Take this confusion by the mind
a self-inflicted lack
nurtured knowledge compromised
for enduring physical necessity
slowed enough to understand
ignorance rules my life
in need of patient teaching
to break through false learning
and quench a thirst to know.

Take this hollow by the heart
peace and joy inspired beats
for me, for you
turning cold like stone
a will dying
halting thumping efforts
bleeding tears of shame
for apathy clotted caring  
and a life meant for giving.

Take this yearning by the womb
deluge anointing like summer rain
warm and cleansing
fiercely fueled passion
kept alive by imagination
held sacred since
sweetness dreamed of tingling kisses
grown to heaving breaths
exploring flesh and fantasy.

Take this conflict by the hand
hold tight as faith spirals into fear
past influenced disbelief,
determined
like my need for certainty
yet far stronger than I
guide me through doors
kept cautiously closed
peaked in by curiosities
slammed shut by pain.