last love's shadow,
exhausting
my mind is a rat race
shook and breaks
and i am not withholding
arms upon arms
wring your regrets around my neck
my darling
i'd still kiss every finger
until you've nothing left
we'll overthink this to death
and then it's up to you
where you'll stand
what's next

This hell in my head
I can't shake it
This hell in my head
I can't fake it

I think about it all
about what was lost
I think about it all
about what we had

'Cause no one's gonna **** up my way
No one's gonna **** up my way now

If I told you what's on my mind
in the night
would you be careless with it
would you fight

What an odd thought
of what's not, of what's gone
A strong bond
I knew it wasan't the one

This hell in my head
I can't shake it
This hell in my head
I can't fake it

Babygirl told me to own that ****
so I'm gonna own that ****
gonna wrap my legs and heart around it
'til the armor, it cannot fit

Babygirl told me to own that ****
so I'm gonna own that ****
gonna wrap my legs and heart around it
'til you cannot but feel this *****

How strange
How strange
It is to love
How strange
How strange
It is at all

no armor
needed
when it comes to you

only ardour,
undressed.

your love
it gives
your love
it tests

my initial thoughts
on what it was that
i even thought loving is

archaic
like the times
i used to play basketball
in the street in front of my house
with my brother
(David)

archaic
like the times
i sat on my bed
crossed legged and
filled with wonder
(terra)

archaic
like the times
you would braid my hair
and i knew you loved me
(Faith)

archaic
like the times
we finished each other's poems
on the rooftop of your tiny bedroom
(Lucas)

archaic
like the times
you took me for night drives
and we listened to new music
without speaking
and i knew that we didn't have to
(Strands)

archaic
like the time you took me
to Stinson Beach and
we played basketball
on a tiny heath
and you kissed me
wholly
fully knowing
we wouldn't last
(Strands)

archaic
like the times
all the times
these lives
that we live

your tethered past
lingers and surfaces on days it chooses to
and i'm left guessing which mood will greet me in the
morning
i'll always live in your last love's shadow

wrap my arms around you and miss you
as if i've the right to
well, now we do
and we allow it

words
leave me
confused
minute by minute
playback commentary
but i've no listen left