I miss the times when you were here telling me to have no fear, to hold my head up high and strong, add happy notes to my sad song.
I miss the way you looked at me as if I were too blind to see the path I was on might hurt and scathe
But all goes well if you just have faith.

I miss the sound of your voice through bitter times , a saving noise that told me what was right and wrong but rang in my ears for far too long.

A caring person that helped and hurt me so much..
You'd guide and mislead me through the day. You left me lonely when I'd rather you stay..

Over things like that you had no control. A rock set in motion will continue to roll..

Then one day you never returned. My tears were so hot they burned.
Aware now about what I lack, crying and mourning won't bring you back

For me to let out what I need to say, I can't do much more than pray
I no longer want to feel weak, my hearts been quite strong. I'm still adding a happy chorus to a sad, sad song.

One does not simply own beauty, one creates it.
In their dreams, they feel they can obtain it.

All alone, in a dark nights rest.
all their thoughts.. lifeless.

Cursed by change and
hidden by lies,
Running from the truth
beauty now dies.

They don't understand
They don't truly care.
Beauty now burns, leaves smoke in the air.

Years go by and age seeps in.
Beauty's worn out,
life is giving in.

Death creeps up, beauty now cries.
You're all alone in your beautiful lies!

I sat there alone just thinking one day
**** I lost my will, I lost my ways
I ran from all I ever knew.
What happened to the dreams I wanted to pursue?
I drank from wells set on fire and filled myself with unholy desires.
I dressed the part to play the role
and slowly began to lose my soul.
But when you're down and shadows grow and you have nowhere left to go, the only way to rise again is to help yourself , maybe tell a friend.
They leave when you're at your worst, they're out there making hearts hurt.
They claim so many titles and have too many idols. Why can't we just be ourselves?

Their promises bleed through the incisions
They never ******* understand the mission.
But I keep marching like any soldier would
even though at times I feel misunderstood.
I keep fighting and giving it the best when it's not enough
I promise to never give up when it gets too rough

I don't know how to explain the feeling without it sounding like it's normal.
I can smile and laugh,
I can talk but I rather not.
The sadness never ends.
I feel empty, and I feel like I'm not good enough.
No matter how hard I try to show how much I love and care, it's never enough.
My heart is tearing into pieces.. and I feel the darkness pulling me under its wing again.
I shouldn't have learned how to love or care because now I'm hurt!
And I don't know how to fix myself.
Whenever I feel like I'm okay, something always happens to tear my heart apart again.
I am a mess.
People think they can handle me when I can't even handle myself.
My heart is broken..
I could never say this so I wrote it on paper.

the last day I saw your pretty face and felt your warm lips on mine
it was the best day and also the worst day of my life
I didn't want to leave you.
See, I love you so much and each day without you is like a day without the sun and a night without a moon
You're my all, my everything and always will be
Even though I'm gone, you're place in my heart will be there for all eternity.
It was you that kept me feeling alive and you're the reason why I still live
We'll see each other again.
I'll feel those sweet warm lips on mine again and feel your smile on my cheek.
You're my most beautiful girl in the world

I watched as she collapsed
Her ****** expression, the sadness in those eyes
the tears that just poured and ran like a waterfall down her cheeks
How she yelled out for her mother that was no longer living on earth, but in our hearts.
"Take me instead!"
My heart crashed.
I turned around, not being able to take the words I just heard or what I just saw.
I walked away, I could feel several eyes watching me as
the tears continued to pour down my cheeks and soak my shirt.
Inside I was screaming, "Take me instead!"