that look
You tell us to hurry
And you pull out your phone.
Trying desperately not to cry.

It hurts me too.

Last night
I had a dream
A demon at the window.
Though I got him to leave
I am awake
And suddenly afraid of my own shadow.
Dreams do not often mess with me
But I am truly afraid
Though it was but a dream...
Wasn't it?

Society today
As a whole
Is becoming numb.
We play games
Where we shoot others for fun
**** them
...
Why is it fun?
I can't say
That I haven't tried.
It may be skill
Exploration
Achievement
But that can all be found
Outside.
The sky is still blue.
The trees green.
The grass itchy.
The people laughing.
The party-goers grilling.
Some guns even.
But if you come outside
Don't treat it like a game.
Because it's not.

Answer me this.
What is the difference
Between words
And
Poetry?
I write words
That could pass as
Poetry
Or is it
Poetry
That could pass as
Words?
Someone tell me
Because I fail to see the difference.

Society
Is poisoned
By religion.
Religion
Brings about
Separation.
It moves us
Away from God.
It gives us
The need
To judge those
With different
Beliefs.
It has led
To bloodshed
Throughout history.
My faith
However
Is not religion.
It tells me
Not
To judge
Others.
Because that is not
My
Job.
I am here
To bring love
Not hate
Or
Judgement
Which people use
To get their
Own brand
Of life.
They thrive off of being
"Better"
Than others.
They think
"At least I'm not
Like them."
But this is
Wrong.
Love is the way
Not
Judgement.

My people are ridiculed
Because of the others
The corrupt
They are intolerant
They rely on dogma
They are political powers
They spread fear
Though they have unsurpassable worth
I am talking about
Christianity
It is dying
But my faith is not
Because I follow Jesus
Not a pope

Everything going on in my life
Doesn't feel like
My life.
I feel like I'm constantly
Pretending
Acting like someone else
Someone kind
Someone caring
Not that I'm not
But it all feels fake
Somehow

I'm falling away.
Someone catch me

Please

Sometimes running
Sometimes in the shade
Sometimes herding
Sometimes wanting to play

Always happy

It would be useless if you did anything
Anything at all
Whether or not it is beneficial to anyone
Because if you do it without love
In who's heart could it ever be real?

Hiding never helped
Hiding only hurts
Because you forget you're hiding
You just think nobody cares
Instead, stand up
Throw down
You own this place
You own this earth
You deserve just as much as others
Don't hide, because you won't be sought
Seek, for you may just find what you want

Don't try
And it works much
Better.

Negative emotions
Are never worth more than
A stray thought
In fact
They aren't even worth that.

Walking during the dark night
My faithful friend trotting at my side
Adventuring the night away
Nothing can stop us!
Onward!
We will conquer the world!
To victory!
Glory!
We're going to be the very best!
Like no one ever was!
To catch them is our real test...
To train them is our cause!
Every challenge along the way
With courage we will face!
We will battle every day!
To claim
Our rightful place.

I go to bed
And I wait.
I wait for sleep to envelop me
Overriding all of my connections
Taking over my dormant mind.

I wait
I wait for the dream you want us to share
The dream we've both had
Repeatedly.
Tonight, shall we share it?

I'll be waiting for you
In my dreams.

As I write
I am only just waking up
And I had a dream
That scared me
I don't know why
Perhaps it was a metaphor.
Perhaps unrealistic thoughts jumbled together.
Something had happened
Though I still know not what
And humanity had fallen.
I had found a group of people to be with
You were with me, love
I was so relieved
To have you near me.
Many months passed
Our little group of survivors
Huddled
In dimly lit sewers
Awaiting whatever fate may bring.
When out of the corner of my eye
I saw you walk out
Failing to mention to anyone where
You were going.
I of course went after you
Ignoring my fear of the scattered heaps of machinery
The darkness, movement in the night
And as I ran
I caught a glimpse of you
Seemingly talking to the air
Yelling at it
Asking why it was back to haunt you
After you thought it gone
All this time
And you began running
Screaming
Crying
And I ran after you.

