Tonight i want to be love like in the films, like I read on Instagram. But who could I ever ask that?
I always pushed love away and even if  I succeed to get the best lover ever I always **** their feeling and mine.
At the time that I am actually ready to share there is no more perfect lover in front of me to receive them as they should be received : with butterfly in the stomach and hapiness in the smile.

Maybe I just always ruined everything. I just don't beleive I am enough to love.