I can smile again,
I can feel the weight
Lifting off my shoulders.
The tears I cried now dry on the concrete

The memories fading with the setting of the sun
I'm going to be here, still. Like the half circle in the missing piece just rolling along

I'm not done. Far from it. In fact I've just begun.

I can smile again.

OK I get it, you hate it when I write
but relax I have a surprise more like a super prize
throw the axe at the bull's eye, straight to the point I'll give no lies
I'm just lying on the floor, I'm not lying to you, telling the sore truth till my soul dies
_ why would I dye the facts, I'm not gambling but I threw all of my die, maybe this will help me rise
from the dead, instead of being dead alive, falling apart as I strive for mercy from the heavens above the skies
there's levels for evilness I'm at the middle that's what the needle on the meter says, I'm far from the devil's, but I hide in disguise
_ it's Valentine's Day, oh yay, oh my god what do I have to say, umm **** it, that **** is not mine, it's full of gold diggers though I guess it's a mine, they are all minors, all the kids I can't believe my eyes
_ it's a relief to know some of you don't buy this ****, if you buy  a flower you'll be called a coward, I think you can buy potatoe and make a Beautiful thing like French fries
maybe I'm a hate king because as the hate grow you start to get that feeling the one you get when you hurt a toe, when you hear someone talk about their pitiful life, tear up then cries
so here's an advice to all of my allies we need to arise to create a franchise to criticize those who emphasize the need of this day or anyone who thinks likewise, it's time to sanitize this world, so harmonize then synchronize with me, I'd do it myself if my ***** had a bigger size  you can't destroy a tank with a paintball ( I didn't apologize), but don't worry I'll give you my word you'll get lyrical supplies, this whole world is mine to demonize

*so why I'm standing here for,
Right there by your front door
Place a box is it a flower, a bear, dare to come near and that **** will blow and melt your face to the floor*

you know what I don't bear, the ******* red bare bear, who had the right to declare that it's right to compare an animal you catch with a snare to compassion love and care, I can't see the match right there, but **** it if I care, I'd rather watch a soccer match rather than burning my heart on this Love's flare, what destroyed my resort is the flair for a long lasting affair, it's ain't fair ! But forget it it's not about me, my match is no longer lit and I can't go anywhere, but I know non of you give a **** or care, man **** it if she wants a bear, there's a zoo take her there, push her too, down the  stairs, little advice tell her not to stare, the case will be rare if didn't **** her underwear with despair, the craze is  you might not stay a pair but you'll have a great story to share
but I have to say, that there once a day where I had a feeling that helped me not decay and held me up to stay on my way and not go away, and removed the strap off my ability to rap and say what I wanna say up till to day, if I'd to be Eminem she'd be doctor Dre, but know I'm moving from place to place on a dray it's hard to keep your **** in place when there's no side rails, she's a blue Jay and I feel blue everyday,I don't want a part to play in this play called my life ,if I can glue all the parts of my family back I wouldn't feel this way, but on my phone there's pictures of violet bruises that'll stay in my head I can't forget no way, it was a violent day, now I'm trying to burn my heart on this ashtray, I shot but I missed the trey
a fallen angel maybe a devil I didn't care about the danger, I just saw that she's quite clever, I'd just pretend to be a post, tend to be a ghost summon a demon and be his host, whatever it takes I'll pay the cost, just to have a look, said nothing I'd be shook, but satisfied my innermost thoughts, because those were almost burning, roasted like toast, but it's okay now those are buried or lost

so what am I doing here I'm an introvert
Not looking to look up your skirt
I'm a creep but not a pervert
But I have a heart too, just saying to alert

ney I'm not done yet, someone understand what did I say by the way, right attssini, when you see your high school crush u feel the  blood rush and you get that chill that you can't take off, you need to chill and seal the blush, that's nearly love, but I had enough from chasing feelings, cause I'm ain't enough, that's no bluff, if I'd give a stuffed bear I'd use my guts as stuffing to stuff the animal you love , he'd be a coward but still he'll rip your guts, so you won't have the guts to touch, you'll say I'm nuts and leave in a rush. To hell with the love that gave me my blood, I never thought dad was a stud,  that feeling was always the hub of survival, now it's not, I'm here for money but even that is out of my reach , what a luck, so dear love I try not to give a ****, convince myself that I **** even if a had a million bucks, I'm not that buff, and this life is rough I'm not that tough,
So I can't do this I'm just....
But wait it's always me against the odds, even if we're even I'm still odd, you can't be like everyone and be number one on top, I know you don't understand but just nod in agreement, no ones knows me but god, still I'm evil like a demon