I could no longer see.
But I knew you were there.
I dived and caught you.
I whispered to you that
You are not alone
And you do not have to face things
On your own.
I would give anything
To see you happy.
And suddenly, I was no longer looking through
My eyes.
Just an onlooker
Who happened to see you return
Alone
But it looked like a weight was lifted
An old scar healed
And I think I would've been glad.
Had I still been by your side.
I know not if this means anything
The sheer amount I think about you
The medication freaking out my body
I just know that I feel uneasy
A sense of dread fills me as I write
And I do not know why!
It may be meaningless
But I had to share this.

Holding you
I just feel
At peace.
I know you so much better than I did
When our relationship started.
4 months tomorrow!
Time really flies
When you're learning
Fighting
Crying
Yearning
And falling in love.
Nothing feels more right than being near you.
Nothing even compares.
Our relationship is constantly
Growing
Changing
Like rain drops on a  battered windshield
We started with 2 drops combining
But as time passes
We grow
Larger and larger
Transforming
And I find myself
More and more
In love with you.
And nothing else seems to matter.

This music
The drums
The beat
So much faster than anything
And my heart races to catch up
Left in the wake

Is it possible to die
Without dying?
Of course it is
The world did it

I reach out
But I cannot touch you
I cannot touch anything

It's easy to take the easy way
Easy to pretend that what is, isn't
Living without a care because you don't believe in caring
Dying without a care because your life didn't matter
You made it to the roof, but you kicked away the ladder
It carried you up, but you say it isn't there
How does that work?  Don't ask me
Because I'm wrong, right?  Listen
You know it's right but you choose left
Walking away because it's easy, that road leads to pain
To death and burns, cuts
Rainbows fade, unicorns aren't real, but it sure is fun to pretend
Right?
It's fun to write nasty things, fun to offend and upend
Fun to push and pull, throw rocks, fire shots
Chainsaws don't give a peaceful sound
Guns hurt your ears, harsh sounds
It's merely a sound, but harsh sounds can break your ears
Harsh thoughts can break your mind
Thoughts of death can bring it, hasten it
No need to be chasing it.

Emotionless
Thoughtless
Wandering aimlessly
I cannot see
I merely weep my pain
Shoving it onto others
While my hurt is only ever
Skin deep

Is this an
Escape?
The things I do
The words I say
The music I enjoy
The people I love
I'm unsure why
This word is going
Through my head
Escape
Escape
Escape
I only have one thing
That I want to escape.
We all want to escape it.
Take my hand.
We can escape together.

Even when I am trying
To tread carefully
I ***** up.
In fact
I made it worse.

I want a lot of things.

Food.

Water.

Friends.

Family.

Shelter.

Comfort.

Li­fe.

Love.

Understanding.

Money.

Experiences.

Joy.

Fellowshi­p.

Yearning.

Knowing other souls.

To help others.

Time.

But what do I
Really


*NEED?

Worse pain than this sickness
I endure
By being separated from you
On today of all days.
Well, our six months is just a month away now.
I'll make it up to you.

Why is it that
Whenever I look into your
Eyes,
I feel like I'm dreaming?
Your eyes are beautiful
Even more so because
They're yours.

And here I sit
Refreshing my email
What do I expect?

This world
Is fallen.
This world
Is corrupted.
This world
Is possessed.
I pains me to see
Every day
That this world isn't
Getting better.
I too
Am sinking.
I forget
What matters
I am not
Polite
I don't compliment
When I want to.
Am I afraid?
Because I always feel
Like something is
Holding me back.
Something that is
Not
Me or Myself or I.
I want to tell people
"I love you"
I want to say
"I like that outfit"
I want to remember
"Please, thank you"
And I know to
And I try
But it isn't easy
And I find myself
Struggling
To say these things.
But I'm not sure why.

Often
When I use the word
Fallen
I mean that I am being overtaken
By sin
By anything bad
But there is one type of falling I don't mind
Which is
Falling in love with you.

This may be kind of corny
But it's how I feel.

Fanciful
Romanciful
That button on your pants iful
Do a little dance iful
Jump around and prance iful
Typical
Whimsical
Tickle tickle tickle
Swimmin'
Brimmin'
Out on a limb in
I'm not cringin
Door fallin off hinge in
Eliminate the g
Bumble bee
I'm just rhyming now
What a perv right
Warm summer's night
Let's do it right
it right
Smite
The fire breathing
Knight
Night fright
Demons at the window
Beat 'em up with jindo
I'm done...