Why do I have to remember something that happened ten years back ?
Why do I still shed tears over it?
I know for a fact that I could not
Deprive from the unreal for
I was so naive but still...
Why is it still hurting?

Psychologically it affected me
It damaged my emotions and
Changed my interactions all
Because of one little incident

I'm old enough now but
I still reminisce about it now and then
Why?
I have questions that I
Know no man could ever
Answer and pain no medicine
Can heal
This is how broke I am inside

I want to write happy stuff
But I can't because I haven't healed yet

I was only five
I was naive
couldn't deprive
from the unreal

You were nine
you said all
was gonna be
fine
can't believe
I was blind to see
what you did
to me was a
crime

I can no longer
feel
can't see
can't heal
can't hear
can't be myself

My confidence
my pride
my smile
all went dull

I'm shy
all I do is cry
I hide
I'm scared

Why did you do it??

Cause this world
hates me
hear me for
they aren't
near

Take me cause
they can't stand me
they don't
understand
they can't
even comprehend

The nightmares
false prophecies
being friendless
and the
hypocracy
is just too much

Please take me
I promise I'll do
good
I'll follow your
will
I won't be
rude

If you lead
I'll be out of need
Plaese just take me
with you...

She feels broken
she wants to be heard
she wants to be open
Please be alert

Behind her walls
there's no way out
no one to hear her
when she shouts
no one to stop her
from hurting herself

Only walls
walls full
of blood
scratches
tears
patches
fears

Behind her walls
Is a girl who has
been enslaved
a girl who wants
to be saved

If you could listen
you'd know the
parts that are
missin
If you could hear me
you'd know what
fears me
If you could see
you'd do
something about
my needs

But because you don't
know me
you won't show me
the love I
deserve
you'll treat me like
a reserve and leave
me with greed

If I could give a
dime just to
spend time with
you I would and
maybe
maybe our love
could be sealed
and nailed shut

This is not a cipher
it's more like a
decipher so if
you can read this
you'll know what
it means and where
it leads

If you could listen
you'd know the
parts that are
missin
If you could hear me
you'd know what
fears me
If you could see
you'd do
something about
my needs

But because you don't
know me
you won't show me
the love I
deserve
you'll treat me like
a reserve and leave
me with greed

If I could give a
dime just to
spend time with
you I would and
maybe
maybe our love
could be sealed
and nailed shut

This is not a cipher
it's more like a
decipher so if
you can read this
you'll know what
it means and where
it leads

When the trumpet
is going to blow
when the moon
and stars will
stop glowing
when the sun
will stop
shining
when the river will
stop flowing and
when the birds will
stop flying

What you do know
is that it's morning
you know where
you're going
you know the
wealth of others
you know your
health and
yourself

What you don't
know is whose
turn it is to shine
to lead the line
and blow your
mind


It's like this
when you think
you know something
that's where you find
out you know nothing

You Never Know

I was treated like
a pearl cause I was
the only girl
As time passed
I started to blend
in with the boys
lost my softness
and threw away all
my toys

I was seven when I
held the fine wood bat
for the first time
I was eleven when
I played my first
match and took
a catch that made my
mates proud

My love for cricket
grew even deeper
when I got my wicket

Started to bowl
bat and field  
took the role as
captain and went
with the lead

It is engraved in my
veins and forever
it'll stay remain

I'm tired of the girls
who keep teasin'
They look at me
with shame
They use my name in
their silly games

Please hear me
cause the pain goes
straight to the brain
and my days are invaded
with rain
I don't know who to
blame for this

They told me you left us
when I was just a little kid
Daddy wherever you are
I hope you are thinking
of us cause me and mommy
are trying to cope with hole
you left in our hearts

Daddy if you can hear me
If you can see us
please come near
so I can be free
knowing that I have a
hero
who will play a big role
in my life
All I'm asking is
for you to listen

Before the last chapter
ends
Let us make amends to
the people we've
wronged
To those we love
let us cherish each
moment we share
with them

Before the last chapter
closes
Roses will still be
red
The sky will still be
blue
Our five senses will
still be true

After the chapter we'll
depature
we'll leave earth
before the rapture
We will live a new
life
startin' on a new
lane
not from money
or fame
We will get everything
in his name
As he will forever
reign

The last chapter is near
Do not fear
The Lord is here

The trumpet is blowing
the dead are rising
the living are transfigured
you don't even know where
you're going

The trumpet is blowing
people are rejoicing
you're still roaming
on the streets not
knowing

The king is here
fear endures
who's staying
and who's leaving?
Stars are fallin'
the moon turns red
the weather gets bad
satan's getting mad
doom is all that'll be left
guess what'll be next?

A new chapter will
be opened
The trumpet is blowing
where are you going?

Tired of being hurt
tired of crying herself
to sleep
she wants to be heard
cause death isn't
sweet

She's tired of being
the same
tired of all the noise
tired of being
put to shame
tired of all the
boys who always
try to have their
way in

She's tired of being blamed
tired of being abused
tired of being the aim
she's tired of being used

she decided to
take a leap and
fall asleep forever
because she got
tired of the game
that always caused
her pain
she got tired because
she never gained the
love she needed and
pleaded for.

You Never Know
you never know when the
trumpet is going to blow
when the moon and stars
will stop glowing
when the sun will
stop shining
when the river will stop flowing
when the birds will stop
flying.
What you do know is
that it's morning
you do know the
fired ones
you do know where
you're going
you even know the tired ones
rich one,poor ones,fake and real Gs
you know all that...
What you don't know is
whose turn it is to shine,to
lead the line and blow your mind
Do you know???