_ listen to this ! so you want me to lay some answers, please state that you demand it
any specific font? Before I say I'm cancerous, wait I'm gonna hand it
to be specific I don't try to play badass, but mate you said you saw stampers that says I'm a bandit
I may be a pessimist, but I won't say I'm broken, not like break dancers, a bit late for first aid, this needs more than a bandage
many things on my wishing list, got to get a sword, I'm out attacking campers in a raid, take the hunting bate to make a sandwich
I'm over slipping the wrist, but I can't hold a knife, the hand tampers the body, some scars are hand made, I look at my face and I can't stand it
I'm stepped over by an elephant, rot and I feel like an old shape of wildlife, as my bravery scampers away like a puppy, it's a turtle race but I'm a handicapped rabbit
see I'm a mentalist, I'll unveil the untold stories of anyone's life,who am I ? I don't think it matters, but once I stayed on the red planet
I know my words seem irrelevant, I'm just cold inside, imagine that non of the bankers gave you a loan, so you stayed alone, crippled by hate, dying slow under your blanket
attention to my words, I'm the lumberjack to the rotten wood of my family tree, there's no heart cold as mine
detention never works on the thunderclap with his forgotten childhood, clapping happily in every political party, no cake for the minor pushed to start a career in the coal mine
tension when I mention that Karl Marx isn't the worst, people may wonder that I'm from the hood, but I'm actually worse than that the body and soul ain't fine
this invention is backfiring on his lords, like a finger snapped, no I'm not good, the legacy get ****** but no one follows me, and I can't find my role I'm ...


_so it seems that every time I pick the pencil
Everything I write has to suspenseful
You say it's hard, that's not right it's simple
I don't know it's just like popping a pimple
It's not that important, would it give me the life of Paris Hilton_


so what do you know about being broke, so broke that your body parts floats away in pieces
just to let you know I no longer feel like a human being, wishing for a heart stroke, and the peace is
_ death , it's easier than the things I'm seeing, but it seems far I'm gonna use my own rope, so help me Jesus
or I can meet Beth, she helps in my healing, I hope I can do it in some recess
mess and emptiness is the only things I'm feeling, note that I have a heart inside not just feces
_ **** and Molly percocets, are helping me agreeing, I thought it'll ignite the fire of will, but now I stand here as it freezes
_ ladies I don't like to shed light on me, probably you won't like what you'll see, most likely you won't like me cause the most is ain't like me, anyone likes tea ? In the ninja Turtles mentality I'm a mix between Donatello and Mikey, we're the same hight, man it's getting exciting, who wants something to do with the kid from pikes peak, he's slightly weird , but still he manged to grow a beard. Still do you wanna fight me, I just said I'm a ninja and my blades are spiky. Staying still but I might be dead, you'd probably wanna check my vital signs and the pulse in my neck, but don't bother I was diagnosed as a corpse clinically, I won't come back please don't beg there's nothing I can do technically
never give a knife to a criminal, tonight don't put the light on in your living room, act normal despite the bodies in the swimming pool, it's OK act like a fool when see me pushing stool off the wooden stool with a spoon under the light of the luminous moon, when I talked like  this  sounded cool, I never had fight in the  elementary school, I spent all the nights abiding rules, but others on the sight of opportunity would dribble and drool, alright this is enough to deliver the message, you didn't feel it it's subliminal


*you're just praising my talent
But I wish I never had it
Couldn't have anything else instead
But If I  didn't have it I wouldn't have something to spaz with
I got loose like a black panther now ain't that right Chadwick *

Do re me
_ so I'm just a wanna be
wanna be human ob-vious-ly
I don't know about hu-man-ity
but there's a less of a human left in me
I'd like it actually
_ if my blood would stop in my pulmonary artery
it's no urinary pathology
I just like to *** publicly
I'm just impolite right daddy?
the worst day in my life is when you had me
if wanna disgust me
you'd better pay me some money
_ it's hard to throw up with an empty
stomach but it's OK I can't feel my belly
and hey I'm not here to cause controversy
but ******* nursing
and please don't wait for an apology
play the violin my name has dropped, heading to the asylum because my songs on the stage has flopped, I'm a murderer hear the sirens it's not what for I hoped , I wish I could just caged it inside and then with it I could have coped
but it's amazing how the cops came to tase me, trying to place me on the ground of the hall, but I was trying to act the way they rased me please let me go,but why won't you place me, what would you name me literally a lunatic or generally crazy, go ahead amaze me

