I remember being too scared
to climb on the tire swing
We karate kicked it
We laughed so hard
I felt like a little kid again
We got lost in each other
that the time had slipped
And in that darkness
your eyes were still just as bright
as the stars above us.

I wish I could wear
my heart on my sleeve
so I can be seen
for what I really am
I am composed of many things
but most of all
I am tender and sensual
and I try to be gentle
But I know for sure that
I'm not the most simple

Just when I start to feel lighter
and brighter
You bring your dark storm clouds
and heavy rain showers
You shake up this temporary euphoric world I created
And knock me back into the brim of hell's realm

You said you like games
and you like to win
That's something we have in common being astrological twins
But at this point
I can't keep playing them again
The frustration is killer
I feel like tearing off my skin
I shouldn't have to get drunk
To find my sanity within

I hate being vulnerable
and showing any weakness
But I wish I could show you just how much you've broken my heart into pieces
For a while I didn't know why I stayed
Thought at this point you were disposable
But when the tears started falling
I called you for closure
Why are you doing this to me?
Is it revenge?
These mind games,
once you begin there is no end
Somehow I know everything you said wasn't a lie
And just like the break ups before
this isn't really a goodbye

You hate the fact that I sleep too much
But you also hate the fact that I don't sleep enough
What exactly do you want from me: I  don't know
But I can give you the brightest glow just in my smile
And that sparkle in my eye that drives you wild
My depression doesn't define me
because I am a beauty, your queen
But if you can't handle the darkness of me as well
Then obviously you aren't fit to be my king

Shot after shot the tears start to diminish
Topped with prescription pills for the finish
I don't want to die anymore
I just want a break every once in a while from this life that feels like a heavy chore