I'm no storyteller but I feel like telling a story...
_ oh well I guess this tale is a bit classic
about a devil with no tail and a heart made of plastic
met a rebel in jail fell in love, guess who she ran with
_ pedal to the metal, left no trail, cut all family ties with a hatchet
_ they thought it was special, how the Capricorn and the whale came together, relation filled with passion
_ it was about time they'd settle together thinking forever, they soon got there first egg, a male they discovered after they hatched it
_ mind colorful like a petal, soon the only color he'll be filled of is black as he sails, till then everything will remain static
_ so he was given his name, I'd  be lying if I said he shared anything with a lion I guess Kevin would have been better, this frail kid couldn't face the destructive gale,
So he just hid on the attic
_ half hell half heaven, he had to put a veil more like a restrain to hide his weirdness, for art and science he was becoming an addict
he had to wrestle himself to fit in and follow his dreams, but all in vain, because he never knew what his social class is
yet he was clever, but they gave the credit to the blood in his vein, but still he passed all his classes
_ less important than his blood vessel, but he wished he could dale someone who shared the same vision in his glasses
_ but love didn't show up in his way yet he showed mettle, so he always try to nail his heart to the wall, and keep it locked till he's in the casket
_ stormy is the weather in his head, he cried alone looking pale in the dark,  for so long it became a habit
_ seven Plus one days into December of the second millennia, is the date of the first inhale and exhale of that kid, words fall in place like magic, but this story is tragic
listen devil all you do is nettle everyone now I can't take this pressure, placed in this kettle, I wish I can explain or give more than one detail, but how big is the scale, it's like I'm tied to a rail and I can see the coming train, sorry if I'm being graphic, panic attacks when I attack in panic, but I'm just like a rabbit killed by traffic, I know it sounds dramatic and you won't like it, but everyone liked the Titanic

*the vision is clear like a night owl
Walking in the dark and can see not through his eyes though, yet filled with fear but I know, when she is near my heart will glow*

it always feels like Deja Vu ever since she is over you, no glue can glue what's broken between you two, she's like a Zulu you couldn't catch what she threw, she hates you, yeah me too, now I can boo you the way I always wanted to do badly
The blue blew and I'm acting coocoo due to the flu that flew because of you above me sadly
who knew she'll sue and now this is the new shoe I'll have to fit into, I wish you went through extinction like a dodo before you had me
_ dude you can have no panda zoo with no bamboo but you have no clue ****** Doo, ain't no driving champ too but you can drive the ***** you onto you from my mouth gladly
_ my whole life is in queue until I hit the streets with my crew , cue music then I let the beat kick in like Kung Fu fighting into my Brian's  tissue down the alley
you had many shots all you do is miscue, you missed the hoop, you can't believe what I'm saying as if I'm speaking Hebrew, you brought me enough tears but you ain't no shampoo, your only chance is through voodoo dolls if you ask me


I'm the crow in your nightmare, you know you have to prepare a **** glow flare, for your dark room or I'll show up there, but only when people show care I can repair

it just became a cycle I try to build feelings then they get hit by a cyclone, and I'm going ******, my whole world is going down a spiral, I can't believe that my old man is my rival, I wouldn't hesitate to shot him with a rifle, I don't think I'll wait for the trial, only if someone's arrival in my life could me my revival so I can ensure my survival, I hope this someone shows up quickly because I'm becoming suicidal with my thoughts, I'm no holly like a Bible but I'm special read the title
_ I'm basic with these phrases cause all people see is that I'm weird, it's true my head is going places, but now there is a beat in me where should I places this, I don't know I feel like getting out of my location, I'm dead due to different cases but I guess the judge will tell what the case is, I just wanna go out on a vacation to the sun light oasis, forget about hearing voices and being wasted through my different mental stages like Jason, I've been like this for ages, now tell me do you know who the base is ؟??؟


                JUST A WEIRD KID